midnightraine

All I remember was waking in a room dark purples in color large! A bed in the center to the right a door to a balcony, the left corner the door and direct in front of the bed a light curtain seperating the large room to an equal large bathroom closet area from the door I can hear a mans voice stern deep "where?" And the door opens as I sit up in bed a guy about 5'11 paces the room he's facial features are a bit blurry due to the dim lighting, "where have you been" is all I made out from his monologue, he went to the closet and threw a dress on the bed and told me to hurry. Slamming the door behind. Him, that's usually when I wake up and go lay with my fiancé. I tend to only have dreams like this when I'm not laying or sleeping with my fiancé

So its a new year and i moved back home and starting to get things together...i had just gotten into a great relationship with my highschool sweetheart, we had sex for the second time in 2 years. and i went home and had this dream..


I walked up to this house and it was magnifisant. My friend greeted my small group, my friend Geo and his gf Amanda and me and my bf Drew. We walked to the back and there was a party going on everyone was in the hottub and then we got out and walked down this path way and jumped into a pool that was deep and vast as the ocean, so i jumped in thinking,"if when i fall when i dream i just keep falling, so i wonder if i drown if i would continue to drown" so i let myself sink then thought i needed air... my friend that had let us in originally pulled me out of the water and brought us inside, they tried to get the mans attention and failed.. so they looked at me and all of a sudden i was speaking spanish and he understood me and made us drinks and left... the girl who had let us in looked at me and asked to see the rest of the house... i looked at her a bit confussed. so i started to lead the way showed them room after room and then i came to a room that felt amazing and i knew it was the studio i had always dreamed of, but when i opened the door the walls were half painted blues and greens, there was nursing chair and a changing station. But my full length mirrors were replaced with paintings and my nice hard wood floors slowing being replaced with carpet, the only thing remained was a painting in progress and a spot where it were to hang. i freaked, in my head i was lost i stepped in the room and the small group followed me my bf put his arms around my waist and i looked up at everyone and they were in shock. a million thing ran through my head. before any explination my phone rang and drew woke me up from my dream!!!

would i really give my dream studio up like that out of all the rooms i had. why my studio and why this!!! guaaahhh dreams!! HELP!

I was exactly asleep yet. but even with my eyes open i could see it... i thought i was going crazy last night. But everywhere i looked and relaxed my mind trying to sleep all i could see was this longlong dark hall and at the end was this shadow of a person. not walking just staring. the halls started forming and detailing as i got closer to sleep. It was cold, the air around me was tense there are large windows to my right, from the looks of it, it was raining and dark.

but thats all i can remeber.

Last night i finally got sleep, I remeber doing gymnastics, and a family not my own there. it was crazy, i felt every speck of chalk i dusted my hands with and gripping the uneven bar. then i heard my name and turned an before i could see who was calling me i woke up.

I got a little sleep, but when i dream iw as in a place that was really firmilliar. it was all the places i lived smashed into one... i rememb3er looking at a map and seeing how close i was to an area that i used to know. i remember black shorts and suitcases. it was night time, a summer night cool and crisp air, stars shine for miles in the sky. grass is soft and conversation is of how if i dont come back soon they will go looking.

Every time i sleep since i been here i feel as if im not completely in control. things change that shouldnt. control isnt there anymore. i wake up in a panic not sure if reality is real.... its happened for the last 3 nights. im almost afraid to go to sleep, i hate the panic feeling. Help?!