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Ever since I've gotten into LDing, and recording my dreams i've been having very meaningful dreams, but also very bizzare. I am dreaming about my childhood, things that I haven't thought of in years, and things that i wouldn't be able to remember in normal consciousness. I find myself dreaming about 2 of my friends who i have slowely lost contact with over the last 4 years. They are brothers, and they were my first friends. I am almost haunted by them in my dreams, i will dream about them 4 times a week, and the other 3 nights will most likely be about camping. I wake up feeling like I was with them and everything was ok and fine like it used to be. And whenever I don't dream about them, I have very bizare dreams, that leave me longing to be in the dream world again. I haven't been obsessed with LDing for about 3 months now, but i remember up to 3 dreams every night, and i still write them down. Sometimes I feel like I want to cry when i wake up because I long for my nonsensical subconscious. I don't know how to explain this emotion, but it is bothering me quite a bit. I can't talk to anyone else about it because no one understands.
Three nights ago I dreamt about one of my friends. I was in the backyard of my house, my friend was a midgit, he was hanging from a noose out of the tree, and his legs were cut off at the knee's. I ran over to him to see if he was still alive. He was fine, I said "are you ok man?" he said yeah i'm cool. Then I asked him if he needed help. he didn't give a direct answer. I thought to myself that he was doing it for attention like an emo-fad or something. Then I went to help him down. I pulled up a chair and stood on it and started untieing the noose. It was strange because I could smell his hair, and it was all tangled and gross.
I don't know what to think of these disturbing nonsensical dreams. I would like to see what anyone thinks of this. thank you.
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Personally I would think your subconscious is bothered at the moment. Since you've been dreaming a lot about your friends as well as bizarre dreams, it's probably something to do with that.
Do you feel guilty for having lost contact with your friends? Do you feel as if it's your fault? Do you guys still talk from time to time? I would say, try to reconcile with your old friends, at least to be in good terms. If you think that you and your old friends don't have the same mindset anymore, are too different, or live far away, then don't feel guilty... try to move on. If you miss them, then just hit them up to see what's been up... a 10 minute call to catch up can do wonders to keep a friendship in line. Just know that life is full of changes, people change, move, get different, learn, grow... to have the ups, you must experience the lows, just don't bother yourself with it.
Anyway, I'm not trying to give a life lesson, because I have much to learn myself... but I hope this helps a little bit.
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One night it was cold and rainy. I looked through the window and had a sudden urge to run around in the rain. So I did. Then I stopped all of a sudden, looked directly forward and started crying tears of joy.
I have never told anyone this. Thank you for reading...
