That actually makes me jealous, my panic attacks never made me trip that hard lol. That does reaaally sound like anticholinergic delirium, though. Did you smoke it or eat it?
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Naa, I've never taken such things. Without drugs, I have those sort of hallucinations caused by your brain attempting to make order out of chaos....peripheral hallucinations. I was predisposed to that as it was. Yet, this was central visions, hallucination as if dreams were overlapping reality. And the bathroom episode was as if the whole environment, including me, became a dream.
I hallucinate on MDMA and on Nitrous Oxide too, so.... :/ On nitrous oxide, I did two consecutive balloons....and I went unconscious for about 10-15 seconds - I could see darkness, a garden, and hear a broken record banging. Except on both mdma and nitrous oxide, I feel amazing. (obv, mdma).
Hello again everyone.
:hug:
I made it back from my trip last night at around 10:30. It was a decent trip. We stayed at the Double Tree at the Cincinnati airport which is where the auction was held.
My rants are:
1) I shouldn't have bothered with concealer for my scars. Hubby briefly saw me topless as I was changing shirts on MY bed. Yep. We had 2 queen sized beds lol. I was exhausted the upon arrival and on the first day there. I sat on the bed to the left while hubby was in the restroom.
He came out and sat on the other bed. As I drifted off to sleep I wondered why he hadn't just sat next to me on the bed then it hit me and I laughed. We're both used to being in our own household. I chose the side next to the end table. So did he :lol:
It was Thursday afternoon. He went to preview the glass and I went to sleep.
I barely even woke up to eat dinner with everyone at the Tousey House (sp) which was outstanding.
2) Upon waking up that first full day (Friday), hubby was being very emotional and annoying. He swears my house is contaminated with some mold or something that he CANNOT tolerate. He was annoyed with it on the drive and when we first arrived, so I placed my suitcase in the shower. But when we woke up he was still beside himself. We went to the car and got a tupperware container. I put all my stuff inside it then left the suitcase at the dumpster.
I was highly annoyed and kept biting my tongue and I'm glad I did. When all was said and done, he apologized, gave me a kiss and thanked me for putting up with him.
3) I could barely stay awake during the entire trip. I couldn't even drive the entire way (about 6 1/2 hours). That first full day, I had hubby give me a Didrex. I took half of the potent Diet drug and promptly fell asleep while hubby went down for the preview/auction. I thought I was having a heart attack at one point, as I slept, but I told myself it was just the med kicking in and I fell right back to sleep :roll:
I was a little more awake when Early took everyone to the Montgommery Inn (sp) for dinner. Conversation didn't flow as easily (for me anyhow) as well as it did at the Tousey House. But the food was amazing.
When I came "home" and got into bed I told hubby "Goodnight Mr. Cleaver." To which he replied "Goodnight Mrs. Cleaver." :cackle: (That's a reference to "Leave it to Beaver", an old show where couples slept in separate beds).
4) On the last day, I could still barely wake up. I missed the first day of the Auction for sleeping. Because we had to check out at 1PM, I took the rest of the stuff down to the car. It was also the first time I REALLY wanted a cigarette. I found a woman I met the night before. She works at the auction and we hit it off well enough. I asked her for a cigarette and though it tasted like crap and made me light-headed, I was still most thankful for it.
I then went in and sat through the rest of the auction.
I helped hubby pack it all up then we hit the road. It was about 5PM.
After the first nights auction, hubby asked me how much I thought the "King Tut piece" (nicknamed such because it was one of the stars of the auction) sold for. It went for $27,000. He didn't tell me until the next day that he was the idiot who bought it for that much :cackle:
On the last day, he got me a Wavecrest Box for $400. It only went that high because another bidder also wanted it. I couldn't believe how cheaply a lot of the stuff was selling for. Tiffany glass was going for a steal. The bidders said that was because the Jewish Community tend to favor that glass but most of the ones who come to the Auctions are devout and wouldn't leave home during the Passover.
It was an exhausting trip but it ended nicely. Hubby felt so guilty for depriving me of sex that when I said (off-handedly) that I wanted a real cigarette, he didn't give me the least of a hard time and actually tried finding a discount seller.
5) When I stumbled into my house, I saw that my son hadn't done jack.
It is VERY nice to be home!!!!!
Yep, that sounds really anticholinergic to me. Including the peripheral stuff. I guess you're right, you just have it more by default. Normally I just get the peripheral stuff when I'm that high, but I've used direct anticholinergics to hallucinate before. It's exactly as you've described.
Both of those are common, and the latter is expected. (At least, to people who know how to use it properly lol.) I personally don't use MDMA as anything but a psychedelic. I've had some of my most powerful trips from it. Especially when combined with delirious amounts of weed. :teeth: (MDMA makes it so I have no weed anxiety no matter how much I smoke.)
Yeah, that'd make sense. Nothing could make me feel bad on mdma....I was throwing up everything and shivering like mad at one point, and felt amazing. And so much better in the day time....why in the darkness at parties? lol. I tried an exam on it - I almost failed...me and this girl just kept laughing quietly in the exam hall. Ah, the silly days.....but fun. :)
Sounds like fun. :chuckle: I've never take an exam on it, just went to class once. The girl sitting next to me was getting pissed because I wouldn't stop making loud chewing and grinding sounds. :P I like rolling equally in the day and night, but I much prefer tripping in the day (especially on MDMA). At night lots of things are bright neon colors and there seem to be more patterns and original hallucinations, but it always seems kind of flat to me. (Unless I'm tripping really hard.) In the day, the hallucinations are a lot more based on the environment, but it's all extremely vivid and 3D, with lots of multiplying objects and repeating textures and cartooning of the senses.
Good stuff. :party:
lol I used to grind, but then gum saved me. Many packets of gum... :P Yeah, in the night, I found it lacked depth/distance, probably because insufficient light causes that effect in general anyway. I liked interacting with sober people in the day time....just amused me really. Strangers, friends, lecturers, the lot. A lecturer questioned my ability to hold a train of thought though hehe
Nice rant Zhaylin, I felt exhausted just reading it :hug:
I'm bored... I kinda wish I had some drugs I could try out. I tried a little diazepam, but it just makes me feel sleepy... No other discernible effects.
the only thing i still give people a pass on are mushrooms.
Metal Gear Solid Reference of this chick:
http://www.play-mag.co.uk/wp-content...niper-wolf.jpg
Once she selects a prey, all she can do is to fantasize about them. (Killing them that is)
Diazepam is a drug that helps Snake keep steady as he aims his weapon at her
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nralUl3-bl0
Yeah that ^
That game was epic.
Im completely paranoid...I HATE EVERYTHING!
My son is bored.
And I have to listen to it.
Rant over.
She may yell later. She just wants to get moving.
Or the relief of your brother being home safe is still washing over her, and the anger will resurface later.
How's the popcorn?
mmmm Popcorn... and sadly no she probably won't yell at him, we are at a cousins house....
Tis a sad day for annoying brothers everywhere :(