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20 Jan 2011

I find myself water-skiing in the bay [I've never actually been water-skiing before or even considered it]. Then, in the distance, a strange wave appears. It's not very large, but kind of frothy and sinister looking. In any case, the boat heads back to shore as a precaution and I join my friends and relatives on the beach. The wave itself arrives shortly thereafter and dissolves harmlessly on the sand.

Someone then points to the horizon, where a truly massive wave appears to be forming. Panic ensues (among those who I'm with), triggering me to recognize it as a 'fear-based scenario'. I do not become fully lucid, however, and remain within the narrative of the dream. Still, a part of me knows that I have 'other options' and I eventually choose to cross my legs and levitate (realising that I can simply float above any incoming water). The people look at me with scorn, however, as if to say, "Well, we can't do that!"

As everyone scatters below me, I continue to float upwards and 'bounce' from rooftop to rooftop, looking for a good vantage point. A short while later, I notice my [deceased] mother, who has taken shelter in someone's garage. "That's not a good place to be," I tell her. I then briefly continue on my way, before realising that my mother may be afraid and want someone to comfort her. So I descend back down and join her in the garage. Another person also joins us, whose identity I forget.

The Tsunami hits soon after with ferocious force and water begins to fill the garage. "Hold your breath," I say, inhaling deeply. And then I awaken.

Interpretation: I am possibly being limited or 'dragged down' in life by unresolved issues and conditioning connected to my mother.

Observations: Whilst it may seem like an obvious point, a nightmare is not a nightmare because of the specific scenario. It is, rather, the level of fear/discomfort that a dream generates within the dreamer which determines its subjective definition. It occurs to me, for example, that I may once have experienced this dream as a nightmare. However, by the practise of questioning my conditioned (mechanical) reactions, I was able to break-free of this programming.

Also, I've noticed an interesting trend in my dreams recently, in that I've started to use my 'abilities' (normally associated with lucid dreaming) within the context of a regular dream. For example, in a dream fragment, from later in the night, I am attempting to cycle home when I take a wrong turn and find myself in some sort of school yard, inhabited by a gang of yobs. The lead 'bully' attempts to block my retreat. And so, recognizing this as a fear-based scenario, I simply "manifest" a gun and shoot him dead (I even shoot his corpse several times, just to make sure). On some level, therefore, I must be aware that I'm dreaming... Yet not sufficiently aware to become fully lucid.

Notes: In another dream fragment I win £10,000 - and then £1,000,000 - on a fruit machine. What might this represent?

OILD - Because there's ALWAYS another option!