mypolarbear

I went to sleep,
again wishing hard for lucidity.
Also frustrated with emotional issues..
So:
I was at my dads house,
which should be taken as a dream queue..
But no.
My cousin brought over a new kitten
And it was beautiful
And i played with it fro a long time..
And my old cat
(who I loved but I havnt seen in years..)
was just sitting in mud.
I thought
What extreme juxtaposition..

And then

i was hanging out with my old friend
(whom I dreamt of yesterday, her names Cassidy.
perhaps she is also a dream queue as I dont see often..)
and my cousin Halle (whom I know is a dream queue,
I dream of my cousins VERY often)
Halle was having a birthday party
First we looked around the house
and Cassidy told me the house is 300 years old
(its not.. its maybe 20 years old..)
I thought..
how ancient..
Halle was having a birthday party.
Then, because I thought it would be funny,
we lined up holding hands on the driveway,
greeting each guest who came
by saying in unison
"Welcome [their name], join hands with us"
We proceeded until everyone was there..
I was in the middle, as I ususally was with them two
However I thought..
Shouldnt Halle be in the middle? Its her birthday..
Her dad came and joined hands between Cassidy and I
I told him..
"You have to join hands at the sides of the line... Thats how we're doing it"
He was kind of dissapointed, but did so.

And then

My mom and cousins and little sister
were headed to a beach
It was storming
and the people of the beach and their children
were all leaving
i figured..
perhaps they just dont like to be out in the storm..
We proceeded onwards.
Once we got there,
a huuge wave was forming..
I ran back
(my family seemed unphased..)
The wave crashed and came all the way to my waist..
I figured we had to leave.
i went back to them,
and we all left..

And then

i was at a college maybe?
I was buying a toothbrush..
It was tiny
and electric..
As I was waiting to check it out of the store
There was a dancer
with very short shorts..
Talking to the lady at the check-out desk.
I was admiring her firm and shapely butt o.o
(also envious)
I finished checking out the toothbrush,
brushed my teeth
and worked out my butt muscles o.0 lol.

Ive been trying to Lucid dream.
Before I slept, i told myself.. I will do it tonight!
(it was a fail).
So:
It started out at night, I had presumably left my house in the middle of the night to chat with someone
(I didnt pay any attention to who it was.. o.0.)
We were sitting on a familiar bench which was out of place.. But in a familiar neighborhood.
A bird flew to sit on the bench, and a worm went to start sucking on it..
and it ate right through the birds neck
I jumped up (not wanting to be near the deadly worm.)
More birds came and the same worm kept eating through their necks..
and then a "medic bird" came. Lol..
It hurriedly chucked the heads of the birds at their corresponding bodies.
I thought..
Thats not very helpful. And.. How funny!
I saw one of the dead birds was.. very big
and its body was torn open,
inside were many baby birds
trying to stay close to its mother..
I thought.. how sad..
and then i saw my exes mother peep out of a distant house over to me,
so I ran (i hate her o.o)
Eventually I stumbled upon bunches of familar faces
gathering infront of a house
I thought..
Why wasnt I invited? Whos party is this?
I heard the voices of a long time friend and her parents inside
and thought how she had never even met most of the people gathered outside her house
and I did..
again i thought
why wasnt i invited?
and then I saw two old friends
and they were saying how they werent aloud to go to the party
because my friends mother didnt like them..

SO THEN

Im watching a TV special with my mother and my baby sister.
in an unfamilar room..
Its a sequal to this awesome anime "steins gate"
and also an episode of "black dynomite"
and also featured many childrens show characters characters..
(spongebob and friends, mordecai and rigby, finn and jake, ect)
Things go intense in the show,
so the childrens characters clasped hands and sang
marry had a little lamb o.0
And then a part came on
where lots of women
with varying amounts of breasts
and varying amounts on clothing..
(like the first woman had like.. 5 breasts, one was exposed.. i know, weird..)
some sexy, some more normal.. some more masculine, ect..
and i thought..
its a kids show too, must be ok if my little sister sees.. theyre just boobs..
but then she started making this drippy noise
and i got annoyed
and told her to stop
she said she wasnt doing it
but i saw her mouth moving to the sounds
and told her to stop now
and got frustrated
she swore she wasnt doing it
but she wouldnt stop,
so i sent her away
and then woke up
to the rain..
and then fell back asleep
back to the dream
(youd think, horray, lucidity! but no..)
i ran after my sister to appologise
for not believing her.. lol
i invited her back to watch the show..
the end.