Originally Posted by labyrint
It's like for last atleast a month almost nothing had happened in my waking if I hadn't done some art and dreaming to make it happen. I've staid long times in my private bubble without anyone calling or otherwise connecting to me while I know that I have lot of friends who love and care about me. My calls get unreturned and if I manage to get a hold on someone the timing is bad.. If I don't do something artfull, meditative or beautifull. When I work it's like >tzadaam< people start to find my status posts, answer calls, mails and txtmessages. I catch them at the right time. So for being prisoned into this "do and get rewarded" waking dream for a long enough time.. there have been days of very deep loneliness.