"I" Don't Exist (May Shatter Your Current Beliefs!
Hi...
One day, I was doing a little self-searching, or say, self inquiry before sleeping in bed. Since this was a relatively relaxing time, I was able to get in touch with what I am, or what I thought I was.
In the past, I've concluded for several times that I couldn't pinpoint this sense of "I." Nowhere in my body could I solidly call "me." So, I thought that maybe I extended beyond my body. I was still lost, and left hanging.
Recently, I looked at this 'I" that's been with me so long. And all of a sudden, I had the subtle insight that maybe "I" wasn't real. I inquired myself in this way, and saw that "I" was not tangible or concrete. It very much felt like a phantom self, a fake self, which I could safely deem my ego. After this, I considered where the source of this I was. I was blown away. This new "I" that I had discovered partially had no beginning or end, and it would feel a bit restricted if I addressed as "I." It was a moment of realization of unity.
I based my self-research on Ramana Maharshi's method of self inquiry, which was to basically find the answer to the question "Who am I?" But I didn't let it stay there, I asked many other questions, did what I wanted to do. I found some cool stuff.