lucid

So about a year ago when I was a senior in High School, I did a project on Lucid Dreaming for a psychology project. Since then I have tried to get lucid a number of times but had yet to actually succeed.

Then, over winter break, I stayed at my friends dorm room in downtown Portland, my first time ever sleeping in down town, even though I have lived in Portland and slept at many of my friends homes around the city throughout my whole life. Me and my best friend Nick, we had a few shots that night and went out around downtown. Later, after the alcohol had mostly wore off and we were trying to pass out back in his room, I was unable to fall asleep. I would fall asleep for probably a minute or so, then wake up and would continue to do fall asleep and wake up for what seemed like hours, and then around probably 4 am I think, I fell asleep.

In my dream I was at a small house party, with the homies and a few people that felt like recent acquaintances. I know my friend Patrick has been wanting to get out and party lately, but has been unable to for a number of reasons. And in my dream, it was because he had a new baby girl to take care of. I told him that I would take care of the baby and not drink or smoke so that he could take a break and go have some fun. He warned me that the baby could be kind of a "hoe." As I am taking care of this baby, I notice that she is changing over the course of the party. I think she caught a cold for a bit, then she is older, then she is a toddler, then a little girl of probably four years old in a completely different set of clothes, and has quite a few sarcastic remarks to make to me. And then she becomes the little baby girl again. And I think to myself about how I am actually kind of frustrated now after all these changes the baby incurred, and how I just want to not think anymore about it and go party. I keep getting more and more frustrated and ask myself, why I am taking care of this baby at all... after all, Patrick is only my age and doesn't even have a baby! and then the baby is gone, just completely disappears. I feel weird almost questioning, like "wait, what is going on?" But I am relieved that I don't have to take care of this baby anymore. All my friends say they are going outside to hang out at the park across the street, so I get up to go with them. When we get outside, the air feels very crisp, like on a cold but sunny morning in January, but its comfortable. It is night out, and there are low lying clouds of mist right above the tops of the trees, and the stars, which are bigger and brighter than I think I have ever seen them. They are all over the sky, which is a deep dark blue color. The thing about this park we are at, is that it is the same park I live across the street from in real life, even though this house party was not at my house. And I notice a few extra fir trees that are definitely NOT at my park. And thats what does it. Those trees let me know that I AM in a dream, and I am not waking up at all. The guys are ahead of me already at the play structure. I feel so happy because I know this is soooo cool! I try to jump into the air to fly, and I sort of stay a few feet above ground for a brief second, and slowly come down onto the path. I try this a few times and keep coming back down - whatever. I remember hearing that by looking in a mirror or at my hands in a dream, I will see a distorted version of what I am looking at, so since I am outside and there is no mirror, I look at my right hand, and it looks stretched, and I start to laugh because this proves it, but then my fingers start to become twisted and really distorted and it scares me so I stop looking and try to catch up to my friends. I see them all hanging around the slide and swings and we are all happy just walking around on this night bullshitting with each other. We go around the last bend of the pathway and are headed back to the house, which is in fact my house now, as it wasn't earlier, and I see all of them, and we're just smiling and laughing. Its me, Nick, Patrick, Spencer, even Chet, who usually hangs with his own group of friends so it's a little odd for him to be hanging out with us but whatever. And then, I feel it coming, and instead of waking up, I feel more like I am transitioning into the bed, as if I really wasn't already there and I am being teleported into the bed... and the images fade to black, and I am so glad that since I am in this new place that it just happens to be a very comfortable bed, (which it probably wasn't, because it was a dorm bed, but ha whatever) I was at the park, now I am laying on my back all warm and under blankets.