Originally Posted by
Dianeva
This might be one of my favourite posts from you ever.
I have trouble not caring what people think of me. Even to get to the level you are would be incredible. I've gotten used to trying pretty much all the time. I feel confident in a way, I even act in my head like I'm confident. But the nervousness is always there, even knowing it's irrational.
I'm kind of similar in the way that I worry people think I don't like them. Definitely not exactly the same as you. For me I think I'm so nervous about everything, I think so much into what I'm going to say, that the whole thing is just stressful. If someone tries to talk to me, I can't relax, even though I'm trying to look like I'm relaxed. The best I can do is like... force out a casual voice, and obviously there are microexpressions and stuff showing how nervous I really am, and they pick up on that and think I'm really intense or something. Just like... the opposite of someone you can relax around. Of course I have no idea if that's really the impression I give off. It's possible no one thinks anything of me, and that's how most conversations go, and the reason I can never hold a conversation longer than a few minutes is something else.