S_tor_m's Journal

Hey everyone. This will be my online verison of my dream journal, so I can hopefully get some feedback and/or advice. I'll start posting as soon as I can.

This is the most recent dream that I can remember, and can't seem to get out of my head.

The dream started out in my dining room downstairs, my family and I were having a little dinner party. I went upstairs to do something on my computer, I think I was looking at pictures or something. Someone knocks on my door and I suddenly get very nervous and tell them to go away. They come in anyway (all 5 of them) and I try to hide my computer screen. I look down and realise that all I have on is a small towel, almost naked, increasing my anxiety. I keep screaming at them to leave my room but they don't listen to a word I say, so I give up and lock myself in my bathroom to hide myself. I come out a little later and my sister says she wants to show me something. On my computer she pulls up a bunch of funny photos from when we were younger, and I could tell she was trying to cheer me up. I go back downstairs and my whole family (besides my sister) is looking at me like I'm insane, almost like they're afraid of me.
Next thing I know, I'm watching a video of myself when I was 4. In the video, I'm showing the camera something and then I say "Fuuuck". For a second I don't realise I did anything wrong, but then my face suddenly changes to fear and I say "I'm sorry, I promise I'll make everything better!"
Suddenly, I'm sitting at my computer desk and sitting on my lap is my four-year-old self. All she kept trying to do was go outside through my window. And then I woke up.

I had a few dreams last night, but I can only recall one of them. None of which were lucid. In the one I can remember, I was in a grocery store. The whole store was in a panic and almost every isle was empty. I was running around the store trying to get things I needed (milk, eggs, essential things like that) and it was like I wouldn't be getting more food for a long time. Suddenly I realized something (don't remember what I realized) and I dropped everything I had. Next thing I know I'm with a bunch of kids (still in the store) whose parents had left without them. I tried to calm them all down but with everyone still in panic it was really hard. One by one, parents came and found their kids, all except for one scared little girl. I woke up before anybody came to get her.

Two dreams I remember from last night

1. A girl I met online calls me and says she bought tickets to see a movie in a theater an hour away from me. She lives in another country, so I'm both caught off guard and ecstatic. However, the movie she wanted to see was one I already owned on dvd, so I was contemplating on going. It is now right before the movie is supposed to start, and she calls me and says "I was just kidding, there's no movie" And then I woke up.

2. I was on a ship in the middle of a battlefield. Guns and cannons were going off all around me and helicopters above the ship were firing down at us. Even with my gun in hand, I had no idea what I was doing, and I was scared to go anywhere other than under the shelter. I turn my head and I see a friend of mine from school getting shot in the arm three times, and he falls to the floor. I drag him to a covered spot and tie a cloth around the wound. Then someone yells at me to get back out there and fight, so I hesitantly leave him on the floor. I don't remember much past that

A few hours ago I decided to take a little nap and try to have a LD, kill some time. I ended up having my first experience with sleep paralysis, that I remember. I was first having a dream in my room with me sitting on my bed and my best friend sitting across from me. I had my head resting on my hand so my head was tilting to the side. I started seeing a bunch of white dots like my vision was dimming (the exact same thing happened when I fainted a few weeks ago) and I knew I'd be passed out at any second. When I fell, I guess I "landed" in the same position I was laying in in waking life. I then realized that I fainted and I started to gain consciousness back, so I could tell my friend I was okay. However, I couldn't move. I could feel the pillow under me and I knew I was on my bed but both in my dream and IRL I couldn't move anything. The only thing I could control was my breathing, which stated to come out faster as I realized I was paralyzed...and I had a mini panic attack. Finally I was able to pull myself out of the dream, but I still couldn't control my body. A few minutes later I sat up and I felt like I just ran a mile without stopping. It was a pretty interesting experience.

I fell back asleep (wanting to see if it would happen again) and woke up to my cell phone going off, saying I had a text message. I reached down, opened my phone and the text was from my best friend, asking if I wanted to do something. I started to text back saying I had to babysit my little sister Julie tonight (I don't have a little sister, or a sister named Julie). Halfway through the text, I realize this and go back to sleep. (I'm pretty sure I was still dreaming at this point, but it all looked remarkably close to my actual surroundings, so it's hard to tell) She calls me a few minutes later and the paralysis happened again. I knew she was calling and my mind was awake, but I couldn't make myself answer the phone. She called back and that time I was able to answer it...probably confusing the hell out of her trying to explain what just happened. The strange part is...I knew it was her texting/calling even though I didn't actually pick up my phone until that last ring. Trippy..

Tor, congratulations on entering SP and having a few FA's. You're well on your way to having vivid WILD's. I rather enjoyed the last post btw. In the future, would you might highlighting your lucid dreams in a different color than your normal dreams? Thanks hun. :)

Sure thing Jeff..guess I didn't realize I was actually lucid. But in the future I'll do that. Moving on to last nights dream, it was pretty long and complicated, but I'll try to explain it. Unfortunately, not lucid.

So in my dream, I had this 'ability' I guess you could say, where if I touch someone I can read their minds. But not really what their thinking, I could see glimpses of the future of what their intending to do. So I was walking along in this outside shopping mall of some kind and I accidentally bumped into this man wearing a big coat, and instantly I saw him doing something with wires and cords and a minute later, the building blowing up. I freaked out and found a security guard, and tried to tell him what I saw. Of course, he didn't believe me, but I dragged him to safety anyway. As soon as I did, the windows of the building shattered and the walls lit up in flame, just as I predicted. The guard looked at me, and I gave him a "I told you so" look...but then realized that a building just blew up and I was in the middle of an attack, so I kinda freaked out and clutched onto the guy.
I was in the middle of explaining to him how I knew that was going to happen, when suddenly I was back where my dream started. The building was back to normal, and everyone was calm again. Since I knew what was about to happen, I skipped the "bumping into the attacker" part and went straight to the security guard. I pulled him aside, told him my story, and tried to convince him to get everyone out of the building asap. I told him the building was about to blow any second, but he just stared at me like I was insane. I knew he wasn't going to believe me until he saw it, so I waited. Minutes pass, and no explosion. He gave me the same "I told you so" look I gave him, and walked away. I was so confused, I didn't understand why it didn't happen. It was like somebody was trying to change the future.
I walked around the mall area trying to find anyone who would believe me, but nobody did. Later there was a concert going on, and everyone in town came to see it. I figured this attacker guy wanted his explosion to have a bigger outcome...so he chose this place instead. Made sense right? (If you don't try to figure out how the hell he turned back time) The only people who had any fear that I was right were 3 little kids, about 7 or 8 years old. I got them to hide behind a table, like a fort, so they'd be safe. So we waited, and waited, but nothing came for a while. I woke up before the concert was over.

I'm pretty mad I didn't get to see how this one ended...it was like watching a movie the whole time and then it stopping right before the big conclusion. Grr...