joeseph

Whenever I want to remember my dreams, it's like I make a mental note about it right after I'm done. During the half-awake state. It's a continued effort.

One dream I remember (more may come back to me). I get off the bart station at berkeley. I have a backpack full of food, and I'm carrying a gallon of milk. Walking outside, two people strike up a conversation, which moves to my diet. Oh, you know, I try to keep it pretty paleo, low-carb, with light helpings of meat. That's my ideal diet, though it's not exactly the truth. I talk for a bit because that shit interests me. We part ways.

I meet up with Kevin Toy. He's driving a crazy nice car, and we drive around town, talking about life and everything. I sense there's a difference in attitudes between us. The kid fascinates me, though. I want to learn about him. We end up having to turn around, so we pull into someone's GARAGE. He tries to drive through the side door to turn around, but the car doesn't fit. It's an old-fashioned kind of jalopy at this point, and I'm afraid we're going to break the car and also all the shit in their garage. Kevin is still pretty lighthearted, cracking jokes and feeling good. He might be high, might have smoked in the car. I take control of the situation, and tell him to go outside since I'm afraid we're making too much noise and we're gonna wake up the occupants of the house. We are trespassing, after all. I don't want them to think it's a robbery.

So I get SERIOUS. I hit something with my foot as I'm stepping over some exercise equipment, and I start to panic. But it's OK. Chill, Joe. You're OK. I make my way back to the side door, get the keys, open it. I don't want them to lose their keys, so I close the door (leaving it unlocked) after putting the keys back inside on the floor. They should be easy to find this way.

I make my way back outside and ktoy is BLOWING BUBBLES. What a G. It's just different ways of looking at things, I guess. We walk outside; it's a really nice area. Nice cars on nice cars. And the reason why is... there's a car factory right down the road! There's a super clean mustang GT, a ferrari, lamborghini, etc. We walk into the factory and I start looking at these really awesome hoodies they have there. I'm a sucker for HIGH FASHION. We're trying to play it cool, but I overhear that the people have called the cops and they know that the robbers are in the store. Oh shit. Still trying to play it cool, though. They start to close all the garage doors all around the factory, locking us in. We don't want to RUN and give ourselves away, but I see that another group of people just took off, and they made it out. Damn.

We get stuck, and they start to interrogate us. There's a power dynamic between me and the other people. The woman who's in charge leads me down a series of hallways. Left, right, left. I don't want to backtalk her, but I guess I come off as kind of standoffish. Sure, that's fine. Just tell me where to go. Left here. Straight, down the end of the hall. Sit down.

She actually gives me a strange piece of advice: "Just stay confident, stay in control. They don't think that you did it." Odd for her to switch sides at this point. But OK.

It turns out that it's Oscar (Nilsson's) family. His sister or something; his mom. (It's not actually her; this was a dream-identification attached to a random face.) "You don't remember when we stayed with you," she says. She seems hurt. There was no real resolution to this dream. I can't remember anything after briefly talking to her. This seems to happen after I get into twisty, mazy hallway settings.

The most interesting thing about this was definitely the different modes of being assertive. BLOWING BUBBLES! So I can do all this without getting "serious," without entering into panic mode.

Also vague images of looking at a highline underneath a pier, under the water, with the waves coming, Adam DeMonte. Shitting in a toilet that's too small and having shit stream down the sides cuz I missed. "sorry, there's poo there." Trying to clean it up. Undecipherable at this point. I have to go get ready for work lol