I don't know if I seriously experience things that absolutely no-one else does, or if I simply describe them in such a different way that I can't find others. The most recent thing has been going to some extent out of my body when I get really excited (or sometimes for no apparent reason): things like not feeling my limbs anymore, or feeling them as suddenly weightless or insubstantial, or not my own, or mismatched. That just for a start; there are many other things and it would take a long time to write everything out.
Is this even possible? Or am I mistaking some weird sort of semi-random stress for intense excitement? There's an awareness of a charge throughout my entire body, sometimes waves or rushes of one thing (definite things, like adrenaline rushes or almost a sense of electric shock) or another out of the blue, and parts of or all of my body start to feel utterly weightless and insubstantial. Senses are...different, closer, with the awareness of everything you experience being a part of you and yourself being a part of everything in your experience, and in being so, you see and experience everything with perfect clarity. The sense of actually being a part of everything you see making up a whole, of moving out into it with your consciousness and feeding back. Shifts in perception, in viewpoint; an intensification of every single moment, an awareness of how much must have led up to it like a gathering momentum; an awareness of how much or how wide a nothingness could follow. In its lack of weight your body feels as though it has no needs at all.
(side note; your body does still have some needs, by which I mean if you try to, say, stop sleeping entirely, you will eventually start dreaming while awake and your subconscious/other people will start writing in mocking contributions into that diary entry you're trying to compose until you get freaked out enough to finally go to bed and sleep for a little while i.e. cling tightly to soft sweet sanity)
There are no drugs whatsoever involved in any of this. :chuckle: I don't know if these are naturally things I'd notice, or spiritual experiences of a sort, or subconsciously working myself into trances of a kind so as to be able to take rests from or better function in the world (or not really the world, but human/socially reinforced life as we structure it), or actually my body/brain doing something odd, or something else entirely. I suppose the thing to do is simply go with it, as with all of life, but it'd be nice if I could describe some unusual experience to someone and receive a reply of "ahh yes, I know what you mean" rather than "...huh? Um, no" and them probably thinking I'm seriously weird (but I don't know, maybe they're right to think that?)
Perhaps some day~