BraithVII

I went lucid twice last week! I've realized once I do go lucid that my dreams are very foggy, almost like I'm looking at them through a bubble. Also the control of them isn't 100% there yet.

Most of my dreams involved being back in PA, and also mixed with my work. Also some taboo items came into play.

5/22

Did lucid dream, but did have a false wake up. Was really concentrated on being lucid the day before. I was driving near the woods of the area where I grew up. Did go lucid at this point. Realize that I was dreaming. When I do realize that I’m dreaming my dream world is kind of fuzzy and blurred. Saw a friend from high school in the woods and asked her for oral sex. We did do it. Then had a false wake up in a cabin. There was a video on of the sexual part of my last dream. I was sleeping on a bunk bed and my dad was there.

Another dream I had took place at night. Waiting in the parking lot of a doctor’s office. The ops support manager of my work was there smoking (she doesn’t smoke) and went into the doctor’s office when it opened. Then I was at work and I was saying hi to some of the guys I work with on the way to the staff cafe. I saw a temp on the way. We said hi and he hugged me and lift me up. I joked with him, asking if he would take me all the way to the cafeteria. Then my boss came out, and said that it could be a worker’s comp issue because he could hurt himself picking me up. I felt offended, although she didn’t say that to offend me.

5/23

Dreams were all over the place, although I did lucid dream. Did my reality check just like I would in real life. I was in a hotel (maybe for work) and I was in an elevator. The elevator did not stop at my floor and kept going up. At that point I realized I was dreaming and actually floated for a little. Characters from the show Archer were in my dream. Archer was actually married to Cheryl.

5/24

Dreams were very foggy. One I do remember is that was back in college. It was graduation day. There were some older people there (kind of like The Golden Girls). Me and an older lady were kind of connected. Remember dragging along a really big suitcase, then going to a reception area with food. Then the next dream was almost like a nightmare. I was in my old house and it could have been haunted.

5/25

Was back in PA and it was night (close to CHristmas time). I was crawling on the roofs of house for some unknown reason. I decided I wanted to crawl onto my grandma’s roof, but it was too steep and had too many high steps to get up to it. My cousin Kaitlyn showed up, and she offered to climb up it. Kaitlyn said she was afraid she might fall, and I said I would break her fall/catch her since I am bigger than her. She did fall, and I did not break her fall. She landed on her back with her right arm behind her. I asked how she felt. She said she felt alright, but felt like her thumb tore off. She brought her right hand forward, and her thumb was almost completely tore off, only being held by a sliver of skin. There was a lot of blood and she looked like she would pass out. I called 911, and we waited. After a while she said she was feeling better. She got up and started walking around.She tries to gross me out, wagging her hand in front of me. At one point I did look and was able to see a small part of her bone. Ended up on the porch of my grandma’s house. The medic arrived, and it was Iwan Rheon. Took care of her thumb and did not go to the hospital.

The second part of the dream took place at my grandma’s house. It was my place of work, and there was a mentally challenged middle aged black woman there with crazy hair. She was messing around on my colleague’s desk, and my colleague said “Why don’t you go and mess around Amanda’s desk for a while?” The lady started messing up my desk, and I got really angry at her. Then the setting changed to my actual work place, and it was raining and we were all talking about going somewhere to eat. For some reason we were going to drive a school bus there. My mom was also there as well.

Once again, family was very prevalent in my dreams from last week. Also the theme of failing or things not going as expected popped up.

Did not go lucid at all.

May 16th -

My mom and I went on our yearly trip. In the dream I was in college and I skipped a lot of classes and failed my final exam. Everything was very dark. Then spent some time at my old house. My Pop Pop was there, and there was a party going on. My grandma smoked pot. We were talking about whether we could get her home, and my grandma was laughing. Mom and I got to the hotel for our trip (called the Avalon). We went swimming in the pool. My mom said that she likes going to the pool after the beach.

May 17th -

My cousin and I were back in PA, and we went to Wal-Mart. We were both having surgery on the same upcoming weekend. Her surgery was on her right arm. It was getting removed because there was too much pain. The next day I was having surgery on my right hip. Told her I was really nervous because I never had surgery where I had to go under anesthesia. I was scared I would wake up. Cousin tried to drive between two cars and hit a blue car. SHe kept driving and I told her to stop and call the police or I would

May 18th -

I was in a dirty bathroom. While in one of the stalls I saw a huge centipede type bug (about 6 inches). I screamed, and someone asked me what was wrong. I said “Nothing.” I felt like I shouldn’t tell.

May 19th -

I dreamed I got paid from work, and the only thing that went through to my account was a small reimbursement. Then I was at work doing orientation for new hire. On my break I tried to cancel a credit card payment I scheduled to go through. Ended up paying over $100 on a payment, and added someone to my card for $30. The person’s name was Charlie and he was in his 50s. I called customer service. Heard a prompt to go on their website since it could take a long time to reach someone. I did get a hold of a rep but this person was disengaged and not helpful. Then I dreamed about going onto the floor for an audit at work. The two managers were role playing and the one said that it was important to walk in front of the co-worker.

Some themes I noticed from last week...

1. Lots of family present in my dreams.
2. Items I was stressing out about (relationship and work wise) were present. At one point I dreamed about money, and I think I symbolickly walked away from it as a way to show that it shouldn't dominate my life.
3. Dreaming a lot about PA and my past.

Went lucid once.

4/23 - Grandma’s house. Pop pop was alive, aunts and cousins were there. Child who could be mine was there. Watched movie.

4/24 - Went Lucid! Underground at CBP. Did mantra and counted fingers. Sort of could control my dream. May have lost lucidity. Ferris wheel. Harness that went over shoulders. Harness wasn’t working but able to stay in it. Then dreamed I was at work training. Man came in who was withdrawn from position.

4/25 - Vivid dream. At casino with cousin for night out. Wearing a purple dress with white flowers. Tank top style with inch straps with black cardigan that I actually own. Heels but changed into black flat pointy shoes. Walked around with cousin then by myself. Saw Stan from Golden Girls and said that I looked beautiful. Casino was like combo of PA and Vegas. Outside then my dad and girlfriend showed up. Wearing a salmon colored sweater and kissed me and said hi. Had another dream about a movie starring me. Movie had to do with me going back in time to change my past to change my future. Was able to reverse bullying in elementary school.

4/26 - Dreamed about art competition at work going on. Romy (guy from my previous company that I had a friends with benefits relationship with) came to work for the warehouse I currently work for. He was there doing the forklift test. Waved and said hi and talked. Told boss and colleague that I used to work with him, but don’t go into details about how we know each other. Told them he is a hard worker but crazy. Haven’t thought about him in a while.

4/27 - My boyfriend and I split up. Lived in a diff’t shore town, like combo of LBI and Philly. We went to a cobblestone restaurant. Argued, and there was another person present, like my ex’s brother. Going back and forth about breaking up. Both said I don’t know why I’m still with you. Shur Save. Back home (time table in dream makes no sense). Sitting on hill near grandma’s house and could see house. Got 2 Farmer’s Ice Teas and tried to get chicken sandwich out of vending machine. There was a lot of money near vending machine. Didn’t take money. Thought we could get back together if I didn’t take it. “Bible quotes” Men can drink and women shouldn’t. Said that I’ wouldn’t quit drinking, and that he was acting like my ex boyfriend’s brother. Dreamed about church (like Russian Orthodox) Went on adventure and talked to priest about Catholic journey.