Not quite new... but hello!
Hello there all!
Just wanted to introduce myself. I'm not really new to LD, I've had lucid dreams since before I can remember, up until about 2 years ago. I had a really good grasp on dream control and every single one of my dreams was lucid; I even had a few rare (about 3 or 4) psychic dreams (the outcome was NOT good, you know... the whole too little too late type of thing)
I honestly didn't know I had lucid dreams until near the end of it all, when I finally researched and understood what it was I had the ability to do. The problem is, I had two very disturbing experiences, and I basically shielded myself ever since. But I believe I'm ready to continue and find out just exactly what happened some time ago.
It started with the feeling of having someone else in my dream, someone conscious and controlling. Here and there, things would happen, outcomes would change, no matter what I did. One example: I was at the pool, having fun with old friends. All of a sudden no one was at the pool aside from me, and a little boy all the way at the bottom, apparently having drowned. I dove in to go save him, he had dark brown hair in a bowl cut, and red swimming trunks on. He couldn't have been more than 8 or 9 years old. I pulled him out on the concrete, and began to do CPR. As soon as my mouth reached his, his eyes popped open.. they were large, almond shaped, and completely black. They had the knowledge of something beyond my comprehension, and I immediately woke myself up from the dream.
I had a few more dreams like that, very eerie feeling. But the last one I had was the last lucid dream, and the most disturbing:
I was in my old house, in the dining room. It was late at night, but a full moon. The moonlight shone into the room, and every chair besides mine was covered in shadow. I was seated at one end of the rectangle table, and "he" was seated at the other. We were having a polite conversation, about society and reality. Midway through the conversation was when I realized that he was... well the closest I can put it into words is death. But not in the black cloak-wearing, skeleton, reaper sort of way. He was dressed darkly, but well groomed and his manner was one of great stature. Near the end of the conversation, he asked me if I wanted to see what it felt like. By this time I felt like my mind had wandered off in the middle of the conversation and I wasn't sure what he meant. But he held out his hand and gave me a sly smile. I took his hand, while he guided me into the shadow. As soon as I entered, my heart stopped beating and I couldn't breathe.. almost like a prolonged heart palpitation. I closed my eyes, and I saw a thin, glowing white string dangling from up above somewhere, slowly raising higher and higher, out of my vision. After a short time, a matching blue string came from below and tied itself around the white one, pulling it back down. I opened my eyes and took a deep gasp for air, and he said "That's how it's done."
I've just recently started getting my dreams back, so I'm trying to focus on them and what they brought to me before. I didn't have any up until the day before the huge tsunami, then everything came flooding back... err, no pun intended
Sorry to make this post drag on, I guess I'm just long winded :)
