Hi... I'm new here, and would please like some help? :)
Hi! I'm Annie. I'm 20 years old. I've never been on this forum, so please be patient with me.
My lucid dreaming started about two months ago. I'll start by saying that I know most people try to lucid dream, but I don't. I didn't even know about it until I looked it up after a few times of doing it myself. At first it terrified me as I didn't know what was happening to me. It still scares me sometimes. I've been told by a friend that when I'm in the dream, I should go with it, and see where it takes me. Sometimes I get scared though, and try to wake myself up - I throw myself into things and just end up 'waking' up back in my bed. Sometimes I can 're-wake' 10 up to 10 times. Every dream I've had has started, or I've been contained to my bed. When I try to escape the dream, and wake up for real, my ears get completely muffled and my chest hurts - and I get this feeling that I'm dying. When this happens all I can think is that my partner is going to find me dead! I was wondering if anyone else gets this feeling? If this is what my friend tells me, a spiritual connection, out of body experience, am I getting too close to another spiritual plain?
Anyway. My main question is - WHY AM I HAVING THEM? I'm not complaining. I am just a little scared. I just want to know - is there something medically wrong with me? Or am I connecting with something spiritual - and why has it just started happening now? I have the dreams about 2 times a week. Also, when I have finally woken up, I sometimes hallucinate. 3 times I have seen words floating around in a square, once I saw red circles (like the ones on no smoking, no entry etc) floating around my room (this was my first one, I jumped up and looked outside, I thought someone was shining them into my house from outside!!), and the last time, two days ago, I saw the square text, and also faces. Lots and lots of changing faces. Then I saw mine, and I was just staring at myself. Then there was more faces. I was just lay in my bed watching them.
Does anyone have any theories as to why am I lucid dreaming without trying, and then hallucinating when I wake up? Also, does anyone have any tips on how I can be less scared when I am there? Thank you so much for listening to me.