Frustrating !

Ok, so now I've had 2 dreams in a row that I've said " Ok, this better be a DREAM or else.. "

I can tell more of one of them.

The first one: It all started out in my room, a friend of mine was there and he somehow talked me into killing my own mother just because ( unkown reason ) she was in the way of something, i did not approve at first but then i said like " ah well, guess you're right " and i picked up a UZI and shot my mother sitting in the couch and just as i did this, I bursted out in tears, crying and thinking " What have I done? " and i crawl my way to the hallway and leen towards my wardrobe and thinking about what I've done.

I then thought of, All of this is my friends fault, and i go berserker picking up a blunt wooden object with spikes on it. I run into my room, threatening my friend to his life and I say " This better be dream for you're sake, or your gonna die in minutes, and I repeat this about 3 times before the dream fades away.

This is prolly the worste dream I've ever had, it was so emotionally and I felt so bad about myself, like.. how the hell could a friend talk me into this? sure it was a dream but still. =/

Well the point is. I asked myself and i told my friend that " HOPE this is a dream " " This better be a dream " etc..lots of sentences with that type of words picked.

Really frustrating. HOW DID I NOT BECOME LUCID!? O_o

I think its very clear why you didn't realize why this was a dream. You were to emotionaly upset to even take the time to wonder weather the event was real or not. OFten in tragic events we feel like we are in a dream; everything feels unreal. So even if you had that underlying dream feeling, it was passed off as part of your miserable feelings.

I agree with Barbizzle that you're not entirely open to the idea of lucid dreaming when your emotions are running that high. It's just not on your list of priorities. I've also had annoying dreams where I think to myself, "If I was lucid I would do this..." and do something, but have no idea that I'm dreaming. Ugh!

However, consider it progress - however odd that might seem... It means that you're thinking about dreams more often and you're bound to become lucid sooner or later.