Very able to LD, but still a little trouble...
Well, back in July when I joined here I knew almost nothing about LD's, and I had only had a few before, and even that was a long time ago before I came here. A few months after, I had a few LD's after writing a lot in my Dream Journal. Then I kinda stopped writing in my DJ... And the LD's kinda stopped. But just last night, something awesome happened. It was about 3 or 4 in the morning and I was really tired and I stayed completely still and I felt my body fall asleep after just a few minutes. It was great. I felt like I could LD really easily now. So I knew I was going to have a lucid dream again, finally. But during the transition, I began to think about what might be in the dream, in terms of bad things, because I have had a "bad" or "scary" lucid before. So I suddenly just decided I didn't want to LD until I was entirely comfortable, so I forced myself to wake up. I regret doing that now, but what else was I supposed to do? I know that the worst thing that could happen in the dream is I wake up, but that feeling of fear you get in a dream when you're scared is more powerful than fear you usually have in real life because all emotions you have in dreams are... "amplified" I guess. I was just worried about getting that really scared feeling again. I feel as though I can be a natural at this, if I get over this crummy fear. Plus lately, I've been playing a lot of Fallout: New Vegas, and blowing people's heads apart with a 20 gauge shotgun, so I'd kinda hate to think what my brain could throw at me with those memories. I guess I need a little... reassurance is all. I'll probably get over it in time, but I'm just a bit scared because my brain thinks it's funny to scare the f--- out of me. I'll never get the ability to LD regularly if I don't somehow get my own mind to stop torturing me. Any ideas? :?