non-lucid

I was packing for a trip with my friends. I packed mostly the things I usually pack e.g. dresses skirt etc. There were a lot of friends but I do not recall any of my Chinese ones. I remember seeing a few acquaintances from Holland that I am not close with anymore (e.g. highschool). I remember I felt odd seeing them. When I was on the way to the airport and went through security I realized that what I packed was not nearly warm enough for the cold weathers in New York. I realized I did not have enough time to go back home and back to the airport so I called my mum to ask her to bring that stuff to me. She said she would send uncle to give the clothes to me. I asked for my pair of black jeans and my burberry trench coat and my black leather jacket. Somehow I still boarded the plane and then came to the sudden realization that I still have not yet gotten my stuff. So I told my friends I would catch a later flight and then I suddenly was at home again. At this point I somehow saw Paul, who was scheduled on a later flight in the night. I was supposed to take the evening one in case I made it. I was in a frenzy trying to find my things. I found everything except for my leather coat. It was not hanging where it used to be. (I was in my room in hongkong). I was worried that I would not catch the evening flight when Paul suddenly was there and told me we could both just take the last one. So after a while I finally found my jacket and Paul already left for the airport. Then I saw Kyle who was wondering why I haven’t left yet and who I was travelling with. I don’t recall what exactly happened but I felt guilty. Back at the airport I stumbled on to Paul again who said that our flight was not on the departure board which was weird. Then I woke up.

I was asked by god knows who to be a tutor for my primary school for the subject physics. It doesn't make sense to have physics in primary school but whatever. I apparently just happened to have sold my science book and that was somehow related because afterwards I went to Thomas, a guy whom I have been in primary school with, and who was apparently also asked to be a tutor. I asked hi whether he still had a book left but he didn't. On the way over there it was still light. I saw Melissa, my primary school enemy basically, and she pointed me to the right direction. Then I crossed a bridge which was made with glass so you could see the cars driving beneath it. It wasn't scary. Up until then the overall colors were grey and blueish. When i arrived at Thomas' home, which was way tooo big and he lived with other primary school kids, i should've noticed something was off but i didn't. When they opened the door Thomas was still there ( we were almost late but apparently we still had enough time?) Afterwards we biked to the school. We crossed the bridge again, however now I my stomach turned as soon as we crossed the bridge. It was dark en the lights of the car kind of frightened me. Afterwards we crossed another bridge and again my stomach turned. At the end the bridge stopped before it reached the opposite side. Because I was getting dizzy, I fell forwards but felt nothing. Then i stood up and walked over some stones, even though it was supposed to be dark, when i looked at the stones, the looked as if i saw them when it was light. Afterwards we ended up in a flat and we went to the 25th floor. when it stopped there I didn't know it was the floor we had to be. I was asking him but got no response. Then i left the elavator, and I was carrying a black small suitcase. I dont know how long I have been carrying that thing. When we arrived at the right door we rang the bell and someone opened the door. It was the student of Thomas, who was kind of pissed for us being late. But then her face smoothened and asked whether he was THE Thomas, then she looked at me and remained silent. We walked inside and I woke up.

I woke up several times because i set my alarm but i kept smashing snooze until I did not woke up anymore. Apparently I pressed dismiss without noticing it.

I was in Home home, not Uni home and I was like wth. I was laying on the bed and suddenly I saw him. It was C. I hadn't thought about him in ages, let alone dream about him. Anyway, I was there and he came and laid next to me pretending that nothing was wrong. I was like um hii, as my cheerful self. We were just goofing around and then I had a 'sabre' with 88% atk speed up, so far for my game in my dream and he had the knife i always used to cut things. I was like umm, no please don't use that! but we were hacking and slashing around until i got a tiny cut. I was like ok stop, and then put my mouth on the wound to stop the bleeding. His look was as if he felt sorry, and he took my hand and pressed a kiss on it. I was astonished. I was like ummm, thnx. Then we went downstairs to get something and he was being rude. There was this game and I gave him to try it. He had to bump over some coins and he did not pass the first time, so he cheated on the next. I apologized to the person guarding it saying that I would make it up to him sometime, and gave him a kiss on the cheek. I went to the barman and asked for a beer(I hate that drink) and drank it, because i did not want them to know it was for him. Then I asked C. whether he had his drink yet and he said yes. I said goodbye to the barman and another person and told them I would see them soon. I went upstairs and went to my room. He was like, please wait. Then I heard things so, as curious as i am, I went to look and saw that the bathroom was covered in christmas stuffs. Then I went to my room and all christmas stuff again. He gave me a rose and I was flabbergasted. I just stood there and he was like, here for you, for christmas. I got something and was really really happy but i did not know what to give him because i had nothing for him. I thought of the perfume in my closet but then i was like omg. It was as if he could read my mind and he said, All I want, is you.

At that point I was scared and said, I'll be back and went to winterswijk? To pick something up for my mum.

Somehow I realized that she already did that yesterday and then my logic kicked in. I dreamt, I slept? MY EXAM and i woke up. Thank god I was still early, but C...... He scared the living daylights out of me.

I was on a boat in the sea. I saw people who were apparently from STNW. I saw a girl with a bag with 'Edengar' on it and i was like. uhh, okay? And I went to her and said heyyy i'm D. She was like ooooh D! How are you etc etc. Then i was wandering around. It seemed like a very strict boat, since the crew were like slavedrivers. I really wanted to get out of there and I found myself going into a backpack which was so much smaller than i am, and I layed behind a japanese magazine and pretended i was really sick. Then the leader came and wanted to close the backpack, and I opened it again. Then I saw that the backpacks were dragged behind the speedboats, so much that they were like drowning. I was like omg.... And suddenly I ended up in a gym with S. and L. We went to a trainer and I had my fat% tested. It said that i had like 38% and that if i wanted to lose weight, i had to consume less than 100 calories a day. Then I asked him that if i did that, wouldn't my body go into starvation mode? He was like noonooo you will be fine. I did not really believe him so we left.

There was something else after that part, but i can't seem to remember it..

It was as if i was watching a movie sex and the city. I was in 3rd perspective. I saw Charlotte, Samantha, Miranda and Sarah and some other guy from pretty little liars. I seemed like they were ready for some kind of an foursome? And that guy looked pretty happy and they were getting at it and then it switched to something else. I was somewhere and there was this guy i knew and we were suddenly getting at it and then the scenes switched again. I was still at the same place but the guy was gone and I was sitting on the bed with my grandma next to me and I turned on the tv. My grandma was like put the sound lower and i did because she was afraid that we would wake grandpa. And then grandpa woke up and came into the room and my granny shot me a look like 'i told you so'. I said sorry to my grandpa but he was like no, it wasn't you, I woke up already.

I was somewhere in an unknown area. I was standing there and someone who i called 'father' ascended and came to me. I was like hi dad. And he had a serene smile. It was not the father i have known for a long time. It was someone near the age of 30-40 so it was probably a younger version of him. He had beautiful black wings. It was as if i was kneeling and he held out his hand to me and i grabbed it. Then he pulled me up and suddenly I had wings as well. Mine were white.

And that was all I could remember, but i know there was a lot more though..

Competition
I was in HK in a home and saw my grandpa and some of his friends playing mahjhong. I went to a room to get some sleep but i couldn't so I turned on the tv and it didn't work. Then I was suddenly in a pool with someone else and started to swim. I heard people telling me that with competition I will make more effort to continue and that it would help me lose weight. I saw two people in the pool. A female and a male. The female kept pulling on the male's leg so that he got pulled back and she advanced. A second time she pushed him underwater making her go up and I remember looking at it with a thought of wtf...

Wedding,
I was someone tropical and we were looking for dresses. My mom had a new child who was very small and very cute but she was not fond of me. I tried to be sweet to her but she did not want to come to me. I wanted to hug her and she just stood away. I was really sad when that happened. Then i was looking at bridesmaid dresses. I remember they told me it had to be white and with ruffles. I immediately saw one for my 'sister' but then the sales person gave me a lightish pink one. I remember looking at it and saying it was too small. It was a size 15 and it was Alexander Mcqueen's dress. Even thought it said size 15, i have a feeling it was more of a size 6 because I normally wore size 10. When i tried it on it still had sleeves and it could not close in the back because i had a huge push-up bra. Then I said, I can take of the bra and then it fit. Then I went outside to show my mom and some other people and somehow the sleeves weren't there anymore and it was a one shoulder dress and it turned black with a silhouette inside which was pinkish. It was a marvelous dress and my mother loved it as well. However when the price came... It was discounted from 15000 to 4000. I was like omfg.

I was in Sa.'s home and we wanted to look for something. There was this part, the room in the roof where we had to go. She went back and used a long stick to push some button to get it opened. When it was open we went to the front side to get in. I remember looking above to see all windows. There were some other people who hung some curtains on it. They said it was because of the monkeys. I was like, what monkeys? Then they suddenly appeared and were making a lot of noise. Then there was a weird thing shooting a ball with rainbow colours and people were dragged in it. I tried to drag them out. that thing wanted to send them somewhere else. Then I concentrated to create something like a barrier with two other people but we failed and ended up in god know what place.

I had a nightmare not so long ago. It was one day prior to my father's funeral.
I was in a basement and I looked around. I spotted my brother and his wife and my mother. Not only that I saw two 'pins' from the ceiling holding 3 people. They looked so creepy. One of them was my father. He had a odd mouth (much like what i saw on a book cover). My brother put me and my mother there to be offered as sacrifices. He said that the undead needed to eat and left the room. I remember standing in front of my mother to protect her and then looked at the three undeads. My father gave me an apologetic look. Much like he did not want to 'eat' us but he couldn't resist. That was when i woke up and did not dare to sleep until the light came up.

I was dreaming that i wanted to get a tattoo. My best friend was there as well. I wanted to get something tribal on my lower arm and my father's initial on my arm. I wanted a white one because they were least visible. I already did a line by myself. Somehow they said they could not do it with the colour print i gave them. Then they printed it black for me and it looked hideous. I was like ok. don't you like,,, have something with wings? Because i do not want that. Then they looked for wings for me as I was looking on my upper arm. It was a palet ish thing because the letters disappeared so i took that thing of. Then they showed me some large wings and I was like okay, make that smaller and I like it. Then I lay down and my friend was like, brace yourself it is going to hurt...

I was watching tv with S. It seemed like a harry potter movie. We paused the movie several times so the UPC thing was recording a bit. When i wanted to switch it on again, I pressed on the wrong button and then we lost the rest of the movie. I panicked and tried to rewind to get the movie back. Somehow it worked (in real life it NEVER works). We started watching again and suddenly i was in a sort of a game show. I saw a girl and I said, wow you've got bangs now? It's been too long since i've last seen you, you've got so much to tell me still. Apparently I was gone with some guy for a very long time.

There was this huge line. I was following some friends and we were sort of cutting lines. Anyhow, when we stopped i stood in frond of G. Then he told his friend in dutch, she is standing on me. I turned around because i was astonished, first because he spoke dutch (fact is he is german) and second because he said i was standing on him whereas i wouldn't know how. I said no i am not standing on you I got pushed.

We were watching a competition of some sort and I was sitting and enjoying it. Then G sat next to me and started to talk to me. I remember I had dry skin so i took out some cream and put it n my face. Afterwards he picked up my cream and looked at it and he touched me cheeks. He said aaaw, your cheeks are so cute and then started to poke them.

I was at a gas station (the one i stopped at yesterday) and we were walking towards the car. Then we hugged each other and I was a bit cold. He had a black leather jacked and i reached underneath it. I remember feeling the contours of his body, I remembered his well shaped body (and ass.)

I was at a very uptight school and every on was wearing uniforms. I was with someone who got all freaked out and said that if we didn't leave now we would be late. So we started to move but then she froze and was like, our uniforms were not correct and we had to change but i said that if we did we would not be on time.

I was in a swimming pool. I had to participate in a swimming competition. We had to do 4 different strokes. We started with breast stroke nothing wrong with that. Immediately afterwards we had to do the back stroke. It was odd because some already went into the water and they stared to swim different strokes. Then we had to do another one and I started to late so I didn't dive in but i jumped in the water. At the end I had to do the butterfly stroke and that went well. After I was done I saw someone I knew. We went to a smaller more warm pool and went in. Then there was this girl who was chasing him and we went under the water to try and avoid her. It unfortunately failed. Somehow we wanted to get rid of her and then i was kissing her? And actually luring her to the exit. Then we pushed her out and I was with that guy again. We started kissing and went into the big dressing room of Marveld swimming pool. I remember seeing a lot of couples,,, being intimate with each other. I was still kissing him and upon arrival at the big dressing room, which was empty, we got intimate as well. Then one wall suddenly collapsed and we went somewhere else, meanwhile still kissing each other after every several steps we took.

1) My mother and I were somewhere in front of a hotel or whatever and it was supposed to be a new one in HK. It was a purple building and we wanted to book a room for me and mom and grandma. We had to pay 1300 per person and my mom acting all business like asked if she could use the phone. She called someone and then confirmed it could not be cheaper. Then we booked a room saying it was for 2 people only but all three of us went there.

2) I still lost my camera. I was in a shop where they sold lots of stuff including lots of small tubes to put your stuff in for the airplane. Suddenly there were two bags and Tony said I had to look in them. I was looking and still could not find them.

3) I was somewhere with 2 other people and I was cleaning very large stairs which were covered by leaves. Then i was playing a game. My perspective turned into 3rd person and it was as if i was playing a harry potter game. I was walking around searching through caves and using spells.

4) I was in a cafe and i wanted to drink something. Then i remembered reading that Damon Salvatore drank bourbon so i decided to order a glass of bourbon. I was at the bar and was looking at a lot of bottles that was put up as decoration and then asked the bartender whether he had bourbon.

5)I was wondering what to wear. I eventually chose to wear grayish things so I wanted to match those with my high heeled grey boots. I couldn't wear them however because it was so hot outside. Somehow i made my hair colour silver by spraying something on it. Suddenly i also had bangs again. I met up with A. and sat somewhere in front of the cafe because we were waiting for other. We thought we could spot them easier if we sat in front. I was texting and then got a text that they were sitting in the back. There were 4 people. N, K, and 2 others i don't remember. They then came over and sat with us. I remember thinking, why didn't we walk over there? Because there were 4 of them and 2 of us.

6)I was in Maastricht sitting outside in the evening alone wondering and waiting. Then my brother passed by and asked me whether i wanted to join him and his friends to go out. I said no i am waiting for some people. Then 2 people appeared, those who I was waiting for. Then we went to a club and I wanted to find my brother. Suddenly I was somewhere else, it seemed like a forest and I saw pokemon walking around. I saw a lion and I was amazed. I kept on walking until I reached a sort some elemental gates. There were a lot of other people who also wanted to get in. I remember walking to the side and we had to do something prior to get in. I passed and then I walked towards the main door. Which was apparently a fake door. I felt embarrassed and then continued to the smaller door at the side. It was a huge building, almost castle like and I got lost. I walked around for a bit and then found several people i knew from my old student association, and i remember feeling a huge relief. I then went to a huge table to sit alone because i needed the space for the others to come but the other unknown people went to sit there as well. Then I went to another table where a lot of people i knew was as well.

I was drawing four dresses, After I was done with them I showed it to S. I said that those wouldn't work. they all looked similar. All with straps, my favorite kind. After looking a bit bette i saw that one of them I drew just a dot and nothing else. So I looked at it and got an idea but i forgot.

Next thing i knew i was in an museum or something. I remember seeing exchange students walking around. I was looking around and suddenly it was as if everyone turned hostile at me and I just fled because I didn't want to get involved. However I wasn't afraid or something.

It started off by me being in my foster parents home. I had my apple laptop and I was playing a game called Sword of the New World. I was busy leveling Claire but i put her in a place where there were too many high level characters. So I took out my other account to help her. However the exp was very bad so I went to another place. It took me a lot of times because I always ended up somewhere I shouldn't be. Then I wanted to load my other characters and do a raid but i got distracted by C.(my regrettable past ) He started talking. Talking a lot even, and he showed me pictures of him in the past. All of which he looked really nice in and I was amazed he talked to me that much because in real life we barely speak anymore..

After a while we ate something and I cleaned the microwave roster and put it back in the microwave. When I closed the door it started running again. I wanted to press stop but suddenly there was no stop button. I could however open the door. When i thought it was okay I pushed it back in again and then it started running again. This time I couldn't open the door and I saw electric waves and then Mt, walked in. The microwave exploded in an odd way. There were no flames or that but there were things spitting out of the microwave. The door flew open and there were really odd white things and I was dead terrified. So Mt grabbed me and I just hugged him really tightly. It felt right, and I felt save. After that my foster mom came back in and just looked at the microwave. Mt sat on the chair and I sat on his lap. He was like yea I ordered something for you. He apparently ordered something for my mobile.

It started with me and my brother. We were walking in the airport because we wanted to board a plane. We then went to buy some deodorant but I told him that in HK they had little choice. When we went through security his deodorant got chucked away. Also we were in a shop and there were a lot of people and suddenly I got wax in my mouth. I had to spit out twice because it was so annoying.

After a while S, my best friend, was there. We got three different coupons for volunteer work. I told my brother to go ahead first. Then S and my were stuck in Enschede where there were red HK cabs. We couldn't get into one because we had to go to the station which is not that far away. I was very annoyed so I decided to go to my foster parents and ask if they could bring us. J, was at home and I asked her whether she could bring us. She was hesitant but said yes eventually and I paid for her gas. We went to the roundabout near groenlo and I saw S driving my mum's car. I was like why are you driving you dont even have a license yet. She was like yea but i drive pretty good right? and someone i didn't know next to her said yes and then I was driving again and suddenly ended up in Enschede. We ran up the stairs and were just in time. I saw a girl with coupons and wanted to switch one with her so that I could be with my brother in the same group. There were three coupons one red one yellow and last one I can't remember. The red one was for installing computers in third world countries, the yellow one was for going with a parent to plant food or something. I got a vision of a father with a little boy planting things.

I wanted to sign up and saw someone who used to swim as well. I asked her what she had in her hand and it was a certificate of some sort. I didn't bring it but i said I remember i send it once to my teacher so suddenly my laptop appeared and went to my school email. Though it took a lot of attempts for me to get the typing right (as in my name + password) and then I couldn't find it so I got panicked. I plead whether i could still join without that certificate but I woke up before getting an answer.