I believe i'm on the verge of complete lucidity...but i can feel there's something missing. I've been able to realize my dreams, although I typically 'watch' waiting for clues and cues. But as I've said...there's a puzzle piece I'm not seeing...

When I'm closest I can feel it...a feeling of tragedy almost. As it sounds sad or depressing, it's in these moments I truly feel alive.

I'm about to head off to sleep, and tonight I feel closer than ever. I can feel it. In one of these dreams I will find the key I've been searching for for so long, not only to LD but to my conciousness. It's hard to explain in words. Tonight I am hoping for the worst of nightmares I've ever experienced...maybe then I will finally see...