Originally Posted by
Anonymous42
I'm looking down very meaningless road. I have to work my *** off for another 40 years just to stay alive. I really don't even want that much, only to have a bed and some shelter to appreciate this existence for what it is, I don't even care about food that much. Goals to me have absolutely zero relevance when there is NOTHING TO DO. Still to attain only the very basic neccessities that we're born into means a life of slave labour, and for what? i still don't know why i'm here. i am going to die someday and my life might not amount to anything, so what is the use of this? If there is reason why i am here, i should know!. I would sometimes just prefer to RIP, kill myself before the inevitabe toll of society finds me in prison due to 'crimes' of the unfortunate. I admit i don't want to work, why would i? why does anyone? why are we here? One thing i don't ever want to do with my life is add to this f**king system that will leave me broken, indebted. I must leave home soon, i dont have a job, i don't know how i'm going to survive. I see signs all the time that remind me reality is not what it seems. Signs that my life does have meaning far beyond what i've been lead to believe. Constant synergy, things that i can't even speak of because if i do i risk being laughed at(a form of torture, whether you realize it or not), labelled insane, a threat, the reason why you have to pay taxes. I fear being improsoned or restrained in an institution, where putting an end to it all is not even possible. if this life is supposed to be a joke, IT'S NOT FUNNY!! if this is a dream then wake me up, i don't want it anymore!
This is anonymous!! so respect people's right to privacy, aswell as their right to speak! thank-you