lucid

Dreamed: 27.9.2012, Written: 27.9.2012.

This is the most lucid I ever was, I think.
I think I'm improving.
I hardly remember it, though.
I remember the night before, I was thinking about how impossible it seems to me to not be able to remember a lucid dream, huh.

I remember sitting in my chair next to my computer, the computer was off and I didn't pay any attention to it.
I remember knowing that I'm dreaming,I don't remember why, I don't even remember doing a reality check.
I tried to make my cat float with the power of my mind by holding my hand out and focusing on that thought, I quickly stopped trying to do that, I remember being afraid that she will jump on my face and hurt me, ha.
I them tried rubbing my hands to stabilize the dream, then I tried touching every object I could find, focusing on its detail and color and texture and temperature and everything that came to mind.
So I either failed to stabilize my dream and woke up, or just forgot the rest of it, which I doubt.

I really hope I'll have a decent lucid dream soon.

Dreamed: 5.8.2012, Written:5.8.2012.

I was sitting in front of my computer, I was watching a YouTube video, I accidentally turned up the volume to the max, I knew the sound will be quite loud so I quickly pressed the mute button on my keyboard.
I remembered that I never experience a volume change delay on YouTube, I have only experienced that while changing the volume on the VLC media player.
I then pressed the off button on my speaker, there's a green light right on my speaker that only works when my speaker is on.
The light was still on when I turned off the speaker.
And I remember saying/thinking "Well, if that doesn't make sense, does anything?".
And I became vaguely lucid, everything turned to black, I don't know if I got excited or scared, the whole memory of the dream is quite vague.
I still felt lucid though and didn't wake up, I probably could've entered a lucid dream if I was more aware of the situation I am in.
Even in this void I remember moving my shoulder, or at least the feeling of moving my shoulder.
And i thought "Ha, lets try and guess in which position I'm currently sleeping".
I felt like I had a choice between waking up and going lucid, I remember being scared and waking up.

A few dreams from my physical dream journal.
I'm going to start writing here from now on, I realized that my handwriting is barely readable.

Here are the dreams I currently have written in my journal:

DREAM 1
Dreamed: Unknown, Written: 27.7.2012.

I was in the living room, the light was off, it was also off in the kitchen, which is sort of connected to the living room.
There is a big glass door in the living room which leads to another room, it doesn't really have a purpose, we just store various things there.
The light was on in there, I saw it through the glass door.
I tried turning the lights on in the living room by using the switch, it didn't work.
After a couple of failures, i gave up.
I tried turning the lights on in the kitchen, it also didn't work.
I found it weird that only the glass door room light was working, I then "semi" realized that I am dreaming and suddenly rushed upstairs to my room.
When in my room I built a wall where my "door hole" is, (I don't have a door in my room).
I think I might have been wearing big grey or black gloves.
After blocking the doorway,I felt that I am not really lucid, that the dream isn't stable at all, which was true.
I then started looking at the huge tree outside my window, I tried to focus as hard as I could and receive all the detail possible to become more aware, I don't remember it very well, but the tree was beautiful and extremely colorful.
That is the last thing I remember before waking up.
It was all very sudden, irrational and just very blurry.