How I obtain some thing like wild
A few years ago I read up on lucid dreaming and was able to obtain some. After about six months I stopped readding about them and was not activly trying to have lucid dreams although I would still sometimes have them and remained courious about them. Recently I started a job at a home for disabled persons during the night shift. At this job I would get all of my work done in the first two hours and have about nine hours to kill since i worked an eleven hour shift. I would sit on the couch and watch televison and at about four in the morning i would get very sleeppy, but would try really hard to stay awake. Sometime I would close my eyes for a couple of seconds and realize I was asleep and completly paralized like what is described in the WILD tutorial, but totaly aware that I was asleep at work and at any moment one of the residents could walk in and see me sleeping so I would force myself awake witch could be quite hard at times. Even while still asleep I would think "this is the perfect state to lucid dream" but never could explore that thought becuase I was supose to be working. At those times that is the most lucid i have every been. The strange part about it is that I would not be dreaming at all i would just feel trapped in my body and be aware that i had fallen asleep. I've tried to obtain this at home but it doesn't work, I think becuase I don't have any strong reason to try and stay awake (like getting cuaght sleeping at work).
