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I'm in a class room studying maths.
I'm copying some numbers and letters off the board.
Then Im drawing a pink out line around my work.
I see a red pen and use that instead to outline my work.

I'm making a grid (a table) in red to put my answers in.

Donald Trump is the class teacher
He says somthing nice about my Dissociative identity disorder. Then it is little lunch time (10am) so we all go outside.

Then I look back at the class room and there are three students inside so I go back to class.

We have a new teacher now.

I look at the red table in my maths note book and wake up.

Fragment 1: I'm in a the last of us type of setting trying to escape a town.

Dream 1: I am in a house of some sorts and I am blowing up doors with small explosions, there are 2 children with me and following me. At a certain point I blow up another door with a grenade. One child gets super close and I yell at her to move.

The grenade wasn't lethal at all and only bruises her legs. But then I'm sentenced 15 yea re s in prison for child endangerment.

The rest of the dream is just me feeling sad talking to my friends and sneaking the game.

At one point I'm secretly playing a mobile game where you have to kill the enemy's inside of a big white room of sorts.

Dream 2: I'm inside of that game that I just mentioned. I have to fight and kill bosses. I don't remember much. But I do remember casting magic, running very fast, and fighting.

Before 5.50

I leave an airport and get into a taxi that takes us to a holiday home far out in the countryside. Nothing but fields in all directions. House looks like an old farmhouse. We eat a big slab of steak or meat. Ab pleads with me to come back for Christmas, saying the flights would be really cheap. "Imagine all this covered in snow..."

Later on we are sitting on a hillside. My friend points out a large bird flying high above us. The sky seems to be made of video screens whih change and flicker as this thing flies past them. Then the bird lands amongst us. It's man-sized. I try to take a photo of it. Then the bird turns into a monkey man with weird thick square sections of fur and bare skin around them. I comment on the fur and make some offhand comment about parasites before realising how offensive that would sound. To attempt to cover it over, I say I probably have parasites too. We all do.

Yesterday I asked the Dreem Views forum staff
for the code for Dark Green font.

Dolfin replied with the code.

I wanted to put all my dreams from now on
in green font, in my dream journal
To separated then from all the dreams before.

I drempt of friendly German Shepherd dogs
So no hit there. But

I like the green synchronicity
(The photo was ferns and the only color in the picture was "shades of dark green" with a little shadows in black)

I could have chosen blue or red or brown but at the time of asking I only wanted "Dark Green"

Dream 1: I am at my grandma's house.
Ima skip out on details but I have sex wuth someone I don't know

Dream 2: this dream has a fantasy game like feel to it. I am doing task for a king to unlock something. I think It was a dragon. This dream has a very big plot, I'm trying to rescue a kingdom by doing many different task.

I choose the task by looking st a wall that shows them. Many of them are scary or weird. At one point I am observing a very small dragon(think of a very small Chinese dragon.)

I think there was something else but I forgot.

Dream 3: once again I'm inside of apex legends. I spawn in a town. I believe I was supposed to kill people to help someone do something.

All of my team members were dead and I fight many teams with a R-301. At some point I am running through a forest to get to another town.

Once again I feel closer to getting a lucid. Right now since I'm a beginner, every lucid counts. So I will list off when I feel I'm about to have a lucid. I'm sure once I'm a veteran I will not have to do that

I'm arriving at a house in a neighborhood where an old lady greets me and takes me inside. Passing by the pantry, I notice a large cake inside. Straight ahead, I also see part of the same cake floating in a water jug. She asks me if I would like anything to drink and I politely decline. Seeming like she wants me to drink, she asks if I'm sure, and I say yes. I'm now suspicious if she's trying to get me to drink because the water's poisoned somehow by the cake. After refusing twice she still ends up pouring a glass from the jug and tells me to drink it. I threaten her by grabbing her face and saying something before walking out and leaving in my car. On my drive home, I get pulled over by a cop car. I roll my window down and the female cop tells me that the lady I was with was some kind of killer and just wanted me to know.

I didn't have a lucid dream today. I think I woke up at the wrong time. I started and ended my WBTB 1-hour later than I would have liked. The WBTB period was still 90 minutes but that didn't seem to matter. I wasn't in the right state of mind while falling to sleep either.

I slept at 1 last night and I had acohol in my system. So horrible recall.

But I do remember a dream where I was playing apex with my friend A. I was inside the game as usual

Stayed awake for ~60 minutes and went to sleep with the intention to have a lucid dream.

I can't tell if I was lucid or if I had a dream about lucid dreaming.

Dream 1: this was a very long feeling dream. I am on the bbn couch watching a video that was scary. I am surfing dreamviews. And I come across a tutorial. It was a very mysterious and weird. I think it was a technique that uses spirit. Guides as a gateway to lucidity. But I can't recall.

I'm pretty sure this dream had a horror aspect to it. Because I remember seeing something scary, something trying to kill me.

The tutorial. Is very long and it uses her dreams(the creator) as examples. Well as I read those I notice that she has two spirit guides or whatever they were. After all of that I fall asleep.

In my dream I become"lucid" but I think It was a dream about lucid dreaming. It just didn't have that lucid feeling. (I can't remember the dream I just know i became "lucid" in it

Dream 2: I remember a dream but it's too long to write it all down. But basically my brother and i raid these sheds to get back at people

Dream 3: I remember a dream where I was inside of the game apex legends as watson killing multiple teams. It was also very dramatic.

Dream 4: I also had a dream where I find some very strong tape of many varieties because my brother failed to get it(and a weird weapon that uses it. I was confused because it had no stats). As we run from the killer we tape up the doors and hiding spots so it can't get to us.

I remembered one other dream but I forgot it as I was typing it up, I'll see if I remember later today.

Dreams today were really chaotic. I also forgot a lot of details for some reason.

Morning of July 17, 2019. Wednesday.

Dream #: 19,203-02. Reading time (optimized): 2 min.



My dream begins with the usual water induction but which transitions into a non-lucid experience of my dream self being incorporeal and hovering above a big public pool that uses advanced technology to simulate ocean life, though only by causing splashes and movement of the water. There is no one around, even though the machinery is active.

Eventually, I am corporeal and seated in a library while subliminally trying to increase my awareness by reading or attempting to read (a habit of instinctual dreaming since childhood). It is more like a classroom, as there are what seem to be school desks in the big room.

Without getting up, I pick up a book on computer technology from an unknown male’s desk that faces mine, but upon riffling through the pages, I see that it is outdated by many years. I am unsure why he had it on his desk, but I put it back without saying anything.

I turn around to see shelves on one wall to my right that feature many packages of unassembled cardboard spaceship pieces that are in transparent plastic wrapping, most related to the “Star Trek” franchise. This rendering stems from subliminal thoughts of vestibular system correlation, the most common dreaming process. As a result of the change in focus, I realize that I have been absent from my home for hours and should probably return.

I walk, seemingly for a long time, though the setting and location are fictitious, yet my immediate new false memories dictate my imaginary journey. I walk through a long hall where there are no other people at first. (I more often fly around at this stage of a dream.) Eventually, I maintain a strange deliberate slow-motion jog that seems perfect and propels me higher from the floor than would be possible in reality. However, an unknown boy (preconscious simulacrum that is usually rendered to be the personified waking process) starts to make fun of my activity. I curse at him relentlessly, and he leaves through what appear to be the French doors of a business.

I am in an unknown neighborhood with many dense bushes and low-hanging branches adjacent to the sidewalk. With instinctual dream control, I indulge in water reinduction (virtual melatonin mediation) to vivify and sustain my dream.

I phase through any overgrown plants when needed as I effortlessly make my progress down the sidewalk. I enjoy the refreshing cooling raindrops on my skin as some of the water additionally streams from the branches above.

I consider where my house is, but the area is fictitious. Despite this, a subliminal dream state awareness creates a false recall that my house is across the street from a store that sells mattresses and bedding. I see the word “sleep” on a big sign.

I approach the corner apartment building where my family supposedly lives. Through the window, I see our youngest daughter get up from a chair and go to another part of the room. I am glad to be back home.

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I woke up with my second alarm and went straight back to lying down attempting to MILD again. I must have dozed off for a little bit as I come back to awareness with a bright white rectangle close to my face. I imagine it as a computer screen and sure enough, I start to focus on the URL at the top of the screen repeating to myself that I am dreaming. I feel my body start to enter sleep paralysis and I hear some strange noises. I try to wake myself up out of panic by trying to think of my bedroom, but I can only think about work and sitting at my desk looking at my computer screen. I let it happen and suddenly pop into the dream by WILD

It's difficult to move at first, but I get out of the office chair I'm sitting in and do a reality check. My fingers pass easily through my hand and I feel that I am already more aware because of WILDing instead of DILDing. I want to get outside so I walk to the stairwell and find it blocked by a vending machine. It swings out of the way without effort, though, and I walk down. The stairs get very narrow with more blockages along the way, but I finally make it out into a grassy hill. In front of me are mountains with many homes built around the base. To my left it looks like some plains with a dust devil or small tornado. I sit down cross legged in the grass to boost my awareness. I once again perform a reality check which I do easily. I then say out loud, "Clarity now", in a calm but commanding voice and my vision becomes pixelated-like for a split second and a sound like a high pitched ring occurs. It subsides leaving me with a much clearer vision and more awareness, and I'm stunned for a minute that it worked so well. I decide I want to talk to my subconscious so I start walking down a street with houses on both sides. I imagine a bench on the left side while looking at my hands and sure enough, I look up and a bench is there, although a little lopsided. I sit down and ask to speak with my subconscious. Out of the right side of my vision, a blonde girl walks towards the house that I'm facing. She greets me and walks in some side entrance to open the front door for me. I thank her and walk inside. She starts talking to me but I'm trying to focus on staying aware and I tell her this. I remark that I need to work on making my awareness - boosting routine get my awareness in the dream to last longer. When I finally sit down, she starts talking to me again, but the dream fades out quickly.

I've have had at least 2 lucid dreams in the past two days. I think I may have figured out what is causing me to have lucid dreams. It was never the specific technique or the meditation. It was the fact that I was staying awake for 90 minutes then falling back to sleep with the intention to lucid dream. 90 minutes is not a magic number. It's about fully waking up - when the mind/body least wants to - and stretching the rubber band of sleep deprivation. Then we release that tension by lying down and quickly falling asleep with no other thought than to recognize the next time we dream. Some experts would describe this as REM rebound. One must figure out how their mind/body relate to sleep deprivation and REM sleep during the WBTB period.



For my next dream goal, I am going to get a dream character to tell me their name.

I know I had many dreams this night, but as I'm fixing my schedule I still have poor recall. Many things I remember are just little pieces that i can't put into anything tangible.

Dream 1: once again I'm inside a game. One of my favorite games. Which is the last of us. I'm on the map checkpoint.

As I start playing I notice the map is different from usual. I also had a point where I found shotgun ammo even though I didn't have one. And I also found a military sniper and used it.

I played two rounds In total. Both i did what I usually do and shived people. I had a shorty and I think a burst rifle(my actual shiv class has the enforcer) I have many moments where my shiv is stolen by someone shooting the enemy.

Another thing is that you can speak to the enemy. I've had moments where I've said sorry. And other things I don't remember.

I've had so many dreams where I'm inside a dream. But I have no idea on how I should become lucid from them. Does anyone have any advice for that? Like should I think of it as virtual reality and RC everytime I see or think of being in it or?

Also I've been feeling that I'm getting close to lucidity again

Therapy

A dream Jamie was living with me, but we went to some office building she was going in for counselling on her BPD or something. I haven't heard from her in how long and already we're going to marriage counselling .
note: She was wearing a toque in this dream. In a lot of the dreams where she seems to be with me, it's winter time. I wonder if these are supposed to be future pacing dreams?


Note IRL C, and old friend from previous work is now posting stuff on facebook about Twin Flames. Uggh. So i messaged her and said I've definitely been experiencing some shit around twin flames. It's a path I would not recommend to anyone, although it seems I had no real choice going on it.


Kissing dream

Dream I was kissing some girl, and having sex with her. Both dreams were not Jamie.


Jamie is mad

I'm in a dream where me, Jamie, and C are all working at the same job. Jamie is the supervisor and as soon as C shows up, she starts bitching C out about how she's showing up at her shift at the wrong time. Jamie is being really mean to her, C walks away almost tearing up.

In another dream, Jamie is just taking me by the hand and leading me somewhere. She doesn't talk but now she seems worried, and she's clenching my hand really hard.

I guess I'll have to be really careful with C and not let things go too far. I just want to warn her about this stuff because she was really nice to me back in the day, and I don't forget that.

All week my dreams were less and less. I had trouble sleeping etc.