So Useless! (Everyday Life That is!)
People will try their hardest at school so they can get decent grades, go to University and then get a well paying job. You get that job so you can pay for the house that you sleep in. Though you have 40 if not more hours of work a week anyways. So the only time you have left is spent sleeping or paying bills. All this so you can go on working and sleeping in your house! It gets you nowhere and is soo frustrating. Just work till you die? I would rather spend life on the streets than the life that most people live. All that working gets you is the "luxury" of sleeping in a city. The only way to be able to live in the city is to work your life away. You don't get anything out of it! It all makes sense in my head but when I try to get it out it's all jumbled and doesn't make sense. Anyways maybe I'll make a follow up post and try to collect my thoughts. I hope you all get the idea I'm trying to make.
I don't think you get it....
That's not really what I was saying. I'm not a sadist or depressed or anything. Sometimes I get a kick outta life. But I've just found it all routine. I've gone snowboarding...learnt guitar and harmonica, made a few friends and got a decent job. But all for what? Humanity in general is frustrating. Language, religion, all that jazz. All completely overcomplicated and unnecessary. And when it actually comes to saying things you want words usually don't do justice. It can sound brilliant in your head, but conveying that to others is hard. Life is soooooo stupid. All this emotions, can't we go back to simply being content or being unsatisfied? Hunger, weariness, lust, anger. That's all there should be to life. Love and relationships anger me the most. It has gone from reproducing to a huge system. Buying flowers, woeing them. Old or young,gay or straight,human or animals everyone just wants to get off....it's true. Yet it is so twisted now that people will waste their life trying to get someone they "love". I'm embarrased to be a human. And just knowing these feeling and how to express them angers me more. Self-preservation is the only thing keeping me humanlike. If I were to become agitated and tell people who know me the way I feel I could get thrown in a looney bin. And I can't have that. So for now I'll work, talk, gossip, laugh...do all things people do, till I can find a way out.
Humans are made for life, not thought
edit: "To the OP.
That is why you...
Get a job you like,
have a partner you like,
try to love your chldren if you have one,
have friends that you like.
/done."
That is so "human" of you to say that. You think it's simple, but it could be alot simpler. I know in my heart what I am, and to have to live around, and be like humans all the time burdens me sooo much. Can't wait till I go to my real home, away from lifes complications. :)