Hey EveryONE,
Im a new user and im feeling out the site. Im a 22 year old college grad...coming into the real world BUT what really interests me is the mind and that place where the real world's claim as being numero uno falls short. I have been dreaming (I guess lucid) since I can remember. Some of my first memories are dreams. When I very little I could nevr fall asleep right away. I would sit and ponder, review the day, and anticipate tomorrow. There was as window I would always look out and see funny shapes in the trees outside. Usually what would happen next is id find myself sitting on my bed in the room i had just fallen asleep. I used to sleep wiht my mom and my little brother, so I would look down at the bed (which was usually REALLY big) and see me, my mom, and my little brother sleeping. I dont remember saying "IM DREAMING!" as I don't think of it that way. I think my realization was more "Hey, im at that place where I am free" and then I would jump out the window and from their, many adventures.
As I grew up my dreams began to change. The most significant turning point was once going into sleep, sitting on the bed, and finding myself in a very bad situation- as I sat on the bed I saw a creature emerge from the end of the enlarged bed. I began to scream for my mom and my brother. I was trying to get their attention. They could not hear me...I slowy watched in what was pure terror as I was confronted with something I had never seen before....well actually he looked kinda like a plastic toy I had at the time...his skin was rough snadpaper, in a bright orange color. His face was distorted, he was wearing a blue shirt. I didn't know what to do so I attacked. The creature fought back and we wrestled and the end of the bed. I remember distinctly going into 3-rd person mode and looking at me, wrestling with this creature, and seeing my mom and broher sleeping in the background. After this dream I specifically remember my dreams changing in a profound way.
Later, im guessing within a month of this dream, I had one of my more usual dreams. I found myself looking out the window, knowing i was in my special place, and jumped out the window saying "Peter pan is coming to sprinkle me with fairy dust and we are going to fly!!" As soon as I said this I slowed down and floated down to the front lawn of my house. I sat their perplexed..."This has never happened before..." It was very sad! :( I sat there for a time. The last thing i remember is seeing me in third person and saying to myself, "He didn't come." This is important because, although I don't remember this person exactly, I have the impression of a dream memory of sitting with an older man on my roof and he would tell me things and he could help me fly. I remember bits and pieces of these dreams, such as flying over the buildings around my house, levitating in my house...etc. Parts I don't remember involve meeting other people, who i have the conviction were other dreamers, all over the place when I would dream. This is somewhat of a mystery in my dreaming- as if I lived in a dreamworld where I used to be in total control and then I was attacked and subdued in the dream world and somehow couldn't regain the dreaming which had brought me so many adventures which I cherished so greatly.
Ok so sorry for the ramble, but real quick: I have been practicing dream recall off and on since I was around 13....with the specific intention of regaining lost ground. Since then I have encountered a dram-catacter, which I would describe as a ghost, fought with it and simply told it NO! Since that dream my dreams have changed yet again to where I have very vivid dreams often involving levitation, jumping around, and even flying....some are somewhat OBE as one I was walking along a canal close to my apartment. I looked across the river to see a low cloud of mist just over the other shore. I had the distinct feeling that an older man- perhaps a wizard or and avatar- being hidden just behind it. It was an amazing white and purple color, very soft. The moon was very bright. I immediately knew I was dreaming and the first thing i did was "I WANT TO FLY!" I zoomed straight up in the air above all the surrounding building and zoomed by several blocks. I was Id say 300 + feet up in the air when I saw my building below. As soon as I saw it I was "sucked" back into it, jumping from bed suddenly awake. I don't need to tell you how exciting this dream was to me! Since then I have such dreams fairly often, but I remember this being the first of many and few have been as "real" with a strong emotional experience and a little touch of OBE.
Any whoooo.....sorry for the ramble, but that felt really good to get that out, talking to other dreamers. I am here because I want to meet other dreamers and explore more. I would like to have more recall and control my lucidity more....sometimes it carries me away.
Thanks!
Aloha,
-J
