My second experience with a WILD last night brought me back to the DreamViews community. I had been thinking about it for a couple of days, and though I'd tried the past few nights I was too tired and just gave up. But last night my mind was wide awake. I burrowed into my blankets and found a comfortable position; lying on my right side with my right arm over my left shoulder, my left hang in a fist against the base of my right arm. It was quite comfortable, despite the awkward distortion.

I began my practice by focusing on the first thought that happened to pop into my head (which happened to be a wrestling match I'd had with a friend), visualizing clearly what I would see, hear, and feel. This continued for some time, and suddenly everything changed. I no longer thought of my friend, because I was so in awe of this new feeling.

Almost out of the blue, my mind seemed to meld with the environment. I no longer thought of things in words, rather in feelings, almost like a universal language anyone who did not know how to speak or write would think of things in. Though I noticed no onset of SP, which had been very violent in my last almost-successful WILD, I could no longer feel my limbs or torso. Only my head had feeling. I felt as if I was looking at my mind, like I was separated from my body and trapped within my brain. Yet trapped isn't quite the word; it was more of an embrace. It was a truly phenomenal experience.

Sadly, despite how many things I visualized or how vividly I did it, I wasn't able to fade into a dream. Even just sitting there did nothing. I saw, heard and felt no HH of any sort. Ready to end the state (I knew I couldn't fall asleep when I was so intrigued), I let loose a gentle swallow. Surprisingly, it didn't influence it at all. I stayed there comfortably for about another 10 minutes, then opened my eyes. Still no effect. I moved my head the slightest bit, and I was slammed back into reality as my cat jumped off my bed.

The point of this post was to ask a question. Why wasn't I able to experience HH, or initiate a dream? It was as if there was a wall between my consciousness and my subconscious. Did I just choose the wrong time, without an REM cycle, or can I trigger it?