Second Attempt

My second experience with a WILD last night brought me back to the DreamViews community. I had been thinking about it for a couple of days, and though I'd tried the past few nights I was too tired and just gave up. But last night my mind was wide awake. I burrowed into my blankets and found a comfortable position; lying on my right side with my right arm over my left shoulder, my left hang in a fist against the base of my right arm. It was quite comfortable, despite the awkward distortion.

I began my practice by focusing on the first thought that happened to pop into my head (which happened to be a wrestling match I'd had with a friend), visualizing clearly what I would see, hear, and feel. This continued for some time, and suddenly everything changed. I no longer thought of my friend, because I was so in awe of this new feeling.

Almost out of the blue, my mind seemed to meld with the environment. I no longer thought of things in words, rather in feelings, almost like a universal language anyone who did not know how to speak or write would think of things in. Though I noticed no onset of SP, which had been very violent in my last almost-successful WILD, I could no longer feel my limbs or torso. Only my head had feeling. I felt as if I was looking at my mind, like I was separated from my body and trapped within my brain. Yet trapped isn't quite the word; it was more of an embrace. It was a truly phenomenal experience.

Sadly, despite how many things I visualized or how vividly I did it, I wasn't able to fade into a dream. Even just sitting there did nothing. I saw, heard and felt no HH of any sort. Ready to end the state (I knew I couldn't fall asleep when I was so intrigued), I let loose a gentle swallow. Surprisingly, it didn't influence it at all. I stayed there comfortably for about another 10 minutes, then opened my eyes. Still no effect. I moved my head the slightest bit, and I was slammed back into reality as my cat jumped off my bed.

The point of this post was to ask a question. Why wasn't I able to experience HH, or initiate a dream? It was as if there was a wall between my consciousness and my subconscious. Did I just choose the wrong time, without an REM cycle, or can I trigger it?

Those deep vivid visualizations you had were HH. Sometimes I don't feel SP coming on either and other times it is an intense vibration. I suggest passively watching these visualizations until you find yourself completely immersed in them. You should now be in your dream state. It sounds to me like you were very close to succeeding at WILD.