Originally Posted by
Crashyy
So I finally went back to the doctors to get some help for my anxiety and depression again, and she just told me to suck it up and get over it lol? I explained her that I'm really not feeling so well and that I have so much trouble getting out of bed in the morning. Like honestly there are lots of days where I just feel too sick to get up, and where I just end up skipping the whole day. The doctor made me feel so embarrassed about it, like she would make these nasty comments such as:
"If you were my son, I'd force you to go to school, even if you weren't feeling too well"
"What do you expect me to do about it? I'm just a simple doctor"
"It's not like I can give you any medication for this"
And then she just gave me the number of a life coach? It felt like she didn't take any of this seriously, and that particular evening I was feeling really bad. And of course this only made me feel worse.
Then my ex girlfriend found out about it through a mutual friend, and she messaged me again (we hadn't spoken in months). She was really sweet actually, like she said that she's still always gonna be there for me and that she misses me as a friend. But after that chat, she just stopped replying, and I haven't heard from her ever since. But after that, I went to a gig on Friday and my ex was there as well, in fact she was stood in front of me with her current boyfriend during the entire gig. I felt so awkward and it made me feel like shit, I ended up crying myself to sleep that night because I still miss her. I still cry a lot because of the break up and it's been 6 months now?
But then there's this other girl that likes me, we've met up once and she was really sweet. But I don't think I'm ready for another relationship just yet. So now she's getting kind of impatient, because I know she wants to be more than just friends. But it just wouldn't feel right, and I don't want to just be with her because I feel lonely and still miss my ex girlfriend. That wouldn't be fair towards her. But then again, what if we do go for it, and it all ends well? I just don't know what to do anymore. :disconcerted:
Oh and one more thing, I followed woblybil's advice and I went jogging a couple of times. It did make me feel a bit better, and it helped with my stress levels. But it seems that every time I go for a jog in the evening (somewhere between 6-9pm), I have trouble falling asleep at night? I go to bed around 12/1am, but then I would still be awake until 2/3am. Is it possible that going for a jog in the evening is the cause of this?