side notes

I am an almost 30 year old man, and am married with a couple kids. I have always been interested in dreams and the possibility of controlling my dreams. In a chat with a friend I mentioned I had a dream last night that I was disappointed I was awoken from. They mentioned "Lucid Dreaming" a term I have heard before but never really understood. I then went to wiki and read up about it. I find it very intriguing.

Throughout my life I have had a few dreams that I remember very vividly. I remember being young having a dream of being in a basement and climbing a pile of clothes to get from one level to another and the snuggle-bear popped out of the clothes.


I remember as a pre-teen dreaming of being in some sort of cave, and started turning into an almost nightmare when the ground started to move and there were spikes under the tile I was on and another tile was coming to squish me, then Indiana Jones appeared above and reached his hand down for me to grab and he pulled me to safety.


I remember another dream as a young adult encountering a girl who was running and I was chasing her. She had long dark brown hair and was very pretty. I remember she was crying and I finally caught her and assured her I would never let go of her. I remember being very emotionally attached or in-love with this girl. It was very pre-teenish puppy love movie feeling, something like "My-Girl" or something. The girl somewhat resembled a girl I knew and I thought it meant I was supposed to be with her... but no, that did not ever happen.

I hate the disappointment you get waking up from a dream where you were deep into a story without a conclusion. As a father I am often woken up abruptly by a child's crying. Dreams seam to be a powerful and a fun thing, and I would love to be able to control them and have some freedom in them.