I really appriciate if you guys can evaluate this night for me as I don’t really know what was supposed to happen. I mean I know theoretically but I understood that actually trying is different.
I went to bed at about 1.15 a.m and set the alarm to 4.30. Put my sleepmask on (first time). I was lying on my back, trying to relax. I let my head wander, in the meantime saying “ I am dreaming”. Then HI began. But this time I noticed something completely different. Before I involved in this forum, I was always like “ Wha!? What ? What did I just see/hear ?” during HI stage. But this time, I don’t know if it is because my brain was active during that stage or something else, I was able to identify each image and sound perfectly and consciously. I saw/hear like 20 of them. Around 15 were about Smallville which I didn’t surprise since I had been watching ten episodes a day (finally I watched the last aired episode yesterday). I was completely relaxed. But images didn’t become clear. I felt the shift once or twice but they were not strong because I was not so sleepy. Then I change my position to my normal sleeping one and wait for sleep.
Here comes the weird part. You can say it is normal but it is not for me. I woke up from a dream that I could hardly remember but the last seconds. I was surprised and pissed off because the alarm was off, the time was 5.30 and sleepmask was gone,( lying beside the bed). Well I’ve heard many times that this could happen but never in my life had I exprienced such thing. I mean I can always hear the alarm and wake,let alone hearing it and turning it off. And the last image of my dream was a photo of my friend in pink PJs and pink sleepmask?!. There was a note on it, “finding my avatar”. I put back my sleepmask then run the same process.
In my dream I went to bed. As soon as I shut my eyes, I felt that I was awake in the reality. Oddly, as soon as I realized I woke up, strong SP began with the vibrations. But it was strange like I was in-between dream and reality. When the vibrations became too powerful I tried to stand up and succeeded. I was floating. What I felt the most were my hands. I was touching the wall. I couldn’t see anything at first but like the shadowy figures of my hands. Then I started to see around which made me realize that I was not in my room, I was in the dream world. I walked through a wall and passed to a garden. There were flowers. First the vividness was not very satisfying. Then I adjusted it. It became more and more clear until it was perfect with all the colors. But strangley I didn’t do anything. I just walked through some area. The LD lasted for like 25 seconds.
Then I woke up, which again triggered the SP and same vibrations. I did what I had done in the previous SP and suddenly found myself in the same room but this time I was in the middle of a lecture given by a teacher of mine from my former university. He was angry and his voice was so clear. What was I doing? I was pairing off the socks from a bag which was full of sand. I knew I was dreaming but I think I missed my school. Maybe thats way I didn’t do anything. I woke up at 7.30.
I have some conclusions and questions. First of all, LDing is very easy for me. I don't have to do extra for it to happen. But I thought that WILD is a more effective way of doing it. I'm not sure if I WILDed or not but the two dreams I had was very vivid and my memory was perfect unlike my previous LDs. I am also very happy that I had two SP in one night. It really helps LDing. Now the questions
Did I WILD ?
Is it a plecebo effect that I dreamed so vivid and succeeded in remembering (SP also) or "I'm dreaming.." and concentration really worked ?
Why couldn't I remember taking the mask off and turning the alarm off ?
What are your suggestions ?
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