I've recently been figuring out that I'm the type of person that doesn't apparently experience SP before entering dreams (or what I think are dreams).

Basically, after attempting to WILD a couple times, I've figured out that I am one weird mofo. I CANNOT *not* think about something, and see HI or go into a dream. If I clear my mind and lay there in bed... I do not experience HI in the least bit or experience any SP, nor do I dream. In fact, I can lay there in bed for hours with 0 success.

However, whenever I specifically think about things... my head wanders and I kinda get *lost* (I start seeing what I think are quick dreams) in my own thoughts (they turn out as quick visions, is this HI), but, my problem is that I can't enter these dreams while staying conscious. Usually, I wake up pretty suddenly(could this be a False Awakening?). It's really hard to explain, I start to enter my thoughts... but then I'm quickly yanked out by me trying to hold onto my anchor... Is it supposed to be this way?


Now, I've tried ignoring the Anchor and switching to the Dream... but all it does is make me fall asleep, or wakes me up. I experience these ALL the time before I get out of bed (I suck at getting out of bed, god Unemployment is going to ruin my sleeping habits )... and it lasts from 3 to 10 to 15 minutes (it seems like the dream lasted like 3 seconds).

Basically, if I concentrate, I fail at seeing any sort of HI or Dreams forming. But, if I kinda think about things (like playing guitar or talking to people), I will eventually start seeing it in my head... but I lose it very quickly.

Anyone have any clue about how I could *enter* it without waking or falling asleep? I've been REALLY trying to watch the dream form around me and kinda enjoy the ride... but every time I start paying attention to it... It wakes me up.


It's starting to frustrate me, because once I start doing this, it usually starts chaining together constantly which ends with me waking up every 10-15 minutes with short dreams... which I'm not lucid in, I'm just a spectator.