i'll give you a bit of background on my situation first. i'm a 15 year old freshman in high school. and although i don't believe teenagers can fall in love, i have strong feelings for another 15 year old, but a sophomore (we'll say alex). the first time i saw him was two years ago, and i just couldn't stop looking at him. i'd call it a crush, but me, being socially awkward and quiet thought i'd never talk to him, so i abandoned it. well. this year, in september, we were formally introduced. and there was a spark there. we both acknowledged it, we've talked about it, and for two months, i was very very happy with him. we didn't date although we both liked eachother. this was because of another girl. we'll call her kate. he'd liked her for two years. since i first saw him, which i thought was wierd. well, kate, is a bitch to me. she found out i liked him, told me to go for him, and then made out with him. there have been several other cases of her manipulating me, and i hate it. they started dating december 03, and he's convinced they'll be together forever.
the most recent dream i had, i'm having trouble with. i was sitting at a round table that sits eight, eating with my friends, and him, seeing as she was on vacation (which she actually is right now.) my friend "cal" came over to sit down, so i had to move closer to alex to make room. i was looking across the table (which was exactly like the table i used to sit at in middle school. we were all sitting in the same order that we did too) and he, sitting on my right side, reached over and started rubbing my back. his hand was on my left shoulder blade, and he was rubbing in a small circular motion. soon after that, there was something involving a gated pool, and although i remember i didn't go in the water, i forget what the significant was, as after the pool, the dream went black.
i'm having a lot of trouble with the symbolism of the dream, i have really cryptic dreams about him as it is. if anyone knows how to help, that would be great. thank you
~averie
