Originally Posted by
JoannaB
Ergh! This depression is driving me insane, or rather I have driven myself insane and I know I need to stop doing it, but I don't appear to be able to refocus. Obsession, depression, frustration, losing track of priorities, feeling sorry for myself, getting riled up over stuff that I should let go and can't. I have identified the problems. I know some of what I need to do to resolve them. And yet I am not doing it. It's like my record is stuck, my mind is overloaded, and instead of moving on and refocusing and changing my perspective, I insist on torturing myself even more and narrow my focus even more to issues I should avoid but can't, and oh how I wish I could just wipe my inner white board clean and do what I know I need to do and not what my mind insists on doing without my consent.