Alice and Cake

Ever since I was a little kid, I've always had very realistic dreams. I love dreaming but honestly, I'm also terrified of it (due to several reasons). So anyways! Enough of me babbling. Onto the story about my first lucid dream!

It happened last Monday. I can still remember the jist of it but not all (GOSH ALISON, KEEP A NOTEBOOK WHY DON'CHA). Weirdly enough, I didn't try to have a lucid dream this time around. I've attempted to do it before out of interest but with no avail.

I was in this inside this old, wooden house with a few people whose faces I can't seem to remember. The mood was really gloomy and dark. I didn't seem to feel comfortable at all (so I'm assuming I was in a nightmare). And then the thought hit me- "HOLY FUCK I'M IN A DREAM".



I got a tad bit excited (like the "jump-up-and-down and squeal" type of excitement) which I then realized was bad since afterwards, I felt that sensation of waking up. So I remembered that old tip I got from watching that Howcast Lucid Dreaming video- spin.

So I spun. Spun like [insert clever simile here], and everything went back to normal as far as dreams go. I calmed down and began to think of the things I've wanted to try doing in a lucid dream.

I had none. Nope. No ideas. None at all. I realized I never really sat down and thought about what I'd do if I ever achieved a lucid dream. So with no clues on what to do, I went with the most common lucid dream ability- the ability to fly.

So I flew. And then went back down immediately. FUCK ACROPHOBIA.

I decided to try out my psychokinesis. I lifted a coffee mug. It was fairly easy to make it fly, but once it was up in the air, it fell back down and crashed on the floor.

And then I woke up. And lived happily ever after. The End.

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With all jokes aside, this dream made me realize that I'm not cut out for lucid dreaming. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed it. But I'm honestly scared of having that much degree of control.

On a side note, I find it funny how the "vividness" is the same for both my non-lucid and lucid dreams. So yep, I'm (probably) not losing anything if I don't ever experience a lucid dream again.

I'll just stick with my non-lucid dreams.