dream fragment

Couple of dream fragments before I woke up:

It all begins with this girl (let's call her V initial letter) V contacting me in some sort of modern way (phone, inet, some dreamish version of tecnology) and telling that she waits for my answer to some conversation she's put up. Like there is some new community-project / forum up that I'm not aware of. She's tried to contact me before for it and I've been like avoiding all the ways anyone can reach me. It's all political or aware in wrongs of modern world. I'm telling her that I've been trying to dodge those kind of projects for I'm going to live this country and those project should't be depadent on me.

..then there's this haze part and dreamsift..

I'm telling her that I should put up 'profile' about me always waking in the same body and different hotel room (I've been travelling outside my home city, not really living in hotels though). I'm playing with words like Hotel Self and Hotel Flesh.. ok, first I came up with two these words, after them I started to think about waking up to them. So I guess I reached atleast semilucidity at that point... So I come up to either Waking in Hotel Flesh or Waking up to Hotel Self.

Then there is this fragment where she wonders about her psychedelic history and comes up with rye bread and actual fungus Ergot starting it at some past century... This fragment might also have been before previous one, or surronding it.. don't know how it's with you but to time some parts of dream a hard to put into linearity.. it's like they exist outside of time or then some fragments get repeated or dejavued in dreams.. Then she feels totally guilty for forcing me into lone wandering life in lonesome hotels realising that I'm sort of like her DC that she hadn't had time for. So I'm just left with uneventual life with almost no-one contacting me. And she also only contacted me for project she has in mind for me. In undertone it's not all about dream put also her feeling that my lifesituation and lack of happiness is her fault. She says she'll change that. I tell that I'm going to oppose her doings, so that she would realise that world doesn't circle around her. So I'm gonna enjoy my lonely hotel.


Shortly after this I wake up

In reality I'm going abroad this spring and I've been travelling my home country for about three weeks now. Today I'm meeting girl called V, who I haven't seen for over 6 years. Girl in my dream wasn't this V but her namesake who I've met at later point of my life. V of dream was visiting my hometown (where I'm not) yesterday and my friends from there had parties at our place which is quite big house. V of dream did drag me to some political or aware project before she got bregnant. Also the V I'm meeting quite soon has children now. I haven't yet seen either of them with kids, which is going change today. (I saw V of this dream when she was very long with her pregnancy, so it's not so hard to think her as mother.. althought in dream she most certainly was outside mother-role)