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I made a drawing about a month ago, of a man holding a guitar, sitting on a big blanket laid out on the grass under a big tree, blowing petals everywhere. It was titled Under The Great Tree. I had a dream about two nights after that of lying under this big beautiful tree, with cherry blossoms on it, and it was shining all around, while I was looking up. I thought, "it is real...". It was so peaceful and lovely.

A few nights ago, I dreamt that I was in our local store here. My town is quite small. I was going through the books and CDs and I found a book that had a recently popular band name on it. I opened the book, to reveal a picture of the lead singer, but the writing above it was talking about another singer that had been dead for a while. He looked exactly like the dead singer! It was very strange. I didn't have enough to pay for the book so I ended up stealing it. I walked outside to catch the bus, in real life I have a car, so that was also strange...
The scene outside didn't look like the store here, or anything here at all.

My friend T, I dreamt of him once before, where he took me in a corner and kissed me and I felt a very strong love feeling in my chest... we have exchanged maybe 10 words in person to each other!!! I know that he is a psychic too, and probably a lucid dreamer. I was hanging out at this big beautiful house with him, sitting on the floor, it felt like we had been talking for ages. It wasn't a light-hearted conversation but it wasn't entirely serious, either. I remember the feeling of him holding me, lying down with me on his stomach. He was really sweet. His girlfriend IRL came home in the dream and I got off of him just in time. She didn't suspect that we were cuddling at all. She is really crazy in real life and it was strange that she trusted me in the dream, I thought.

A really really vivid dream I had a few nights ago- I was with those two guys I dream about a lot, and I went to their show. I was holding my guitar and you could hear them playing sound check from where I was standing outside. Eventually, the show started. After the show, we ended up going to their hotel room and one of them had marijuana he was keeping in the fridge. He was smoking it with us and drinking with us. I wanted to steal his weed but I remember thinking that since he is so psychic he can read my motivations and intentions and he would have known, no matter how I tried to hide it. The other guy was really quiet, not his usual self, but we ended up having sex or something. The rest of it was pretty disturbing, but nothing really horrifying, so I'll leave the rest out. I feel like it was just a dream character this time and not actually him... the other guy was far more conscious and engaging, I really think it was him coming to me with the dream this time. I was not lucid, so what a strange dream.

I have a very faint memory of one of them rolling a cigarette and giving it to me. Felt like a premonition.
I dreamt of J for the first time in a very long time. I just remember his brown eyes, nothing else.

I had a waking vision the other day of a wooden dinner table type chair, up to the seat in water, facing north-west, out in a field... no idea what that means, maybe my "seat" of consciousness?

I wish that I could remember the rest of my dreams but I have been sleeping a lot lately and very deeply. I almost had a wild, but that feeling of drifting into blackness without my body freaks me out, and I kept trying to wake myself up, to just go to sleep normally. Sigh, hopefully it happens again.

Speaking of my premonition a few weeks ago, I did go and perform and the stage looked exactly as it did in my dream then. Cool!

I am updating with the past few nights, not in order, just as I remember them. Some are detailed, some are snippets.

One of the most vivid dreams that I've had lately was a few nights ago, after asking to be shown anyone who loves me. It felt like a past-life flashback, not too in the past, maybe the 60s or 70s. I was riding a bus, and I was a Japanese girl. There were two Japanese boys who liked me, and they were both trying to find me on the bus. I remember going to one of their houses and eating some kind of rice dish. They were both in love with me. It felt very pure and calming, not like my life at all.

Someone took down my Marc Bolan poster and took it away and I was so upset and sad! I really do love that poster. I have no idea why I'd dream this.

I was reading a newspaper and it had said the US Government is about to start putting bleach in our tap water to remove the pharmaceuticals and chemicals. I was so shocked, I couldn't believe that they would be doing something like that! Then I reread it, and it said that they already had started to do it.

I had dreamed about that guy again. He was there with his friends, in my house. I asked him something I cannot recall, and he looked to the left (and I thought- he's lying!) A portal appeared in my living room and I fell in. I was with one of his friends who had been there, naked, squirming around on a hill with a bunch of other men and woman doing the same thing. We kept falling towards the water like it was a sinkhole. He almost fell in the water, falling in love with his reflection. I pulled and fought so hard for him not to fall in the water below us. If you looked into it, you would be pulled towards it. I saved him, and we managed to get back. I opened the fridge and told everyone- see that cake in the fridge? (It had two slices missing). That's what did that to us...
What a strange dream!!

I did have a lucid dream, a few nights ago, but it was so blurry and hazy and uncomfortable I made myself wake up since I couldn't stabilize it.

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Hello! Wow, it has been a long time. I will continue to update this journal because I type a lot faster than I write, and I have lost many of my dreams due to laziness of not wanting to write them out.
Well, in the past year, I have had a few crazy dream and psychic experiences! I mean, absolutely uncanny stuff!!! I will update with a few posts updating them and explaining them.

In the past year, a lot has happened to me. My worldview has completely changed due to my insistence on trying to develop my psychic abilities, and dreaming recall and abilities. I am a completely different person now. I have actually met someone from my dreams that I had been dreaming about for about two years beforehand, involving a spiritual connection I would assume. I know it sounds hard to believe, but I didn't believe it til it happened! More on this later. It is amazing how our world truly is when you peel away your biases and just let things happen to you- and believe them when they do. ^_^