My cure for procrastination seems to be to-do lists. The combination of that and sunny weather. The perpetual dreariness of the other 2 seasons of the year really wears me down. I live in like the worst possible place for me because that kind of weather makes me miserable. Whenever it's sunny, I swear my happiness level increases like 10 fold. I just start seeing opportunities where I didn't before, I get motivated, life feels like it has purpose again. I can't wait to move out of this shitty overcast dreary rainy area. Oh... I went way off topic. To-do lists. I've been making them over the last couple weeks and am actually starting to learn how long to make them. I'm learning to divide everything into small tasks, each which takes < 20 mins, so everything feels a lot more do-able and I'm less inclined to procrastinate. I've found a few times that to-do lists help me. But this is the longest I've stuck with it. In the past, I've used a list, it's worked, and then I've thought I'm on a roll and don't need the list anymore... but I do, so I'm just not going to stop this time.
Even the idea of getting a job isn't quite as stressful as it was before. It seems there's got to be something... and even if there isn't, it isn't that big of a deal. Looking through jobs, the sheer number of comp sci. related jobs motivates me, and being a woman I think I have a slight boost (not that someone would hire me for something I don't deserve, but they may choose me over someone else to fill the female quota, and if it works in my favour then great). Most of the jobs are for people who have already graduated, but still, I'll have graduated within 2 years. It just reassures me that the field I chose is pretty much perfect in every way. From job listings, it looks like it would be so easy to get a job. And there's so much opportunity for non-job stuff too, like app development and stuff that I could do on my own if I wanted to try the working-for-myself thing, which I think I'm actually going to do during the summer, make a small but useful program of some sort (already have an idea). Though, actually getting a job is terrifying. There's a career fair at my school in 5 days, which I may go to. But it's easy to say I'll do that now, when it's still 5 days away. Would I actually be able to do that? It's specific to the gaming industry though. I have no idea what a career fair is like. My resume is pretty damn shitty so I'd be embarrassed about that.