MistDragon

I have always had the ability to have lucid dreams, however I was never able to control them. They were always sporadic and I was able to have them once every month or two.

My lucid dreams always occur early in the morning. Typically once I am slightly awake and try to fall back asleep. Anywhere from 5am - 8am typically. I am not sure what sleep stage this is but obviously my mind is awake and aware and this carries over.

They were always very brief. I would attain lucidity but in my excitement to do things I would inevitably wake myself up. There was also little or no control.

For example, I would realize I was dreaming and try to "Fly" or "float" up through the ceiling only to have the ceiling block me. Another typical dream would be me finding myself aware but alone in a hallway or field with nothing and no one around me. I would search but nothing would happen.

Over the last year I have been having a new type of experience. The lucid dreams were much deeper and much more involved. There are people around whom I can interact with and things to do.

But now I could really feel, taste, touch, smell and see as if it was "real" life. It was actually quite alarming. So as soon as I realized how "deep" I was in this state I would instantly wake myself up.

I believe that I was afraid I would not be able to wake my physical body or perhaps I was dying.

I can not begin to tell you how frustrating this has been. This irrational fear keeping me from something amazing, beautiful and fun.


Yesterday morning I woke up early and turned the lights on. I put on a movie and laid in bed. I was awake but something odd started to happen.

My entire body started to tingle like pins and needles and I got the sensation of being lifted. I felt like I was coming up and out of my body. But, again, I was awake with the lights on a movie playing. I did feel like I was drifting in and out but I was NOT asleep.

It happened several times but each time I got to the point where I was about to lift up and possibly "Leave" my body I shook myself out of it and stopped it.

I was afraid of it causing a panic attack. Something I am prone to if I feel like I am out of control. Irrational fear like me dying or not being able to find my way back to my body.

This must have occurred five times. I pushed the amount of time in this state each time a little further but never let it take its possible "full effect."

Eventually I woke up and put it aside but I went to bed with the hopes and intention of having some lucid dreams this morning... and wow did I....

Typical of my lucid dreams they were broken up. Excitement during them causes the dream to slowly slip away and me to wake back up. I can actually see the dream start to disintegrate and fade and my consciousness slip back into my body.


The first part of my experience found me on a bus. I started to realize I was dreaming. I remember feeling like I was pushing through a barrier... almost like a cloth or plastic tarp and then BAM! I was fully aware and awake in my dream.

This has never occurred before. Normally before this level of dream took place I would wake myself up out of fear. To make sure that I could still wake up.

But something finally allowed me to push past it. I think that feeling of pushing through cloth or a tarp was my minds way of letting me know I had done what I had not been able to do before.

I remember being on the bus and fully knowing I was dreaming. I touched everything and there was solid weight behind it. Everything was real, vivid, alive.

So real in fact that I began to doubt that I was actually dreaming.

I walked to the front of the bus and started to have a conversation with a girl. She had opinions and acted as if she was not just a part of my dream but a person you would interact with in real life.

She then said something that made my thoughts about this being a dream or real life come to light again. At this point in any dream it is like a "reality check" and I would fail to recognize it was a dream. She was very negative about something and whatever she said caused me to push forward and question that reality instead of succumb to it and fall back into a dream with no control.

But I pushed forward past the reality check and the dream changed to the point where I could then control it. I wasn't just aware that I was dreaming, I could basically do whatever I wanted and change the scenery and physics as well.

The dream then took a sexual turn (sorry lol but I need to be as honest as I can here... part of the fun of lucid dreaming for me does involve sex) and as things got more intense I could feel the dream start to break apart. But more than that I could actually see it start to fade! Like a movie getting fuzzy.

My consciousness slowly started to slip back into my body. I could feel the odd transition as if I was in both worlds still... until I lost it all together and woke up.

But I fell right back asleep again. But this time I had a new control over the dream state. I remember shutting my eyes and calming my mind down again.

The next thing I know I am opening my eyes up in a fully lucid dream state. Amazing. Mind blowing. Imagine shutting your eyes and opening them a moment later to find yourself in a new world, fully awake and aware.

I awoke in the house I grew up in. There was no one around, the house and neighborhood seemed empty. I floated out of my old bedroom and remember floating around the neighborhood trying to remember who lived in what house and where people might be.

I realized that I was not in the correct neighborhood. There is a gap in what happened next but I remember coming to a house with a family living in it. I walked around the house went up stairs and found a person in one of the rooms.

As we started to interact I once again felt a sense of excitement and things started to fade.

But this time I think I was able to stop my consciousness from slipping back into my body by disengaging my interactions with people and moving on.

Again I need to point out the level of awareness in every sense was just as real as it is now that I am typing these words. I knew I was dreaming.

I remember things were still faded, possibly even black and white. I may have woken up for the briefest of moments but if I did I fell right back into the same dream again.

I recall jumping out of a window and willing myself to fly. Not float, but fly. As I did it the dream snapped back into place and I remember flying over an empty field with trees.

I don't recall how that "segment" ended but I ended up waking up again.

My mind was still in an excited state so I remember having to calm it down and shortly after I was asleep again and my eyes opened back up to the dream world.

All I can recall about this section of the dream was that there were a lot of people around me. At first glance they were mostly women... then I looked again and there were men also.

I recall trying to focus on their faces and make them change... make them look different. In some cases I succeeded but others I wasnt able to. Some I would change and they would morph back like play doh to some odd form.

I remember waking back up again. My mind was racing and recalling weird words and songs... it was time to wake up. I couldn't concentrate anymore.

I tried to lay in a different position and keep my mind calm but I just couldn't. So eventually I just got up and started my day.


So this all prompted me to keep a dream journal here. I feel like I started a new chapter in my dream life.

I just can't get over how amazing it was to literally push through to a new level of dream awareness and control.

Now I need to work on maintaining longer dreams, stopping my excitement from the dream from waking me up and how to get control over when I have lucid dreams.

I would sure like to have them more regularly.