Dreamz

For years now, I think, I always find myself in the same place in my dreams.
Or the very least, in almost all of them.
Some places there look almost exactly the same as some places from waking life, but there is always something different about them, not necessarily visual different, but.. I don't know how they're different, it's just "The Mood" of them, I guess.
That collective sense, smells, sights, sounds, colors, faces, thoughts, temperature, everything.
It all jumbles up into one big "Mood", and that feels different there.
I fell in love with that town, I don't know why, it's not all that different from waking life, it's not a thriving utopia, it's just.. well again words fail me.
I really wish to visit that town lucid, I would just love to walk around and look at everything.

I find it funny that I got so emotionally attached to a place which isn't even real, huh.

Haven't had very good dream recall lately, though I did remember having very long dreams waking up, I can never recall any details.

I remember having a very long dream tonight, feels like it might have been about two hours.
Or at the very least, seems as if it was a very long dream.

I don't remember much, but I remember chasing/spying on someone, as if I was a villain in the dream plot.
I was spying and when I got noticed a female voice asked me "Spying on us huh?", I think.
And I said "Not at all!" and looked away and kept walking down the street I was in.

That's it.

Dreamed: 19.10.2012, Written: 19.10.2012

I was in my room, suspecting I might be dreaming, I don't remember why.
I thought "well, if I was dreaming I would have noticed that something was off".
I then walked out of my room and saw that something was indeed off, there was a big glass window where there never was one before.
I remember being surprised and also a little shocked.
I looked at my hand to try and see how detailed they are, to try and make the dream more vivid.
They looked sort of blurry and there was a sort of "line-y" pattern on them.
Then I tried rubbing my hand against each other, it was quite difficult.
It was as if I was trying to pull magnets away from each other, they kind of stuck to each other and moved slowly.

I don't remember if anything else happened, I might have forgotten it, but I probably woke up.

Dreamed: 15.10.2012, Written: 15.10.2012

When falling asleep I decided to give this a try,
http://www.dreamviews.com/f12/activa...cidity-130989/
while also repeating a mantra.
I quickly fell asleep, I'm not sure whether I was lucid or not in any part of the night, this is what I remember.

The first thing I remember is me lying in my bed, my recall of this dream is really vague.
I was just lying in my regular bed as if I just woke up, it was dark.
For some reason I thought this was a dream, though everything looked realistic and believable, I didn't move at all, I might have been paralyzed, I remember being really afraid, I wanted to wake up.
I remember that each time I tried to wake up there would be a quick flash and I would be back in the bed in the dream.
I have woken up into the dream for many times very quickly, I eventually woke up in the waking world, I was scared and I remember thinking "it all felt real in the dream, I thought I was awake though I still tried to wake up, I only realized I was dreaming right now".

I'll think of this as a good sign.

The second thing I remember, which might be a different dream and might be the same one, is me being in my kitchen, I was talking with my mom about something, I remember telling her "Mom! listen! I'm from the future/real world!(I think I said future) I'm from September 25th 2012!"
Huh, almost right.
She then just looked like a deactivated robot, just standing staring at nothing without moving.

There was surely more to this, but I don't remember.

Dreamed: 13.10.2012 Written: 13.10.2012

Haven't slept really well lately, probably because of the weather changing.
I remember waking up and thinking "Oh wow that was a long dream", though I don't remember much.

I am in front of a computer screen, playing a sort of point and click game.
I remember that a screen appeared in the game that said: "I've hidden the treasure in Fecut".
It might have said "Fecut island" but I'm not sure.
There was a picture/drawing there of a part of a beach with two sandcastles, one was ruined and there was a path going underneath in to the next sandcastle which was fully intact.
I think that game might have been more than just a game, maybe a digitized journal, but I remember being very anxious after reading "I've hidden the treasure in Fecut", and not knowing where that is, I hopelessly looked through every menu and clicked on anything I could trying to find an answer, but had no luck.
I remember someone sitting by me, I think it was a female, I don't remember a face, though.
She didn't talk a lot during the dream, I think.

Then I remember waking up.

Dreamed: 12.10.2012 Written: 13.10.2012

There was another dream, I don't remember much so I thought it wasn't worth writing at the time.
But I'll write it up anyway.

I am in my current classroom, There is a book on my desk, the cover is mostly empty and slightly yellow-gray colored.
The cover had black borders around it, and a certain drawing on it.
The name of the book was something like "Repport", I remember it being a name, of something or someone.

Dreamed : 8.10.2012, Written : 8.10.2012

Huh, my dreams resemble their predecessors in weird ways, once again a dream about brain damage caused to my grandfather.

I remember there was more to this dream before this moment, but can't recall anything solid this moment.
I am standing in the kitchen, in front of the kitchen table.
I'm pretty sure there were other people around, my brain suggests these characters might have been my parents and possibly my sister, I didn't really see them, they were behind me.
I don't remember what, either my grandpa hit himself somehow, or ate something bad.
He was sitting at the kitchen table, the next moment he puked his skull out, with his brain inside it.
I remember someone, possibly me, saying something before that happened, something like "Well I wonder if anything bad will happen", or "Well that doesn't seem good".
Apparently my grandpa was still alive even without a brain, what happened between this scene and the next scene that I remember is very vague.
The next moment I was near a weird arcade machine, I was in a place that looked like a gas station-mall type of place.
That's the best description you're getting from me, huh.
I felt like a different person there, but the plot still hints toward me still being me.
There was someone "investigating" me around there, or just suspicious of me, I don't know why.
After a short conversation with him I remember going to the machine, it had a keyboard and a screen on it, I typed "Joseph, Arcade, Brain-parts", I think it might have been just "Brains", or "Brain" but I doubt it really matters now.
A black can with something printed on it then came out of the machine, like in a vending machine.
The man from before said "What the hell would you need brains for? you sick fuck!", I felt kind of insulted, because after all I tried to help my grandfather, but I think I didn't say anything else to him.

Now that I think about it, his brain was fully intact inside the skull he puked, so this is getting a bit confusing, but it was a dream after all.

Next I was in a mall like area and I saw my mother, I gave her the "brain-in-a-can".
Then I was home, I was near my grandpas door, it was open and he saw me, he said "Don't worry! we're going to the German doctor, he will help me! he will help us all!"

I don't remember anything else, though I know that there was more, it might have been a new dream or a part of this one.

My dream recall has improved since I started writing my dream journal here, I almost remember a dream a day, most of the time I only remember fragments, but I can't remember a morning lately that I didn't remember anything at all in.
They are also getting more vivid, I hope to lucid dream soon.

Dreamed: 5.10.2012, Written: 5.10.2012

I woke up about four times in the morning, each time I remembered a few fragments, the last time I remembered a bit more and decided to wake up.

I'm in my kitchen talking to my sister and mom, there's a window in the kitchen which allows you to see if someone is going towards the house door, as I talked with my mom, she asked "Who is that outside?", it was dark and I couldn't see who it was, he was rushing towards the door so that made me afraid, he then just opened the door rushing in so I was certain that this was a burglary, I then put my hands up to increase my chances of not getting shot, he goes into the kitchen slowly and also puts his hands up with a confused expression on his face, he looked Korean.
He then rushed to a soup bowl that was on the kitchen table, he ate a spoon and then rushed to another location in the first floor of the house, I thought that he might not even have a weapon, that he's just hungry.
So I said "You could take the whole bowl, if you'd like", he then came back carefully and took it, he looked more intimidating now, he then went to the wall near my living room couch and stuck a weird silver contraption on it, it might have been a bomb, he pulled out a decent sized lighter like tool, he was about to blow the "bomb" up, probably.
That's more or less it.

Yet again small fragments, but I am certain writing them is a good idea.

Dreamed: 3.10.2012, Written: 3.10.2012.

I remember this very vaguely, but I'm pretty sure I was standing in front of the mirror in my bathroom.
I don't remember seeing myself in the mirror, or remember anything the would've caught my attention happening there.
I have a feeling that I was lucid, I don't know why.
I remember standing in front of the mirror and whispering a lot of things that sounded like insane gibberish.
I'm not sure if this was from the same dream, but I remember later not being lucid, I think, and going out of the toilet and towards my computer desk, I remember being very angry and frustrated, I felt I wanted to destroy something. although this wasn't lucid, thinking about it, it just seems like that actually happened, though it didn't.
I was near my computer desk and looked for something to destroy, something like a match box or a toilet paper roll.
I remember not finding anything, then I saw a knife under my headphones, the handle was bright blue.
I then almost grabbed the knife still angry, maybe with the intent to hurt myself, but then I snapped and thought to myself "I need to relax, I could seriously hurt myself this way".
I think I calmed down after that, and sat in my chair, calm.
That's all I remember here, I really am not sure why I thought I was lucid in the first scene, just a feeling.

Also, the night before I was thinking about how fascinating I find mirrors in dreams, that my brain actually has to imagine every little detail, twice, and that I think mirrors have quite a potential for something, I came up with an idea of a "Change your look" stations using mirrors, you could touch you face and hair and so on as if the mirror was a touch screen, and change things.
That's why I think I dreamed of this, and maybe this made me semi-aware for a very short time.

The second dream I remember, which I think I might have returned to after waking up once, wasn't lucid though.
Was quite a long dream I think, I tried to recall it better after waking up, but I couldn't remember much, and it has been hours ago so I forgot even more of it.

The dream occurred in a place which was a hybrid of my old school, my current school and some things that were different but not from either of them.
Almost all of the dreams I remember for about half a year already occur there, and I think it changes a bit every time.

While writing this I'm starting to recall more, so here's what I currently remember.

I was sitting in my new classroom, which looked a bit different, with a friend of mine, from my old class.
In the seats in front of me were sitting two girls also from my old class, they were mocking me and my friend for not believing in god, I remember me and him telling them things but I really don't remember what me or he said.
I then talked with him about things, but again, I don't remember the conversation.
Then I was coming back to my seat holding something which was either a bunch of seeds or coins, or something else completely.
I heard the girls talking about how they are in need of the things I was holding, I think I might have brought it just because of it, I don't remember.
I then dropped one off on their desk without saying a word and went back, they said something along the lines of "Huh, helping now, after bribery?" and laughed condescendingly, I don't know what that meant in context of the dream plot.

Later I was outside of the school, It was my old school's outside environment, but different.
I don't remember some parts of what I was doing outside, but then I remembered a certain girl sitting near another girl on a big stone near me, I know exactly who she was based upon.
It wasn't really near me, but not far away.
I remember that I have met her in this dream before this, inside.
I remember there was a conversation, but I can't remember it, I only remember that it was a friendly conversation.
She saw my outside after sitting down on that stone, she waved at me and yelled something, I think she just said "Hi there!" or something along those lines, again her appearance made me feel comfortable, and a bit in love actually.
I think I greeted her back, I'm pretty sure I did.
The girl next to her then asked her something along the lines of, "Does he ever talk at all?" kind of in an intent of offending me, she answered "Yeah, all the time! I like talking to him".
I think what she said was a bit different, but this seems close enough.
Again I felt good hearing her.

I think there was more to the dream, but I can't recall any further.
Oh wow, I started writing this with
"Yet again small fragments, but I am certain writing them is a good idea."
And ended up with a decently detailed entry, I guess writing this up really was a good idea.

I also think my dream recall is improving, a bit slowly, but improving.

Edit:
Huh, minutes after finishing this I remembered another dream.
I was in my bathroom, which I am beginning to think might be a dream sign, third time I'm there in a dream.
Instead of my toilet seat there was a tall yellow contraption there, with about five rows of buttons, every row had a different amount of buttons, now that I think about it, there might have been two rows,
The first row had more than five of them, I think.
The second one I didn't really pay attention to, but there were less there.
The first row was about different flushing functions, so this thing was a toilet after all!
I pressed a button and then a stretchable leather like fabric went up and stretched blocking the toilet seat.

Huh, I wonder how many dreams I forgot like this.

Dreamed: 2.10.2012, Written: 2.10.2012.

Well, I remember a really small amount of this dream, but I think I should write it down anyway, for future inspection of my dreams.

I remember walking on a certain road, it felt familiar.
Probably based on a road I've seen in waking life.
I was walking there, I remember seeing that my body was extremely distorted, as if every bone in my body was broken and out of place.
I kept going anyway, I don't remember feeling pain.

I remember that there was definitely more to this dream, but I can't recall it.