Help reocurring Dream character/Strange Presence!?!?!
I had a strange realization in a dream that jogged my memory . The dream was posted originally as "1st Entry" in part I jumped perspectives into another person(a girl whom I knew from7th through 1st year o Junior college) who was in the dream. Normally this wouldn't strike me as odd. I mean dreams can be weird but this girl who I knew in real life often is in dreams and almost always in my nightmares.
I did like her in high school but wasn't nearly as big as others i had.
One example is a nightmare in which several people I know, myself and this girl were in a scary building. A few friends had guns and were preoccupied with fighting these monsters. I saw her in a situation where she was about to get killed by some kind of monster. I was unable to help her I had no way to save her. (I had motor control in this nightmare. It wasn't a fixed nightmare where one has no choice.)
Seeing her suddenly about to die my "spirit"( for lack of better word) jumped from my body to hers. I jumped her out of dangers way and was able to flee long enough for it to be safe. As soon as she is safe i snap back to my own perspective.
A different aspect; she is not always a character in the dream(some one I can see). In night mares I can always sense her. I don't know how to explain it but I just know. Like a presence.
Her character or presence almost in 90 of my nightmares.
Not as often in good dreams but has been a good chunk o times.
In one nightmare I had her presence guided me like she was speaking to me telling me how to stay safe. I can't literally hear words but I understand somehow. Also immediately after when I am no longer in danger I can't recall what I was "told" by her.
In nightmares in which i have failed or she is hurt i wake up in sleep paralysis.
I have a vague memory of feeling this presence in NM from my younger years. Before ever meeting this girl.
I don't understand it?
I'm happily married and 100 faithful to my wife and haven't had a conscious thought about this girl for... hell idk!
I have been told to ask her in my dreams if i can as to what she means or represents to me.
Would asking her change the relationship that exists?
It seems important not something i wanna lose.
I say this because whatever she "is" seems to act as an anchor that allows me to not wake up and turn a NM into a good dream?
Dream Guide? Maybe
I think its more than that!
Opinions would be wonderful as i am not a good LDer YET!!!