Originally Posted by
ZAD
I'm sorry you're feeling that way Darkness. I always enjoy reading your posts and get a kick out of the conversations we end up having in the comments of our dream journals :)
I feel that kind of isolation from time to time, but probably in a slightly different way. I live with my wife (who I've referred to as F/fiance in my dream journals for the past few years), but because of our work schedules, there are large chunks of time we each spend alone. I'm sure that for a lot of people this is normal, but neither of us are used to it because we've been together since high school and lived together all through college. So we're pretty much each others' constant companions.
Because of that, we neglected building outside friendships and nurturing the ones we had (we both realized this a few months ago while eating brunch). Sure, we still have those friends from childhood that you can reconnect with and it's like no time has passed at all, but getting together with them takes a lot of planning. And at our age/life situation, making new friends doesn't really happen outside of work, and it's hard to connect deeply with people in that context, especially virtually. Throw in somewhat strained family situations and worst of all COVID, and we both feel pretty isolated sometimes. There are times when we're both in the house but I'm working and she's off, or she'll go to work on the weekends when I'm off. Kind of "so close but so far" all the time.
Despite all this we make plenty of time together and hang out every night, eating and watching something on the TV and sometimes just listening to music while we cook or just talking. I want to clarify that I'm incredibly lucky to have her in my life so this is mostly a Rave. Also, everyone needs some personal space and having that space is definitely healthy. But when the schedule of your personal space feels out of your control and the disconnect starts to happen, it can be pretty hard.
So suffice to say, even the luckiest people can feel isolated every once in a while. I hope you get to feeling better soon friend.