Lucid but Lack of Control over Objectives?

I have been at lucid dreaming for 3+ months now.

I am able to lucid however, when i am lucid I seem to be in no control of what I want to do or what I am doing...

My innermost desires seem to instantly take over...

-I would ALWAYS just fly once i realize im dreaming, get bore with it... then my deepest desires/needs start manifesting. Which is mostly about sex, then seeking affection. I usually wake up while having sex or after hugging

I know deep down, i feel lack of affection from my life.

I really want to use lucid dreaming to understand myself more, have conversation about life, but when i feel like that... i use every lucid dream to try and fulfill that desire

I want to be able to have more control over that...

Have you tried to hold the ground/close your eyes the moment you become lucid? That way there won't be distractions even if for a moment, in which you can properly think about what you want to do.

Perhaps summon a DC that knows about yourself?