I don't want to wake up

I know exactly what you mean. In fact that is why I have always been ambivalent about dreams. If the dream is bad I wake up in a bad mood. If the dream is good I wake up also in a bad mood cus I realized it was all a dream. The only good dream to me is a weird dream where I do some weird things that are impossible in real life. Many times when I was having a lucid dream I tried and tried and tried to stay in the dream a little longer but inevitably I woke up earlier than I wanted to.

Oh god yes, I know what you're talking about. I love escaping into dreams, and hate waking up back in reality. I love the feeling you get from dreams and the things you do. It's one thing to suddenly find yourself awake though, and feel the dream ending AS YOU'RE IN IT. You can feel reality pulling you back and you try to resist but you can't, and suddenly you're back in your bed and it's like "Dammit"




That's why I've started writing stories about my dreams again: more escapism. Maybe you should try that, if, like you said, you can't become a surgeon, you can try writing. With the way your dreams sounded, you'd probably do well.

Last night was the first night that made me feel this way.

I was walking down a road with my brother and his new fiancé. She looked a bit like Reese Witherspoon, bundled in a long black jacket. My brother was arguing with her, saying that they should turn back. They had differing opinions but I could tell just how much they were in love. She was so sweet, so opinionated, and I could see how lucky my brother was, and that I would never be able to be with her.

I told my brother that he was a lucky man, mentioned that I'd never find a girl like that. He ruffled my hair and told me that everyone is like that in highschool. It didn't help.

I woke up relieved that my bittersweet trial was over, and yet saddened that such a precious person had never existed.

I get this all the time. I wish I could stay in my dreams are they're rarely unpleasant places to be!

But life is life. What we experience in our day to day lives will affect what we dream. So I plan on making the most out of everyday so my dreams reflect the happiness I have in my real life.