Hey

some of you know me by now, I'm a newbie who has a mini-past with LD. I kept a dream journal for a few weeks and had 2 MILD LDs and either an OBE or a WILD (felt awake though). That was about 8 years ago now, when I was 20.

I started all this up again about 5 days ago, I have been trying to recall my dreams and that is getting easier. But, for some reason (although I am happy enough to tell myself that I WILL remember my dreams in the morning) I just can't bring myself to tell myself that I will wake up and have a LD. So, what am I frigthened of? I've done this before, I know how much fun it can be! These are very cherished memories of mine in fact.

So, was I more carefree, more experimental when I was 20? I think I'm a bit afraid that the edges will blur between waking and dreaming life. I'm scared to LD - but I really want to. Surely I will have no success until I can get my head round this?

In the dreams that I HAVE managed to recall over the last few days, most of them have had me having conversations with dream characters about how to LD, how to remember my dreams etc. Is this a good sign that I am getting ready? I'm sure that I could LD quite soon if only I had the guts!

Thanks guys.