Pretzel Experiment (Lucid) I "wake up" on the couch where I was sleeping. The neighbors are being a little noisy - at least I think I can hear them talking and/or playing music on a piano. This makes me kind of unreasonably annoyed, and I think that I will turn off the fan by my bed to be sure. If they really are making noise, I'm thinking of playing the trumpet for revenge. I go to turn off the fan, and then realize that I should do a reality check. I do a nose pinch, and find that I can still breathe. I seem to be getting more used to lucidity, because I don't doubt that I'm dreaming as much as I have before. I'm pretty convinced after that test, and I stabilize a bit by feeling the couch and then get up. I walk over to a box on my desk where I have a bag of mini pretzel sticks (I put them there for this reason). My plan is to see if I can keep myself anchored and stabilized by snacking on or just holding a pretzel stick in my mouth as I go. Somehow the process of getting out a pretzel stick is more complicated than I expected, and it obstructs my vision a little bit. This causes the dream to destabilize a bit, but I put a pretzel in my mouth and it seems to help, at least maybe a little bit. I now make my way to the door. I open the door to go outside, thinking as I do that I should have tried to expect the Dream Base to be there when I open it. When I do open the door, I think I remember seeing a bush outside or something. But the dream seems to fade after this.
prelude: for those interested in the synchronicity between what is going on in the solar system & our dream lives, the planets of the unconscious are the three outer ones. right now pluto is stationary direct. pluto represents the deepest collective unconscious, death & rebirth, transformation, & volcanic emotion from the depths, as in social revolution. it can mean treachery & betrayal, deep resentment & hatred, jealous scheming. it is the worst of corporate politics: the plutocrats. it also represents the true survivor, the one who has been through the fire & back & lived to tell the tale. it can represent nightmare hell. don't be surprised if this kind of symbolism turns up in your current dreams. i had two nightmares last night. ho-hum. in one that seemed to last all night, i was an actor in a movie that was being made up as it went along. the plot involved me being stalked. i would confront my stalkers & taunt them, coming very close to violence, but usually ended up having to run. the actors playing my stalkers seemed to have genuine animosity towards me. it was decided that the movie would end with the stalkers catching up with me & doing me in, which disgusted me. as the killer closed in on me, i wadded up a big bunch of paper money & threw it in her face, hard. then i woke up. later in the night i found myself hurtling down a narrow freeway extremely fast. i started passing through a city & was getting to the edge of control, so i went for the brake, but the car had no brake. i woke up with my foot tangled in the blanket, trying to stomp the brake.
Woke up this morning without much dream recall, but I smoked some weed and ate junk food last night so that was no surprise. I only really remember an image of an ex-girlfriend (A. A), and drinking a soft drink that felt highly refreshing. In the afternoon I had a nap which included a small dream. V. was in a rush to catch a bus to Coventry, and I was with her. The weird thing was, I knew that I wasn’t there – I was trying to get to Leicester from somewhere, and was a part of her bus journey somehow. It was like I was a fly on the wall following her getting her bus, and she was late. She arrived almost at the stop when she looked around the corner and said “Double Decker Bus!” and quickly made a run for a nearby bus stop – the bus stopped within plenty of time, and she got on. It was almost as if she was narrating her journey, like she was in a film or something. There were some girls gossiping on the bus, including one I have recently seen on Tinder. They were laughing about a lady’s name, it was a random name like “Tina Jacketson” or something. Perhaps I was with Vicki after all, because not long after this, I was sat down with her standing on my lap somehow, looking for something. She looked down at me at one point and apologized for standing on me, which I said was no problem. I had a few thoughts that I hadn’t even considered where I was going or how to get to my city – I was just aimlessly following Vicki, which could be some sort of symbolism of what I’ve been doing for the last year.
Dream Eight (10.5.2022) Björk was hosting some kind of three day weekend rave for her new album ("Fossora") at her house. Everything looked blue and psychedelic (like the album art). I asked my best friends if they were coming and but only my fiancé was able to come. Then there was a scene of me facing off against a random lady in front of Björk on who could drink more straight tequila. A brief, trippy subatomic scene (like from "Ant-Man") played after I drank. I woke up. (I could see almost Björk and also Grimes doing something like this - crazy rave at their house - because they've both DJed extensively before. You know it'd be a crazy party but I feel they would actually care about their guests. And not just because I'm fans of both. I just feel like they're genuine creators. Legit only the only wild party I'd ever attend if it was real. I know they'd have the best DJ material! This dream felt so warm and fun. Also, love the new album! Was able to get it on release day and was so excited to see it in stores immediately.)
Updated Yesterday at 01:55 AM by 99520
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP Visiting the secondary location of my old extra curricular activities center. It now seems to be working as a day care for younger children. At first I am waiting at some waiting room and notice the old furniture and apparently abandoned and despised trinkets I remember seeing there as a kid. I start picking some up from the floor and under a table, stuffing them in my pockets since here no one cares to preserve these. It's like tiny china figurines and sculpted wooden pieces. Then I am welcomed inside and I get to see that this place is overcrowded with kids. The kids are sitting on the floor, I almost can't walk around, I see no toys or games, they look bored and neglected. Most are kids of color. There's 3 or 4 carers who seem overwhelmed with the kids and even a bit too agressive towards them, I feel. I am worried about what I see. I then decide I will try to sell the antique trinkets and donate the money back to them. I exit through the front door - seems like I actually entered through the back one - and even find another carer with half a dozen more kids sitting on the floor of the hallway of the building. It's heartbreaking. I am waking up from a dream, but become lucid and try hard to hold on. Get stuck in what seems like behind a frosted glass wall. To not lose lucidity, I focus on the texture of the frosted glass, so close to my face and don't try anything else. When I feel the lucidity is more stable, I also try to feel my real body in bed. I think I may have had a lucid false awakening, because I experimented raising my real hand and touch my face with it and I swear I felt it. I even put my fingers in my mouth. At least that's exactly what it felt like, although in the dream state I was basically formless in front of the frosted glass screen. When I really woke up, I was confused if I actually managed to move my hand by commanding it from inside the lucid dream or if I imagined it, but most likely I imagined it in a cross between an LD and a FA.
Haven't remembered any dreams the last couple of mornings, but I had a mid-afternoon nap today and had a funny old dream. I kinda stupidly had a Monster energy drink at lunch time, and those things have a weirldy opposite effect on me where they make me want to nap hard. I guess the stimulation from the caffeine keeps me slightly awake when I dream too, so I often remember them. Certainly won't be making a habit of that though! I was on holiday somewhere really nice with a very random group of people. Much like my last dream, it was in a fancy villa with tiled floors and lots of natural light. It felt a bit more exotic than Italy this time though. My parents were both there, my sister and her fiance might have been there, but strangely my ex-girlfrined (we only broke up yesterday, sadly) was there as was another couple. Bizarrely, the other couple was my ex-girlfriend's best friend's parents, who I met at a birthday party (awesome people, I would deffo go on holiday with them IRL!). All I really remember about the holiday was one scene - everyone was slowly getting ready to go out. Everyone was either freshly showered, showering, or getting ready to shower. I remember rather a lot of nudity, everyone seemed very comfortable around each other. This probably stems from me recently joining a spa/gym where everyone in the shower area is very comfortable with nudity. One of the showers was even right in the middle of the main hallway, which my ex-girlfriends best friend's dad was using. I was wandering around naked with a towel over my shoulder, on my way to the shower too. I passed through a dark bedroom where my ex-girlfriend was sleeping in an armchair. I gave her a tap and sung her name, and she hazily woke up and I told her it was time to get ready to go. It felt like we were going out for dinner, but the way I said this suggested we were packing our bags to leave. I walked out of the bedroom into a garden, which felt very African. Exotic plants, red dirt and dry grass, not to mention there was a damn elephant! I remember being very comfortable with the elephant - he was the neighbours pet, and in fact he wasn't like an elephant at all. Whilst he did have a trunk and he was large, it was very slim in the middle and weird gill-like features. It actually reminds me of a real animal or sea creature that I have seen before, but I can't quite put a finger on what that is. I walked around the garden to a large house gate which was the neighbours, where I was going for my shower. I never got to the shower though - I just woke up! Well, that was everything! It was a pretty neutral dream - I remember some people having bad vibes about the elephant, but I knew it was safe.
I discover a supermarket across the tracks that has a cafe with interactive entertainment and performances, it becomes my to-go spot. My friends and I go there and the cafe has a trampoline-bungee jump performance that requires both performers and crew members behind the open curtains to keep balance and share weight. It looks nice, but apparently everyone behind the scenes gets frustrated and starts audibly yelling at each other, some friends and I get on a unused trampoline to distract the audience. My high school friends and I eat at our table after the performance. My friend who is a calm guy walks up to the counter talking to the women working there, I can't understand what he's saying until he gets frustrated and angrily calls the women "fortune tellers" which made me smirk as they wearimg "spiritual"-like outfits. My other friends and I get up knowing we're about to get kicked out. The staff compliments us for how quickly we managed to sign out as guests on the computer by the entrance. Now calmed down, my friend told the staff that he was dissapointed that the cafe doesn't offer hosuden, which are appartently the remedy for his allergies as he said his dog could smell it when he walks with him. Meanwhile, I struggle to get my two jackets on.
I haven't been able to dream journal much lately because my dreams take on a strange intangible feel where not much of it really translates well to journal form. Last night my girlfriend and I did a staycation at our favorite hotel and the beds there are magnificent. Weighted blanket and a down pad. I got very good sleep and even woke up naturally 10 minutes before the wbtb alarm I set. Nothing much would come from it because I fell back asleep to quickly without trying WILD or MILD. 10.04.2022 7:00 AMDream Watch (non-lucid) I am in an unfamiliar bedroom. It is dark but I see a nice watch on the nightstand. I pick it up. It has dark leather straps, a dark face, and grey metal case. I check it against the clock on the wall and realize it is two and a half hours slow but it is ticking at the right rate. I pop out the knob and start adjusting it but it's hard to see the dials clearly in the dark.
08.142022 10:00 AMSmiley (DILD) I am in my childhood home and lucid. I walk out to the backyard and the sun is setting. Juliana steps into view right in front of me and smiles deeply, the sun and the oak tre behind her. She is a 5'2 woman in her 20s with short dark hair and wearing a simple black dress. I feel both her and my happiness and it causes me to wake up.
non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP Attending some teachings, some place up in the mountains with an amphitheatre. Some old students and western lamas are conspiring to betray my teacher. They are exposed and they are sent away. Joakim was not among them, but he concerns me a lot. I know that he is no longer a buddhist, has some new non recommended friends for company, so I suspect he is around only to cause harm. I stay close and keep an eye on him. New series on TV with Keanu Reeves. He plays a lawyer with a split personality. He sometimes dresses up to match the personalities, but it is highly disturbing. One of them is a dog and he wears a dog costume and walks on four legs and looks weirdly like a real dog from the uncanny valley. Some other of his personalities are of black guys and he paints himself in black face. The makeup is so perfect that all we see is really a black guy, but we know who's underneath and I am shocked that he is actually doing this on a show in 2022. Then an episode in which he is the dog becomes a real life experience for me and I meet dog Keanu on the street. Although I know there is a person in there, I pretend I don't know and I pet him and talk to him as if he is a lost pet. He never says a word and then he runs across the street away from me and enters a bulding. I go after him. I walk through a long twisted corridor and I see many families gathered in rooms, mourning their loved ones, or just visiting them and realize it is some kind of hospice. Dog Keanu disappears at the end of the corridor and I get lost inside the last room, only to find my mother and my aunt Ludovina laying down in beds. At first I think they are restrained because my mom has an eye mask and for a while it seemed like she had a mouth gag. Turns out she is just taking a nap and she wakes up and moves freely. She explains that my uncle Francisco managed to get some legal document saying they both are insane and needed to be committed so the hospital complied. But she says that the situation is being solved right now and she is just resting before she leaves this place. Then my dad and aunt Lisa arrive and they say they just challenged the decision and are awaiting their release. Then both my uncles come by to confront them and for some reason I have a really big heavy pan on my hands and I threathen to smash it against their f-ing heads if they come any closer. They actually get really scared and go to a corner at the back of the room. Their kids also come, namely João, Sara and André and they are shocked with my behaviour but I also feel that they understand it. I hear my uncles talking in the background with other people, arguing they need the family money because sometimes their kids go hungry. I feel sad for my cousins, but it's their parents fault and not my mother's. I wanna reach out to them, but every one is staying quiet in their places so I decided to do the same as we wait for the legal fight to unravel.
I've been waking up in the early AM, unable to shut down my thinking. Tonight. I will try Magnesium, 5-HTP and Melatonin in a stack to induce better sleep. Also, using my self-made Sleep/Dream Cycle session, listening to it all night.
I will collect the dreams I've written recently on Discord to my friends in my first post! I have many more dreams beyond this (hundreds upon hundreds) but I'm just going to keep those archived on my computer. Can't get too silly now trying to upload every single dream I've had written down before this. Dream One (9.11.2022) I was in a big, random elementary school. A kid was crying because of over-stimulation (autism) and I was showing him toys to calm him down. There was a nice, older nurse and she asked me: "You usually work with special education kids, don't you? I can tell." (Yes, I do - in waking life!) Dream Two (9.17.2022) I had a dream about AI art overrunning real human artists on Instagram. (This is a big talking point in the waking art world right now.) Dream Three (9.18.2022) I had a dream about a bad person from my past. Their photo infected my laptop and then their face distorted into this ugly, monstrous thing. They had eyes oozing with pus everywhere and melting flesh from their skull. They hijacked my Discord and typed "I have become the villain the world wants me to be". (In waking life, I'm no longer worried about this person bothering or stalking me anymore.) Then in the second dream, a horse monster appeared and devoured a guy in the background. You could see him through the stomach and he was on his phone, completely unphased. Truly messed up. You got eaten, you're going to die - who cares about social media then!? Dream Four (9.21.2022) A false awakening. I "woke up" and went to use the bathroom. I noticed all the lights were on at 6:00 AM for some reason. I saw my brother and mom talking in the living room. I was like ??? and turned the light off in the bathroom. All the lights in our apartment turned off. When the lights were off I saw my brother and mom quit moving, like they were statues. When the lights came back on, they were gone. And then I woke for real and it was 2 AM. Dream Five (9.28.2022) I was flying in the sky, high above Hurricane Ian with lightning powers (that also somehow prevented me from getting cold so high in the atmosphere). Then there was a scene where I was trying to stop the Earth from getting sawed in half by a giant, cyberpunk saw. Dream Six (9.30.2022) I was with Steppe and Wunda in a random elementary school. I was trying to reset the timeline because we kept getting wrecked by Darkseid who would appear through a portal. (I guess he was mad about two soldiers being taken away!) At one point I was talking to them both on cellphones (we were at different areas of the school). I cautiously told them: "Remember - don't believe the propaganda, we are but mere tools to him". And then the screen turned bright red and shattered. I woke up. (These are all characters in a fan novel I'm writing for the DC Comics' series "New Gods". My book is called "Red Shift".) Dream Seven (10.2.2022) I was in an elementary school and was working on the "Red Shift" visual novel. I accidentally released the whole thing to the public (despite it not being done). People around the school suddenly started giving me reviews of the game. They were saying things like: "Great premise and locations but it feels unfinished? 8/10". (IT IS. Also, why the high review if it feels unfinished?)
Updated 10-03-2022 at 05:40 PM by 99520
Looks like I'm starting to get some of my old frequency back. I often stop practicing somewhere at this point, either getting bored or lazy or burnt out, or something. My goal this time is to keep practicing past the point where I'm starting to have decent success, and see how far I can go. Stabilize (Lucid) Lying in bed, I do a nose pinch and can still breathe. I decide that I’m dreaming but it feels as though I’m not quite asleep. I want to get up, but I don’t want to wake myself up in the process. I think about the “opening your dream eyes” technique, and I think I try to apply it. Anyway, I slowly try moving, and it seems like I’m still dreaming. I slowly move my arm to pull myself up out of bed. My arm feels odd and kind of tingly, as though I were sleeping on it funny. I figure that I can work with that, though. I make my way out of bed, and stand up. Things seem real-ish. It is kind of dimly light in the room, like early morning. I push my hair out of my eyes. Then I sit down on the floor and concentrate on stabilizing the dream as I had planned to do before. I repeat “stabilize” over and over a few times. Eventually, however, the dream fades out slowly. I can see a little bit of something still, but think at this point that I’m waking up and what I see is from my eyes opening just a little bit. I open my eyes all the way, but that wakes me up.
The dream begins and I am in a basement. It feels like an odd combination of the basement of my grandparents house and my old childhood home. It is very unfinished, mostly bare wall studs and some utility equipment. I am meandering around and I end up going through a door to find myself in a school gymnasium. I become semi-lucid and resolve to find Manei. I find her in the crowd taking a fairly recognizable form. She seems even taller than usual and has a blonde streak in her hair, though the dream is not particularly vivid. I decide that I don't want to have a dream about a school gymnasium, it has too much of a negative schema associated with it. She agrees and we resolve to leave back through the same door I came in through. We go back into the house basement and then through another door on the far side which takes us up a flight of stairs and onto a beach scene. This seems like a much better scene to set the dream in. But there are monsters roving on the beach. Two of them are about the size of a small house, maybe thirty feet in height. There are about a dozen more that are about human sized which are running around terrorizing beachgoers and there are a few skeletons being picked clean of meat beneath them. They look like the MUTO monster from 2014 godzilla or the cloverfield monsters. But their mouths look like a Predator or Sangheili in that they have a jaw that spilts open in multiple ways. Manei says we have to deal with them one way or another. She pulls out a device, saying its a machine which can summon anything into the dream world and she wants to use it to summon weapons. However the device is built into an old flip phone (where one would have to type a number multiple times rapidly to get a certain letter) and in order to summon something she must text it using a 10-digit pad. This is certainly inconvenient especially with how dream phones and anything with text or numbers can be. She manages to type in 'dagger' and summon a small kunai knife. Then threw it out and killed one of the smaller monsters. I then, quoting inception and said "you musn't be afraid to dream a little bigger, darling." and typed in 'railgun'. I don't remember if i was successful or not since I vaguely remember holding a railgun that looked like handheld railgun in the Halo games. But then I decided against using it and it faded away or it turned out I had typed it into the summoning device incorrectly before I was able to fire. Or I forgot to dream of a power cell for it or something. Then, I ran out onto the beach. I must have gained more lucidity because I recognized that I didn't need a machine to summon a weapon for me, and summoned my own weapon. It partially failed because when I summoned it, it appeared translucent. But I planted one end of it in the sand forcefully and the sand rippled oddly in a sort of shockwave, drawing a wide circle around me to show power. This was in some convoluted dream-logic way a reference to the anti-sea-bear circle from Spongebob. "End your threatening presence in my dream and tell me what you symbolize." Ive had mixed results with getting nightmares to stand down. It seems about coin flip odds they just get angry and continue to attack me or the dream just ends up getting worse when I try the diplomatic approach. But I'm happy to say this creature seemed very diplomatic. All but one of the large monsters disappeared, and the one that remained swiftly shrank into a very harmless looking bright blue creature about the size of a large dog. It gave me the vibe of being half-elephant, half pig and it had two small trunks. "I symbolize that you feel disconnected from nature." I woke up. There was another dream wherein I was in what felt like the city of chicago. I was watching two spaceships or large flying vessels do battle out over the water. One looked like the battlestar galactica. The other was a big sort of drab green zeppelin. The drab green zeppelin takes a lot of damage and begins to drop into lake michigan. When it collides with the water it explodes like a giant hydrogen bomb and everyone starts running anticipating a shockwave and nuclear will hit soon. Everyone starts running and looking for places to hide. I can't find a good place to hide that isn't already jammed full of people so I resolve to accept my fate. I am standing still watching the shockwave approach over the water, and in the final few moments it gets onto land flattening trees and buildings. Then time freezes with it only a few meters away from me. The grim reaper appears and says something like "Uhm wow, you're not even going to try to worm your way out of this one?" "No. Life's got me feeling worn out right now and if this is how I'm going to go out, I'm going to face it with dignity and accept it." "Dude... seriously, come on. You're no fun at all. Look I'll give you one minute to find a hiding spot." I decide to try and survive anyway. I look for a large building, an apartment or condo of some sort and run inside. Then I try to get onto the lowest level. The dream completely drops the 'time is frozen and Im running from a nuclear explosion' plotline as I get yelled at by some woman for being in her apartment. I try to explain the situation about the nuclear blast but she doesn't believe me. I then try to convince her that I am a maintenance man and need to go into the utility room below her condo. She buys that. I go hide in the utility room and lose the dream.
Since reviving my account, this is the first proper dream journal entry I have created - I woke up in the morning remembering two relatively detailed dreams, which felt great. I had my laptop on my bedside table and immediately got writing. ---------------------------------------------------- 02/10/22 Just a little snippet of a dream I forgot to write down from the night before. At some point I dreamt of someone breaking into my flat as it was as if I was stood right in front of the door seeing it get kicked in by a nondescript character. It was scary and I’m pretty sure I woke up instantly, aware that I forgot to lock the door (as I forget to do most nights) ---------------------------------------------------- 03/10/22 #1 First long dream remembered in a while! I was on Holiday with Italy lot and Connor. Whole dream felt like we were in Italy. However, there were landscape that felt more like Switzerland or smth, and at the end of the dream I could see a map within Google Maps, showing Sweden in the shape of the U.S. All of its cities did have Swedish-looking names, but they were all organized on the map like a weird grid. We were making our way through the country place by place, but I only recall being in one or two places. Connor was there too, and we were spending a lot of time by the pool listening to tunes. This was on the roof and felt a lot like a place I recently stayed at in Meta, near Naples, Italy. The indoor spaces in later parts of the dream also looked like the same villa. Connor didn’t look like he was having much fun with my musical recommendations. After a few musical disagreements, Connor starts playing Shpongle and the audio seems to come out of the sky. It was a good opportunity to become lucid as both of us thought the album just felt slightly flat and odd, as if it was unmastered. At some point Connor gets under a duvet by the pool, much like the double mattress im using right now that has no sheets on it. I was splashing about in the pool enjoying the vibes when Beth from the Italy trip came around the corner and said, “You guys ready to go in a minute?”. Triggered by this, I said something kind of obviously not true like “Yup, ready to leave whenever”, despite that I was inside the pool and pretty sure I had just made the conscious decision to dunk my dreadlocks under the water. At some point within the same dream, I was in a double bed in a communal bedroom that felt very similar to the Italy villa, pretty sure Connor was in the bed with me. I remember people beginning to wake up and wanting to leave. This information was provided on a TV screen, indicating when each person woke up through numbers and colours. Somewhere near my bed there was a mostly empty packet of classic M&Ms, and I was happy knowing that I left myself a couple, so I went for them. It turned out there was a lot, like two decent handfuls. I ate them anyway and felt slightly disappointed as I only wanted a couple, this was a bit too much. ---------------------------------------------------- #2 In another dream, I saw myself being in the middle of a chaotic scene on a metro train in China with a friend, I can’t remember who. There was some sort of zombie-like apocalypse going on, or there may not have been zombies but many people were hunting us for some reason. When the dream started, the person I was with was fighting off attackers, but after they were gone it was more chill. We were in the carriage with other people but they didn’t take much notice of us. My friend had a hoody on and was positioning it so that no one could see his face, so perhaps that’s why everyone was being chill. At each metro stop, he would panic and look through the windows while trying to look neutral, hoping to catch anyone who knew about us before it was too late. At some point I just got off the train for some reason, in some quite nice-looking town in the middle of nowhere. The weather was appearing fresh and crisp, like a British spring afternoon. It didn't look like how I would imagine a Chinese town to look like - felt more like Europe again. I was aware of a game that we were playing – it involved a survival/challenge element – if you got off the train at the wrong stop, you had to spend all day there with limited food, money etc. It was something like that, and whilst it sounds awful rn, in the dream it sounded like such a great idea. I also thought about how the language is very confusing and therefore it’s easy to get the stop wrong, making this game a fantastic way to visit places in China that I otherwise never would. ---------------------------------------------------- Overall, I enjoyed both of these dreams a lot! I've stopped smoking weed in the last couple of days and have been trying to exercise more, and I think this is allowing my mind to be fresher and ready to dream. I'm not going to jump straight into attaining lucidity - I'm going to continue what I'm doing for perhaps a week, by which point a book I ordered on Amazon, "Exploring the World of Lucid Dreams" by Stephen LaBerge, should have arrived. I heard about this book in a lucid dream video yesterday and it sounds great - I've never actually read any books on lucid dreaming, only consuming online content. I think the arrival of this book will be a good opportunity to immerse myself in lucid dreaming, start reality checking again, and set some WBTB alarms. Exciting times!
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