unmotivated to lucid dream

[nobodycares]

I was doing really well. For a week straight, which was my first week at attempting to lucid dream, I was reality checking all the time, reading up on this website consistently, and even had 2 LD's (although short and uncontrolled). Now I could care less, and it sickens me. I just don't feel like even working towards it, not because of failures but because of something else: depression. I have never been depressed until joining the military. Now, with people constantly controlling my life, I have no willpower anymore and my moods change constantly. At first I thought lucid dreaming could be my little secret, my escape from reality. I tried hard, and it was clear that I was on the right path toward controlling my lucid dreams. Now I don't have any motivation to even work at it, even though it could be my escape. I think it stems from me never being able to get excited any more. How do I motivate myself to help better my life?

[Tricky]

Toughie. I'd say, even though your not motivated..Do it anyways. Because, really, when you start getting multiple lucids it will be worth it. When you awake from an LD, you will feel amazing. YOull have so much energy, and your entire day will be a happy one. (I mean a good LD, not those one second uncontrolled ones) And that will get you through whatever your hard day throws at you. Good luck.

[DrunkenArse]

Depression is tough. I'm coming out of a lifelong bout of it myself. How much freedom do they give you too choose your diet? Omega-3's are huge. The body is 'evolutionarily' adapted to get four times as much omega-6's as omega-3's. With a 'civilized' grain based diet (the food pyrimid here in the us) we get about ten to twelve times as much. It is well known that omega-3's are the optimal material for building neuron walls and that when the body substitutes omega-6's, the neurons don't fire as well. So making sure you get alot of omega threes is important. There are 12 different types and it is difficult for your body to convert between them. the best source is spirulina as that also contains the vitamins that your body needs to make the conversions. In the military you probably get exercise so you can rule that out. Potassium deficiency can cause depression too. Do your cuts heal slowly? If so you probably have a potassium dificiency. Aside from diet, try checking your philosophy. You said that people are telling you what to do all day long. At the end of the day, maybe you should try viewing it as a job. Put as little of yourself into as possible. That's not too say that you should do a bad job: you should do the best job you can. Rather try not to mind that you are just doing a job. Have you read any carlos castanada (he was a fake but stole from good sources) It's called "stalking". Pretend that it is someone else doing the job and let them do it. Pretend you are them. It's a great opportunity to do practice this skill. finally, no once can take away your freedom in dreaming. It might be one of the few places you get freedom. Go for it. I'm not a therapist or anything but feel free to PM me if you want more info. I've been through a lot with depression and might be able to help.

[O'nus]

Is there possibly something else you are interested in? What do you spend your time doing otherwise? ~