Hi Anonymoose,
I envy you. If I had had access to the wealth of information on the web years ago, I might have understood the opportunity better. As it was, without knowing what was happening - it was very frightening.
These episodes began when I lived with my grandmother for a while. My grandfather, whom I was very close to, had passed away, and the first time I experienced one I remember seeing his face in the dresser mirror. I wasn't quite sure it was him, but over the years, as I recall that situation, I am more and more convinced it was him. I had put a picture of him under my mattress - which I had forgotten about til it was found years later after my grandmother passed.
These SP episodes continued for well over 10, maybe even 15 years. I often had several in one night, one after another. I was always afraid to open my eyes, after that first experience. Very tense.
Perhaps it is the resurgence of my interest in lucid dreaming that will open this up for me again. Perhaps, now knowing that it is an opening to lucid dreaming - or maybe even a personal message or contact with my grandfather, may help if it does occur again and I won't be so frightened by it.
I have always felt, however, that it must have been because I had an internal struggle with my conscious beliefs and my subconscious mind. (Not doing what the "good book" says I should be. Coming to terms with my own belief system. Anything that might be considered "super-natural" was definitely taboo!)
Although I haven't experienced one in several years - I still have sporadic episodes. If I do have one again, I'll relax - keep my eyes open - and see what happens. You clarified the opportunity - thanks.
Judy
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