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Roland of Suburbia

I'm with 2 women on a suburban street. They might be Jamie and A. We enter a house. In the house is a man on a lounge chair. The place is messy. Beer cans everywhere. A moving company would call me it a hoarder house. The man is middle aged. Stubble beard. He accused me of abandoning him. He wants to die but he can't kill himself. So he challenges me to a gun duel. He pulls out 2 grey and old Western looking revolvers. He hands me one. He says the secret to killing him is to shoot him in the heel. He points to the exact spot on his heel. He says shooting him there will both sever an artery allowing him to bleed out instantly. And also hit a nerve that will paralyse him so he can't shoot back. He says hold on, he has to find the bullets for his gun because his gun is empty. He turns around and rummages through a purse. I'm very scared because I know he is more skilled with guns than I am. So while he's looking for bullets in his purse his heel is exposed. Not wanting to risk a gunfight I shoot him in the heel, the exact spot he said. And he appears to instantly die.

False awakening,

I'm still in the house and various people are congratulating me on killing the man.

FA, I'm still in the house but I'm sleeping on top of a broken wall. I get down and a familiar man is there. He asks me why I was sleeping there? I say it's because I can hear the trains going by and.... He finishes the sentence for me: hearing trains bring strange dreams.

FA, I'm still in the house with the people excited about my gun duel, or lack of. Some fan guy was there and said he saw the kill streaming on YouTube or something.

What?

A dream I'm having sex with someone from the books in reading....

Well damn... I would have rather it be Jamie. Where is she in my dreams lately?

Neighbors' cat petting (fragment)

I'm petting the neighbors' cat.

Big dude, big hands (fragment)

There's a large black man in a hoodie with big hands, like a rock climber's hands.

Impossible OD bass

I'm watching on my phone a beatbox sound tutorial : "Aaah" + outward Villain OD bass + inward version of that + Jayton voice. But it's impossible to inhale and exhale at the same time...

I tried to WILD. Although a failed attempt, I think it made my two last dreams quite vivid

My Doom monsters (fragment)

I'm in a pixelated video game, most likely Doom from 1993. Surrounded by green mountains and a green sky, I must be on an alien planet. There's a fight between my team of monsters vs another team of monsters. I'm probably semi-lucid, can't quite remember. Some flying or hovering alien monsters are coming towards me.

Sticky cobwebs

I'm in a room with white walls and ceiling, there are other people. Pink chewing-gum is hanging from the ceiling to the floor, like big sticky/melting cobwebs.

Sleeping, selling and party crashing

At my parents' house, I decide to sleep on a mattress outside, in front of the living room's doors. A random cat sleeps with me. The next day, me and other people are riding motor scooters. The cat is sitting behind me. Then I return to my matress, lots of people arrive, they begin hosting a party and start selling our stored beers and stored food, from the garage and an underground storage room (that we don't have IRL). They'll donate part of the profit to my family. It's now night time, people count down and shout happy new year, but I ruin the fun by shouting : "It’s over !", because my mom said they have to go. Disappointed, they leave.

Big baby brother

*sequel to the previous dream* I still want to sleep outside, but my parents and my new little brother (which I don't have IRL) are in the living room : my brother is a huge (like a big doll, almost my height) white baby in diapers, able to walk and speak like an adult. He could be a character from Baby Boss at this point...

Dinner

*daytime nap* Eating dinner with some family, I ask my sister to pass me the grated cheese on the plate in front of her, under her green beans. I need to cough. My brother asks me something like : "Why don’t you take the grated cheese that’s there ?" *pointing in front of me*. I wake up because I really needed to cough.

Kikōha blast (Chained dreams)

*Woke up and back to sleep multiple times shortly, having the same dream* I’m another guy, throwing blue Kikōhas from dbz.

Warrior wasp incident

I'm on the terrace of a house with a garden, with at least two nephews and probably a golden retriever. A black warrior wasp is there, someone has torn off one of her wings. My nephew gets stung, thinking he can resist it. But I explain to him how Coyote Peterson from Brave Wilderness began to cry in pain and roll on the ground after being stung by this wasp. My nephew begins to sob, anticipating the pain.

Fireworks text

I'm outside with some family, policemen are there. Someone tells me with excitement to look in the sky : there's a giant red "E" (almost "F"), then it becomes a "T", then fireworks. I also want to write things in the sky for a surprise for my sister. Then I accompany a nephew, we cross the road, a fast car almost ran us over, this road is super dangerous.

Spider-light (FA)

*false awakening* In my room at my brother's house, I wake up with a big black spider suspended on its thread above me, my mouth is open, I don't want a spider in my mouth so I force myself awake, but it was just the wires from the light on the ceiling.

Lots of dreams. Doubt I remember them all.

Jamie 1

Brief dream of Jamie facing me in the black space. She grabs my hands and kisses me.

Jamie 2

Jamie says, " I want our daughter to have a cat."

Yes of course. Do I get to name our daughter? I have some ideas.

Jamie 3

Jamie is explaining to me, "when I've done drugs. I don't feel real ( nothing feels real.)"

Yes, BPD people often experience de realization. Derealization while driving is scary. I hope she is staying away from drugs, they can cause episodes or make episodes much worse. Instead of drugs get productive hobbies, music instruments, art, hiking. Anything but what will cause an episode.

Scott

The guy I used to work with who ripped me off and I had to cut ties with is begging me to work for him again.

Brother

An unpleasant dream related to my brother and work. Can't remember specific details.

Ronnie

A lady from stettler wanted to go to my suite where I'm staying while I work there. The main door to the suite was ripped off...

Raven

I ran into Raven in a northern US state. She said she was still traveling or something. Can't remember much more.

Jesus

Jesus is walking on some water and says, " my promise to you will be fulfilled." I think he means both salvation and stuff about Jamie.

Thai martial arts club

An old man accepts to drive me to the martial arts club because it’s on his way. In front of the club, many Thai guys are training for this martial art that ends with "aw" (a Thai name). Then two nephews arrived here by bus in 35 minutes.

Papers control & the underground twins

In the subway, I'm a migrant papers controller, I'm controlling a young guy in sweat pants, when suddenly two skinny nerd twins with long hair come out of the train's floor through a hole. They stayed under there, lying between two layers of floor for 3 days, without moving. What they did was illegal, so we call the authorities to arrest them.

Splits compilation

Compilation of people doing the splits from standing up to the ground : a k-pop artist, a girl in black leather outfit and a yellow motorcycle helmet, *forgot the others*.

No dreams this morning.

Unfortunately, all I have from this dream are fragments, however they're pretty intriguing in my opinion. I took three capsules. Not sure on the dose.

I was taking BART around the bay, trying to get to my home in Oakland. I found that there were a variety of new lines, a lot of which used different traincars to what BART usually uses. They looked closer to the Muni metro in San Francisco than anything BART has or had in the past. These lines went to more specialized places. If I remember correctly, there were a few that went to a specific person's house, and there was one that had "nowhere" written as the destination.

As I was riding BART, I also noticed that some of the stations themselves looked different. Oakland normally has eight stations, however in my dream there was only the one, aptly titled "Oakland", and the inside of the station looked incredibly futuristic, with a big orange torus shape going around the entrances. It's hard to explain exactly what the stations looked like simply because it was barely even comprehensible, but there was another one that I passed through while on BART that looked similar, but with a teal ring instead of an orange one, and it was located somewhere in Marin county or the peninsula if I remember correctly.

all the ground we're walking on is also dark water. im standing on a sidewalk while i see a girl killer whale speed by with a woman holding on too its back and them being trailed by another orca, the orcas mate that seems like it just snapped or became rabid. it's going after the human on the girl orcas back and the girl orca is trying to protect her, she's dressed like there trainer. people try to step into the street but then the boy orcas attacks them, one guy get's his leg bit off and he screaming about his leg being gone. another guy jumps in to help him out because the orca is circling back but then it grabs the guy trying to help the legless guy out and drags him under. this gave the other orca a headstart. when they all get out of the area i start jumping on things that are taller than ground level like bushes and benches,i make my way up stairs on short building tops and now a bunch of people who have also made it past that violent area are all going into buildings and cafes, it's very luxurious here, the deserts and meals and drinks are made beautifully.Most people here are tabbed out though and quiet so i grab a drink and head out, i see this girl who also is tabbed in and going off alone and we stare at each other with both interest and suspicion. Suddenly im at my grandmas house and my sister presents this huge plastic eggs that transforms that she says you're supposed to sallow. i told my mom and here its impossible, its too big it'd get stuck in my throat, and she seems confused because apparently she's done it and then realized yea how was it possible. afterwards my mom comes to pick us up, i hop into her car and tell her to hurry because the orca might come since it's still night out, i wait eagerly for my sister to hurry up and get in the car before the orca comes back, my mom accuses me of not being there for dinner but i tell her "what are you talking about, we ate and i was sitting in the living room and my sister saw ask her" and then my mom seems confused. My sister finally makes it into the car and she confirms i was at dinner

Bowling (fragment)

I'm bowling with other people. Things that happened : ultra slow ball, strike, spare, trying to strike two separate pins in one throw...

Hematom piercing

Someone asks me if I know what a hematom is, I say "A metal burn ?", the person replies that it is a lower back piercing, and that we can't feel pain in this body part.

No dream recall this morning

Wow, my motivation is pretty low lately. I hardly feel like writing anything down.

Last night's dreams felt kind of engaging though, so I'll at least put down some notes.

Dream notes:

At some hotel-type place. We're supposed to go out and dig/do archaeology. I keep forgetting things. Before this, there was a place where the floor, though appearing to be floorboards, was actually a kind of mud you could sink into. Some things about going down hallways and trying to keep above the mud. Anyway, back to the hotel. I would go out, but forget my equipment. Then forget my backpack, maybe. At another time, people are digging up the hillside at the end of the road where my grandparents used to live.

Seems like there might have been a girl around somewhere. Also, at one point I was walking with someone and we came across a cat. Somewhere around this spot, someone I was walking with decided to urinate. I suggested he could go into the hotel (which was right there) instead of urinating next to it.

At another point in time, maybe a different dream or not, I was back at the Church where I grew up, exploring some rooms. They had been doing some remodeling, and I'm concerned about familiar things being removed. I see some old carpet.

Charge = volume (FA)

*false awakening* The volume of my alarm is proportional to the charge level (it's pretty loud because it's well charged).

Poem choice (fragment)

A girl (in a grey turtleneck sweater with striped stitching) has the choice between two poems to recite. *forgot what happened*

No Jamie dreams the past few days.

Only dream I can semi recall is that I was in a big battle. It was scary. Maybe WOT related I don't know.

Jamie voice has been quiet except for a little bit at night.

Laying in bed listening to 3rd eye sound bowl I remember a fragment of my dream.
A man approached My family and told us he had something to show us. But we had to follow him to his house. We were apprehensive because we thought it was strange and I was worried that he might kill us or be a serial killer.

He finally talked us into it. So we made our way to his home which turned out to be very large and fancy. There we met his wife and she was equally as strange but they seemed friendly. I realize that he must be very wealthy to have such a large estate.

After chatting for a while he said he wanted to show us something. He had a large pool. We followed him apprehensively I wasn't sure that we wanted to go further into the property. Something about them felt off.

Only followed them. He did have a very large pool. Like almost an olympic-sized pool, There were children swimming in it doing laps and playing games and their parents were there also. We didn't swim. We just stood and talked to him. He said that he did this for the community but it was like a special school. Ethan invited us back to sit with his wife and himself and we played some sort of board game. The room was opulent and he served fancy liqueur. His wife and himself told us all about their program and that the people stayed there. I started getting weird vibes that this was some sort of cult. He was extremely wealthy and something about him made me feel like he wasn't being completely honest.

We toured more of the property, which gave me the impression that it was some sort of compound. He asked us to stay but we politely said we had to be somewhere. He didn't like that but somehow we made it out of the compound. On the outskirts of the compound was a town which we found out that he owned and controlled. I talked to a person who said that it was indeed a cult.

It all starts to fade here. I know there was more.