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16/6/13 10:23

It's night, I'm outside walking my dog.
I saw a bush move and my dog started barking at it.
A dog came out of the bush and a fight between my dog and the other started,
I tried to stop it.

12/6/13, 01:42

More things happened before this, but here's what I remember:
I gradually became aware that I am dreaming, no reality checks or anything. Just kind of naturally.

I was in a room that was looked very much like the living room of my previous house.
It was dark, but before I started looking for a light switch I had noticed my dog. Alma next to me.
She soon disappeared and I forgot she was ever there.
There was a light switch behind me and I used it, now I was in my previous houses kitchen.
In the kitchen there's a wooden cabinet with glass doors, I looked at the glass doors and could see my reflection.
I looked hunched, weak, ugly and my skin was very pale.
What I saw in the mirror didn't scare me because I knew that I was in a dream.
I even complimented my reflection on his looks, and he smiled.
The kitchen had a fridge and a table in it, I opened the fridge and looked at the door shelves.
I found a transparent package in the shape of a cone, that had different kinds of candies in it.
I took out a candy and next thing I'm out in my current house's backyard, it was night outside.
The shell of the candy was almost tasteless, but the cream within it had a subtle lemony taste.
I heard a sudden 'BEEP' sound, and I thought that the sound was made by the air conditioner working in my room.
Then came another "BEEP", and as I focused on the "BEEP"s I noticed a big snake like wave going through the road out on the street.
The wave looked like a blue trail of lighting like energy, and it was synchronized with the "BEEP"s.

I was in a library, I don't remember what happened before that moment, but I think the dream didn't start here. I notice that I'm sitting next to Morrissey, I'm not sure if I was surprised or not, I think I already knew he was there.
He then reached a bookshelf and takes a book, the book is some sort of book about The Smiths, he says "Ha, chose a book at random, and it was about me!" he said it as if he's suggesting that he's so famous that a large percent of the books there are about him. I reached to the shelf and took a book near the book he took, it was another book, about Morrissey now, I showed it to him, he made a "Huh" sound with his nostrils and had an expression on his face that said "I told you so!". I then thought about asking him when his autobiography will be ready, but then I decided it would be rude so I didn't. He was then looking around the bookshelves near the table we were sitting at, tinkering around with the shelves themselves, the books, doing something.
Then I told him "Hi Morrissey! I just thought of an idea for a story, imagine a guy comes into a library, and it seems that every book he can find tells him about his own life. Every book is relevant to him, and if the book isn't, then the persons life adjusts itself to be relevant to the book!" I was kind of excited about the idea, but at the same time I realized it wasn't that good either. "Well, I wouldn't make a whole book of it, or something. Just a short story, I guess." Morrissey didn't seem really interested, he was either ignoring me, or really excited about tinkering around with the book shelf.
Now my memory goes to a different dream, it might be part of the same, I'm not sure.
I think I'm watching a video on youtube, made by Retsupurae, a video of Slowbeef, Diabetus and others playing a game that looks like an island survival simulator. In the game there were a few characters to play, about seven or eight I think. I remember watching part six of the Let's play, I heard some jokes in the video that I didn't understand, I assumed that I'll have to watch the first parts to understand it. Then something weird happens, the game somehow smashes itself up into a completely new dream scene, I'm not watching a video anymore, but I am somewhere else. In a sort of neighborhood, I have my own house there. I was sitting inside the house, beside the main glass door, that goes out to the shared garden. I sat there with the glass door partially open, my neighbors were outside, at least fifteen people.
I was holding a garden hose, watering the grass near my door. I don't remember exactly what it was all about, but I think I had some kind of water generator in my place, and it overflew when I stopped hosing.
I remember that the water, and generally this scene were more vivid then my dreams usually are.
The people outside, or some of then at least, were laughing. I don't know why.
I was then outside, I forgot a few minutes of conversation with one of the people, I was outside. I was given a red brick colored rock, about the width of a piece of bread. I told him "Thanks, but I have enough rocks!" I threw it on the ground, It made a kind of deep rock shaped hole in the ground, and sat in it.
I then asked the guy "Do you really use rocks as decoration?", he said yes, "The rock is poisoned once you sculpt it, or even break it a little bit". "I don't think a rock has the biological systems to be poisoned" I said.
I don't really remember what happened next in the conversation, but we talked a bit still. The rock also turned into a potato at some point, I didn't even notice until I woke up.
I then saw a planet, a pretty small one, though he still was pretty large. The part I could see was almost completely covered in buildings that looked like malls.
There was a planet a few km's above it, closer to me. That one was much smaller.
I was then on the surface of the planet, I thought it was Mars.
On the surface there was a dead man's body, stuck on a wooden cross.
On top if it was written something along the lines of "Two months the deprived us of Greek lessons, only redemption is left".
And then I woke up a few minutes ago.
This dream was kind of fun.

Dreamed: 19.2.13, Written: 19.2.13

Another lucid dream last night. I don't remember how I became aware. I think I tried looking at my hands, and did other things to try and make things clearer but failed.

Dreamed: 7.2.13, Written: 9.2.13

Wow, after years of trying to lucid dream I get one, and the day after two more. This is a good thing.
I was looking at my watch, it said something that looked like "19:00:00" and I think that somehow, the numbers were numbers and letters at the same time, I wasn't lucid enough to really grasp the scene.
I then thought this was weird and became aware that I was dreaming. I also noticed that I'm not very excited when discovering that I am asleep. Hm.. I also have this theory, that I might have had dozens of lucid dreams that I just forget. Lately I always wake up remembering that I've had a night full of detailed amazing dreams, but I never remember anything at all.
Well yes, the dream with the watch repeated itself after waking up and falling asleep, and nothing really happened. I wasn't lucid enough. But, it's something at least.

Dreamed: 5.2.13, Written: 5.2.13

I feel absolutely wonderful right now, so please do excuse me if I phrase things a bit too annoyingly and eccentrically.
I woke up two hours ago and discovered I had a very sore throat. I asked my mom if I could stay home today and she agreed, so I went back to sleep. I went to sleep at more or less 8:00, maybe 7:50. I then woke up at 8:48, and went back to sleep. I'm a bit uncertain as to what exactly happened here, but I'll try to explain to the best of my abilities, as always.
I was lying in bed trying to fall asleep and started to really concentrate on visualizing for some reason, I think that I was already almost asleep so I don't remember it very clearly. Well I was visualizing, and I thought about walking around in my bathroom, I thought about a mirror, then I visualized looking at the mirror, at that point I was inside the dream. I already knew that I was dreaming and the transition was amazingly smooth and unnoticeable. In the mirror I saw a distorted version of myself, and then, to make myself less afraid I presume, I flipped the mirror off with both my hands. My hands were kind of distorted in the mirror too, but I found it funny and was not afraid as I thought I would be. I do feel I need to mention that there was something distancing me from myself in this dream, as if I was looking at everything a few centimeters away from myself.
I remember thinking of the words "Salt soft" when trying to get into the lucid dream, I think they might have come from a dream earlier today, though I don't remember.
After looking at the mirror I looked around it and looked at the wall, then I wrote "Salt Soft" with my fingers.
What I wrote quickly turned into a completely different language that I couldn't understand. I wanted to try to remember what had been written there, and then decided to write it down on paper in the dream, to remember it better. But I got distracted and decided that it could wait, I was suddenly in front of a computer, browsing the internet. But now I was suddenly in front of the mirror again, or was it a mirror inside the computer? I really don't know, it's all quite confusing. Anyhow, I was looking at the mirror, I now looked almost completely normal. I closed my eyes, I saw that my eyes were closed in the mirror, which is another reason I thought something was distancing me. Well I closed my eyes, and said to the mirror "When I open my eyes, I will be as, or even more attractive than "name of a girl I like", I've been really obsessed with her lately, always thinking about her, and thinking whether I'm good enough for her to even think about. So I guess that's why I said that. After I said that I clicked my fingers and opened my eyes. I looked in the mirror and saw that my eyes were smaller, and nothing else really changed.
I thought "That doesn't make me really more attractive, does it? I don't think so.", then I clicked my fingers again and again until my eyes were sort of back to normal.
I then decided to become other people, just for the heck of it I suppose. I did the same thing with the clicking and closing my eyes and said "When I open my eyes I will look like X". It wasn't very accurate, and sometimes not at all accurate, but it was neat.
I was then in front of the computer again, and I remember watching a porn video, thought there was not porn in the video, really. There was a sad looking women walking around a room which seemed to have a mild party going on in, she was thinking, or maybe people were talking to her and naming a long list of pharmaceutical drugs and she was very sad and there was slight dramatic music in the background, the voices were kind of muffled, as if she isn't hearing well.
The video made me think of an idea, "I'll imagine I've set up secret cameras in rooms of girl's I find attractive, and watch those video from this computer, that might be fun!" but then things started to drift away, I tried to repeat "Salt soft" again and again but I eventually woke up. I then lied in bed for about five minutes thinking about what had just happened. I then looked at my watch and saw that it was about 9:15.
I think that I'm going to use "Salt soft" as my mantra from now on.

Happy dreaming.

19.2.13: Salt Soft proved itself to be an awfully useless mantra.

Dreamed: 23.1.13, Written: 24.1.13

I am in my room, I don't remember if I just woke up (In the dream "plot") or if I just got up from sitting infront of my computer. What happened next isn't very clear to me, it might just not have made sense or I might not remember it well. There are two lights in my room, a main light stuck to my ceiling, and a dimmer light above my bed. The light that was currently on in my room was the dimmer light, I'm pretty sure. I got up and went to the light switches to turn the main light on. Once I did that a weird flow of thoughts rushed into me and I for some reason realized I was dreaming. I think I remember one of the switches not working, thought I remember both of them working too, but I won't dwell too much into that because I really don't remember what exactly had happened. So I became aware that I am dreaming, somehow. And I remember feeling that things were quite vivid, and I remember looking at my hands.
I think this was the most vivid a dream of mine that I can recall had ever been, and that's a good step I suppose. I also drank green tea before going to sleep, I don't know if it could have made and kind of difference there, but I think it might have. I'll try to drink green tea before going to sleep now, and post results tomorrow.

I'm also going to stop colour tagging my posts with blue meaning lucid and red meaning otherwise. It feels to me that the line between lucidity and "regular" dreaming is far too blurred, and I think the color coding isn't really a good idea. I'll try to describe my dreams as much and as well as I can, as for me, and for other people reading to understand quite clearly what state of mind I was in in the dreams I write about.

Happy dreaming.

Dreamed: 23.12.12 Written: 23.12.12

I was sitting in front of my computer monitor, and from what I remember, it looked as if I was only seeing the screen, which was quite higher and wider then normal, and nothing other than the monitor.
I was looking at the clock in the bottom right of the screen, and the time seemed, odd.
I don't remember what time the clock was saying it was, I think it might've said "4:00 am", and I found it very odd.
"Why am I not asleep yet? I have school tomorrow! and actually, I think I actually did go to sleep!"
This was confirmed after I noticed that the time was completely different each time I looked at the clock.
After blinking for a few seconds trying to make the time change, I decided to close my eyes and not open them at all.
Everything was black and empty, much like closing my eyes in waking life.
I closed my eyes intentionally, for I wanted to create a new scene.
I wasn't very aware in this dream, and my waking life recall was almost non-existent, so I don't think I tried creating anything particular.
I just started thinking of a certain girl I really like, and I started seeing her face in the dark void, slowly becoming a rather real and colorful picture of her.
I don't remember anything else, I am pretty sure I just went on to a regular dream, and lost awareness completely.
Or I might've just woken up.

I guess this experience just further shows me that memories infused with emotions are far stronger than "normal" memories, though I guess there aren't really a "normal" type of memories, because every memory is infused with something subjective.
But I will try to "infuse" memories I want to remember in my lucid dreams with strong emotions from now on.
I hope It'll help.

Dreamed: 27.11.12 Written: 27.11.12

Dream recall is improving!

I see a big building, I don't know what it is exactly, for some reason I seen to believe it's a candy shop.
I'm walking down some stairs, in an open area, though they seem to lead to a closed area, that big building.
It might be a very big tent.
As I'm walking down these stairs, I see a baguette and a piece of bread in my hand, there are a some people further down the stairs.
I quickly eat the piece of bread, I don't want people to think I'm weird, walking around with a baguette and a piece of bread.
I'm inside the candy shop, it looks as if there is a play being rehearsed on a stage inside,
There are children dressed in card costumes, I assume it's an alive in wonderland play.
An old lady said "I hope you didn't come here to illegally sell candies yarself, while the shop is down!"
In a not very serious voice.

That's it, hope dream recall keeps improving.

Dreamed: 25.11.2012, Written: 26.11.2012

My dream recall has been very bad for the past month or so, I suspect the changes in the weather are a part of the problem.
But it's been improving in the last few days, hope to remember much more as the days go by.

I don't remember much from this dream, but I remember being in a house, in the middle of a swamp.
I remember a big tree, and on the tree a tiger.
He was looking up and roaring as strongly as it could.
Then two bald people, wearing purple robes started talking, the house was theirs, apparently.
I don't remember the exact words, but they said something along the lines of "The tiger is in pain, he is shouting, he directs his emotions, fears and worries, and pain, out into the world, desperate".
I remember seeing an island near their house, which was floating in the water, near a swamp.
It had an abandoned looking house on it, I asked the bald guys who lives there, and they said.
"Oh, there? Old ~name~ lives there, I guess he didn't know how to, "Walk the tiger"".
They said and then morbidly chuckled.
There was more, but I can't find the right words to explain it, and my head also hurts.

Ha! here is a sort of fitting song.

For years now, I think, I always find myself in the same place in my dreams.
Or the very least, in almost all of them.
Some places there look almost exactly the same as some places from waking life, but there is always something different about them, not necessarily visual different, but.. I don't know how they're different, it's just "The Mood" of them, I guess.
That collective sense, smells, sights, sounds, colors, faces, thoughts, temperature, everything.
It all jumbles up into one big "Mood", and that feels different there.
I fell in love with that town, I don't know why, it's not all that different from waking life, it's not a thriving utopia, it's just.. well again words fail me.
I really wish to visit that town lucid, I would just love to walk around and look at everything.

I find it funny that I got so emotionally attached to a place which isn't even real, huh.

Haven't had very good dream recall lately, though I did remember having very long dreams waking up, I can never recall any details.

I remember having a very long dream tonight, feels like it might have been about two hours.
Or at the very least, seems as if it was a very long dream.

I don't remember much, but I remember chasing/spying on someone, as if I was a villain in the dream plot.
I was spying and when I got noticed a female voice asked me "Spying on us huh?", I think.
And I said "Not at all!" and looked away and kept walking down the street I was in.

That's it.

Dreamed: 19.10.2012, Written: 19.10.2012

I was in my room, suspecting I might be dreaming, I don't remember why.
I thought "well, if I was dreaming I would have noticed that something was off".
I then walked out of my room and saw that something was indeed off, there was a big glass window where there never was one before.
I remember being surprised and also a little shocked.
I looked at my hand to try and see how detailed they are, to try and make the dream more vivid.
They looked sort of blurry and there was a sort of "line-y" pattern on them.
Then I tried rubbing my hand against each other, it was quite difficult.
It was as if I was trying to pull magnets away from each other, they kind of stuck to each other and moved slowly.

I don't remember if anything else happened, I might have forgotten it, but I probably woke up.

Dreamed: 15.10.2012, Written: 15.10.2012

When falling asleep I decided to give this a try,
http://www.dreamviews.com/f12/activa...cidity-130989/
while also repeating a mantra.
I quickly fell asleep, I'm not sure whether I was lucid or not in any part of the night, this is what I remember.

The first thing I remember is me lying in my bed, my recall of this dream is really vague.
I was just lying in my regular bed as if I just woke up, it was dark.
For some reason I thought this was a dream, though everything looked realistic and believable, I didn't move at all, I might have been paralyzed, I remember being really afraid, I wanted to wake up.
I remember that each time I tried to wake up there would be a quick flash and I would be back in the bed in the dream.
I have woken up into the dream for many times very quickly, I eventually woke up in the waking world, I was scared and I remember thinking "it all felt real in the dream, I thought I was awake though I still tried to wake up, I only realized I was dreaming right now".

I'll think of this as a good sign.

The second thing I remember, which might be a different dream and might be the same one, is me being in my kitchen, I was talking with my mom about something, I remember telling her "Mom! listen! I'm from the future/real world!(I think I said future) I'm from September 25th 2012!"
Huh, almost right.
She then just looked like a deactivated robot, just standing staring at nothing without moving.

There was surely more to this, but I don't remember.

Dreamed: 13.10.2012 Written: 13.10.2012

Haven't slept really well lately, probably because of the weather changing.
I remember waking up and thinking "Oh wow that was a long dream", though I don't remember much.

I am in front of a computer screen, playing a sort of point and click game.
I remember that a screen appeared in the game that said: "I've hidden the treasure in Fecut".
It might have said "Fecut island" but I'm not sure.
There was a picture/drawing there of a part of a beach with two sandcastles, one was ruined and there was a path going underneath in to the next sandcastle which was fully intact.
I think that game might have been more than just a game, maybe a digitized journal, but I remember being very anxious after reading "I've hidden the treasure in Fecut", and not knowing where that is, I hopelessly looked through every menu and clicked on anything I could trying to find an answer, but had no luck.
I remember someone sitting by me, I think it was a female, I don't remember a face, though.
She didn't talk a lot during the dream, I think.

Then I remember waking up.

Dreamed: 12.10.2012 Written: 13.10.2012

There was another dream, I don't remember much so I thought it wasn't worth writing at the time.
But I'll write it up anyway.

I am in my current classroom, There is a book on my desk, the cover is mostly empty and slightly yellow-gray colored.
The cover had black borders around it, and a certain drawing on it.
The name of the book was something like "Repport", I remember it being a name, of something or someone.