Odd feeling; is it extreme proprioception?

[Frosty Chaotix]

Well i have this feeling since i was little. I feel each part of my body everytime, i get the sensation i'm REALLY here, the sensation i can't get out of here, that i can't get out of my body. And at the same time, i feel my body isn't real, it's like my soul wanders through my body as if i was only "using" a body from someone else. Sometimes i feel 'excitement' just from being able to walk, run, jump, eat, and then i think: well, just everyone else can do that. When I was little, i remember constantly asking my mother: Why me? Plus, i feel like i'm really not from here. It seems i'm here only for a while, to do something, and then went back to where i'm from. Yes, i know it sound weird, but maybe someone else already felt like that, so i'm begging for opinions. Thank you

[Frosty Chaotix]

*Sarcasm* omg, so many replies, i can't read them all!!!! THANKS PEEPS *End of Sarcasm* well... could you at least reply with "nope, i can't help you"

[AdAstra]

I've had similar feelings since childhood, but I'm not sure what they are. I think proprioception has something to do with it, but it seems like that is only a part of it. Sometimes I feel very stuck in my body and in my life. Othertimes I feel like slipping out of it. When I was young, my mind would start to wander and I would get this odd feeling that is very hard to describe. I would get excited about being alive and how beautiful and awful it is all at the same time. Then I would sort of go lucid and realize that I'm really here, I'm going to live and then I'm going to die. My heart would race and my stomach would feel funny. Sometimes my vision would get blurry and sounds seemed to get farther away. Othertimes it would feel like "I" was leaving my body through the back of my head but I could still see but it was like a long tunnel. When I was little, I mean very little like under 2, I started saying strange things. When I would get frustrated for whatever reason, I would scream at my parents "Why did I come here?" or "I want to go home." They say I would sit in the yard and stare at the sky for hours, sometimes I would cry and say I wanted to go home and point up. I started feeling like I had made this terrible mistake but I couldn't put a finger on exactly what it was. I was an extremely sensitive child. I couldn't watch anything violent, even a a lot of Disney movies. My parents didn't start off sheltering me, but they learned that they had to because I just couldn't cope with violent imagery. In pre school I totally flipped out when the teacher read the gingerbread man and he got ate at the end. I feel better about everything now, since I adopted a go with the flow attitude. I now look at anything bad as part of this human experience I'm having. It's made life much easier. I still get the super connected or disconnected feeling sometimes, but I'm pretty used to it now. I think many people are old souls, it's a concept that has turned up over and over again in different cultures and in different times. Most people will dismiss you as melodramatic or trying to be special, but I like to just dismiss those people as narrowminded and arrogant about their own understanding. You should do some internet research on Indigo and Crystal children, Starseeds and Lightworkers. I'm not too crazy about many of the people who claim to be these things, some take it to an extreme. I dislike the list of characteristics that "proves" you are one of these people and I'm not real big on labels in general. But if you're looking for other people who've had these feelings, you'll probably find some that way.

[Unicorn]

Originally posted by Frosty Chaotix Well i have this feeling since i was little. I feel each part of my body everytime, i get the sensation i'm REALLY here, the sensation i can't get out of here, that i can't get out of my body. And at the same time, i feel my body isn't real, it's like my soul wanders through my body as if i was only "using" a body from someone else. Sometimes i feel 'excitement' just from being able to walk, run, jump, eat, and then i think: well, just everyone else can do that. Hey! you're acting like it's bad thing! I think you should take it as a gift. You're unique, and i'm sure many people would like to experience what you feel sometimes. And oh btw, you probably won't have trouble doing OBE's ! Did you ever try to lucid dream? it seems that you have a great potential, especially with the WILD technique. Good luck!

[Frosty Chaotix]

Hey! you're acting like it's bad thing! I think you should take it as a gift. You're unique, and i'm sure many people would like to experience what you feel sometimes. And oh btw, you probably won't have trouble doing OBE's ! Did you ever try to lucid dream? it seems that you have a great potential, especially with the WILD technique. Good luck! [/b] Well, actually i'm not trying OBE's yet, although sometimes i think it wouldn't be hard. But... man.... it WOULD be nice if i could easily astral project myself . And about lucid dreams, i have a little problem i've been through many nightmares lately, and i think it's all related to my stress. Recently i lost a Grandmother and a girlfriend. I got a job, and i'm in the last year in college. I tried WBTB and Concentrating to enter directly on a lucid dream, but my mind was all confusing and i ended up with a ultra-short dream about "how to put a cow in a jar". Unfortunately sometimes i'm afraid of sleep. And about WILD, i'm gonna try it soon. But i need some concentration, my mind thinks on lots o' things at the same time. Oh, i had some lucid dreams, it was long time ago, but my dream control was crappy and... well, think what happens if you fight someone without knowing HOW TO FIGHT =P. But since i saw this forum, i'm gonna try harder. Man... lucid dreams are freakin awesome !!!!!!!!!! AND Thanks peeps (now without sarcasm =D)

[Unicorn]

Originally posted by Frosty Chaotix Oh, i had some lucid dreams, it was long time ago, but my dream control was crappy and... well, think what happens if you fight someone without knowing HOW TO FIGHT =P. But since i saw this forum, i'm gonna try harder. Man... lucid dreams are freakin awesome !!!!!!!!!! Well good luck to you, hopefully you'll be able to overcome your stress and be more seriously dedicated to LDs. It seems like you have a great potential, and it would be a shame not using it! Take care!