Ok this can't be good. I'm high (but I'm actually not).

This is the weirdest thing ever. It'ss sort of hard to explain. I just went out for a walk with some music (its about 1 am now, but i left at about 12:15) . Anyway I walked down to this park and just kinda sat staring into the middle of the field for a while (its a big park). I went into this weird trancelike state, and I really have to say its pretty creepy. It was intensifying on the walk back, and I started to think really irrationally. Not necessarily creepy thoughts or anything, but dreamlike thoughts. Thoughts that would make senese in dreams and I was thinking them but occasionally I'd become aware how weird I was being. OK wait i lost my trian of thought...

Ok just wait this is really weird. I also have that swimming feeling (I had it about halfway on the walk back), when you're high where you feel like water is rushing around you. I'm feeling that... I'm kinda getting scared this can not be good for me. I haven't smoked anything, I havent taken any drugs or anything. And im not exaggerating. I feel like I'm dreaming and a LOT of weird thoughts are coming to my mind. Dreamlike/Stonedlike thoughts.. I hope this makes sense. I dont get it though.

It might be the sleep deprivation... and stress, and caffein pills (but the thing is.. i havent taken any today, only yestreday). which is weird... but its like my dream world and my normalness are mixing together. i might actually be going insane :?... i seriously might. i was talking to myself on the walk back and saying really weird things..... ... i never talk to myself.

I guess its not so much insanity as it is more a feeling of being baked. but I told you all that already. this is so fucked up. and it reeeeally cant be good for my body.

im gonna go now

Take it easy,Dylan

yeah...I think you may just need some sleep man. Deprivation kind of does that to you sometimes....

as for the having irrational thoughts and talking to yourself, if that is considered going insane then I am so far into it that I fear that no amount of psychology will ever get me back :P

Hhmmm... It's completely gone now. It wore off around an hour ago. That was really weird though!

Haha, so you talk to yourself hm? What about? :?

Take it easy,
Dylan

About everything and about nothing at all...some form of inner dialogue I guess... :|

yeah, sleep deprevation will do that to you; it's interesting when you stay up long enough that you start to hallucinate

I sort of did. I wasn't pulling new images up. But on my wak back, I was constantly seeing things, usually shadows. I was looking into a bunch of trees, and I'd see things move. I knew they weren't real I knew they were just my mind. I wouldn't call this hallucination, perhaps the first step though?

I get similar feelings sometimes. it happens when i have recently woke up and am feeling tired. my thought are really weird, like in a dream and they just drift away. they are more intense then regular thoughts and sometimes i catch myself thinking and just - hey! what the hell was that?!
maybe im insane too... but i dont get that strange water feeling, i dont get it in the middle of the day and no moving things in trees. you must be psycho. :P

Hell, no sweat Dylan, I talk to myself all the time when I need to walk home from my school, which is a 2 mile walk. I guess I get bored.

I forget where I heard this, but if you set head phones to certain frequencies you can get wasted, I dunno if it's true or not, but an interesting idea
Take it easy, foo dawggy.

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Hell, no sweat Dylan, I talk to myself all the time when I need to walk home from my school, which is a 2 mile walk. I guess I get bored.

I forget where I heard this, but if you set head phones to certain frequencies you can get wasted, I dunno if it's true or not, but an interesting idea
Take it easy, foo dawggy.

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ya, brainwave entrainment.

and whats wrong with an inner dialogue?

Nothing's wrong with inner dialogue. I do that often myself. But I don't hold conversations with and rant to myself about how that "pile of sand beside the traintracks was a 'Mullesian Pulp Mill'" .... do NOT ask. I just had the weirdest thoughts.. its not that I was trying to convince myself, for some reason I actually believed that that's what the pile of sand was... i dont even know what the hell "mullesian" is.. just some stupid word i made up then.

Cheers,
Dylan

See if you can fuck this up totally...example, go for a walk to the park, and start walking back. Try and see if you can block off perception and arrive at your house for what seems like an instantaneous second. That would be something to the effect of...I dunno, jumping over linearity. *needs a name for this*

Well this was last night... I'm not like it anymore. And I doubt I would have been able to do that anyway. However, when I was on the walk back, I was walking along the train tracks... And I totally phased out and was watching myself walk from behind me and about the height of the telephone poles. I don't think this was an OBE... but it was really weird. At first I thought it was, but then I looked backwards to try to see what I'd look like, but then the perception just shifted back to my normal body. It happened once more after that.

Dylan

This happens every time i surf for about 2 hours or more...i get into a complete NATURAL high...i am so relaxed for the rest of the day...

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This is the weirdest thing ever

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SO what youre saying is its not normal????

whoa this can't be good. I'm Hilary Clinton! (actually I'm not)

dont u know?
"I'm mad. you're mad. Everyone is mad here."- the Cheshire cat.

Well, that sort of nonesense happens to me all the time. I just begin to speak and say a bunch of stuff and then I kind of pause myself for a moment and say to myself "WTF? That makes no sense..."

But the worst part is when I am having some serious inner dialogue and suddenly some completely random and idiotic thoughts pop into my head, for example:

"I can't stand this any longer, I feel like I am wasting my time on something that will never get anywhere"
"Because you don't let it....you must take a chance. What are you afraid of?"
"I don't know...I have never felt like this before and it is very disturbing to feel completely out of control of my own feelings and emotions, and to not really know what it is I want"
"You know what you want...you are just afraid to get it. It is easier to convince yourself that it isn't true than to face the facts but it must be done"
"I know...I just don't know if I am strong enough to do it"
"well, aliens were pretty strong in independence day yet they still got asses handed to them by the good kind president who just happened to be from the US, saviors of the world"
"WTF does that have to do with anything????"
"Simple....if you are not an alien or such, then you may have a chance at being stronger than an alien or such"
"Please die..."
"Erm no....in fact I shall haunt you by proceeding to sing the "John Jacob Jingleheimerschmit" song for 2 hours"
"You are such a bastard....you won't get away with this :pissed: "


so yeah...sorry for that short yet disturbing outlook of my mind...

aaahahahahh "John Jacob Jingleheimerschmit", i TOTALLY forgot about that song.. aahah

EDIT: his name is my name tooooooooo