FOR THE LOVE OF GOD IN HEAVEN WHY!!!..... just tried WILD again this afternoon, ofcoarse it started to work after about 30 seconds of lying on my back telling myself "i will be lucid, have lucid dreams" ect. i swear the deeper i get into the WILD the flippin faster my dang heart beats.must be around 3 beats a second so thats would be 180 beats a minute im pretty sure death would be near. once it starts to kick in though it does feels pretty good and then i can see the HI blobs change color a bit and come closer to my view. i always abort mission though. o well i guess WILD is not for me, sadly enough it is rather easy for me though.

so ive changed my way about it. i am no longer on the path of the WILD induction. i have forsaken its heart pounding ways. i put a few lines like "AM I DREAMING?" into pleciebos (i know i just butchered that name lmao) into his sublime program. cool program BTW. it seems i have no choice but to just get my reality checks down to perfection... o well